anxiouslisa

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  1. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    @Ethansmomsorry I haven't responded before now. I've been sooo tired and haven't been logging on after work. When my anxiety was at it's worse in July, I too had reflux. It wasn't burning, but a lot of pressure in my upper chest and throat. i took Prilosec OTC for a week, before I started lexapro and it did help. Since my anxiety has been better, so has the reflux. I hope it's the same for you. I have positional vertigo, and have