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  1. Last year I had this weird bout of hyperacusis that lasted 3 weeks. I thought it was either a brain tumor or an acoustic neuroma. Then one day I woke up dizzy, took a shower, and noticed that I was no longer getting the "fullness" feeling in my ear that I would get every time from the noise of the shower. The dizziness went away and it was mysteriously gone. But in recent weeks, I've been noticing a lot of instances of tinnitus in the same ear I had hyperacusis in last year, and it came to a head when it came on in a dream and I woke up with it. It seems to have normalized now, but I think this might be heading in the direction of eventually becoming permanent. Don't want.
  2. All over the place. I didn't get a ton of them...just one here and there. I remember the one where I first went, "what's going on?" was on a toe. But I can get them just about anywhere. Arms, calves, feet, neck...sometimes on the inside of my lip.
  3. I haven't seen any about it. But I first noticed them around 2014, so I figure at worst it's some kind of chronic form of something.
  4. I've had them for a few years now. Leukemia and lymphoma are among the many cancer concerns I've had.
  5. This appeared under my armpit a few months ago and seems to have grown (third picture in the best focus...not sure if links work here, though): This is just the latest weird thing to appear on my skin that never goes away (and I knew the moment I saw and felt it that it would be there forever). If I went to a dermatologist for every weird thing that appeared on my skin, I would be in there every other month. Plus, since this lesion is nodular, if it is melanoma, I'm dead anyway. Now, I'm someone who has done an unbelievable amount of research on dermatology/dermoscopy over the years, so I have some idea of what to look for in amelanotic melanoma. From what I have seen on dermatologist blogs/videos, amelanotic melanoma is usually red or pink (without the pigment, what you see is the vascularization for the tumor), and often actually has a tinge of brown pigment at the periphery. Another thing you sometimes find is white scar-like depigmentation (I would guess this is a type of regression structure, but a video I recently watched said that nodular subtypes don't have regression structures). The lesion I have does not really appear to be pink, but rather flesh-colored, and there's zero pigment at the periphery or anywhere else. If I saw this on someone else, I would say that I doubt it's amelanotic melanoma. The problem is, I have seen references to "skin-colored lesions" as a presentation for amelanotic melanoma in some of the literature. I have never really seen a picture of one that I personally would describe as anything lighter than "pink" (except maybe this one weird, peeling regressed one on an elderly man), but some pubmed articles use that description in reference to how some of them appear. Perhaps they just have a different definition for "skin-colored" than me...or perhaps it's actually possible for amelanotic melanoma to have the color of mine, where there's a whitish bump surrounded by some skin-colored elevation, with only the pores in the area appearing to be a little pink. Anyway, if anyone on here happens to recognize this lesion as something else, let me know. Maybe somebody here has had some type of cyst or adnexal tumor diagnosed that looks just like this or something. You never know. Edit: Oh yeah, what's also interesting about this lesion is that when I lift my arm, it pushes it further out and a vertical line of skin forms above and below this bump. You can sort of see the top line of skin in the picture (whitish).
  6. Still sometimes get urges to keep clearing mucus from my throat. It can never just be easy for me when it comes to health problems...
  7. The throat clearing is from whatever virus or bacterial infection I got a few days ago (which has been moving around in terms of which area (s) of my head it affects). But the frequent clearing triggered something that I normally get after eating too fast or something along those lines.
  8. I had this once before back in 2005, and I managed to get rid of it by pressing a pillow to my diaphragm or something. This time, it seems like lying flat on my back relieves it...but then when I stand up, it comes right back. What does this sound like? I'll tell you, getting a flu/sinus infection/meningitis/whatever this thing is when your diaphragm is messed up is life ending. I don't know how much more I can take of this before committing s****de.
  9. I do have the worst headache of my life, and it won't go away.
  10. Last night, I developed a sore throat (or more like nasal passage) and today, I woke up with a really bad headache and some muscle soreness/chills. I was thinking, "oh, this is probably the flu"...and then my Google search led to meningitis and how bacterial meningitis is often fatal. Great. I don't think I really have too much of a case of stiff neck yet (although I've had random bouts of stiff neck over the years without any symptoms accompanying it), and the thermometer doesn't seem to be showing a fever. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do, but I don't think I could bring myself to do a spinal tap anyway.
  11. For me, when I look at text, it's closer and clearer (easier to read) in my left eye than my right. I think I have an astigmatism in my right eye, but I'm not sure that's the only problem.
  12. I see the term, "pencil-thin," but then I have encountered people commenting on pictures of what's in someone's toilet and calling things much thicker than a pencil "pencil-thin." I've been having thinner than normal stools for several days now, but at their thickest, they're slightly over an inch. Is that considered normal? I guess the concern is that regardless of whether it's considered normal in a general sense, I have noticed it's a little thinner than what I'm used to, so it's abnormal for me. I also read a Pubmed article that stated that the idea of thin stools being linked to colon cancer is not actually scientifically proven.
  13. Remember what I said about melanoma in situ. It's not life-threatening. 0 chance of killing you when removed with wide excision. "Atypia" just means (and this isn't just in layman's terms), "we aren't sure." The differential diagnosis is melanoma in situ (0% chance of killing you) vs. nevus. When they say "atypia," they're saying, "I don't know whether this is a nevus or a melanoma in situ." That's it. The problem is doctors suck at explaining this stuff, and many of them still believe in the outdated "pre-cancer" (dysplastic/atypical) model. The myth of pre-cancer has evolved over many years, from doctors originally thinking that only elevated lesions could even be melanoma, to thinking only HUGE flat melanomas were the start of melanoma, to now believing that new lesions that look like nevi start out benign and then transform into cancer. But the recent research demonstrates that a lesion is either benign or malignant from the very moment it first appears on the skin, and doctors and pathologists just don't know until it evolves enough to show its characteristics. Get the wide excision and then just make sure to get more frequent checkups (because as I said before, those who have had one melanoma in situ have a higher chance of some day getting another...because if the conditions in your body were there for it to happen once, there's a higher chance of it happening again). I would also recommend doing a monthly self check on your skin and keeping picture records. But once again, to reiterate: Melanoma in situ poses no risk once it is widely excised. Superficial spreading melanoma (flat) takes a long time to go from in situ to stage 1. The concern would be if they had actually diagnosed it as melanoma in situ. If they're confident in a melanoma in situ diagnosis, there's a small chance of it actually being stage 1, where the survival rate, while still extremely high, isn't quite 100%. But if they're on the fence about whether to even call it melanoma in situ, it sure as hell isn't stage 1. I think the main thing is you have to adjust your way of viewing the word, "cancer." Not all "cancer" is created equal. Not even close. Basal cell carcinoma is a cancer, and that kills exactly nobody, ever (well, there have been like 100 cases in history where it killed people, but that was out of millions and millions of cases...BCC is so common it's a joke). Melanoma - the superficial spreading kind - is something that only becomes deadly when you leave it to evolve for a long time. That's the reason many dermatologists will now leave lesions they are unsure about on the skin for anywhere from 3 months to a year, and follow up. Because they know that at a certain point in a flat lesion's appearance on the skin, if it is melanoma, they have plenty of time to catch it and remove it before it poses any threat to the life of the patient.
  14. For the past couple of weeks, despite recently adding a lot more fiber to my diet, I've been backed up the worst I can remember being. It's not that I'm not able to pass any stool, it's that the stuff I'm passing is nowhere near enough. It's not pencil thin stools or anything, but they're light, floating ones, with not nearly enough bulk for the amount of food I've been eating. I read that floating stools can either be from high fat content or a lot of gas. I THINK it's gas, because they eventually sink. I would think if it's from fat content, they would stay afloat indefinitely...but what do I know? The other thing is that when I think I'm close to getting the urge, I can feel it getting "lower" the sensation is at the 3rd to last step, but there's never that final "push" to the 2nd to last step to where I'm completely ready to go...if you know what I'm referring to? I go in there without feeling that ideal sensation and manage to get out unsatisfying stools. Couple this with the fact that I've noticed my abdomen on either side of my belly button has been uneven since the middle of last year, and I really don't see how this isn't a bowel tumor.
  15. Is this a sign of a retinal tear? The descriptions for symptoms for a retinal tear are confusing to me. "Flashes of light"...what does that mean, exactly? I also have a ton of floaters in that eye...I think many more than I remember having as a kid. I don't know when all of this began, though.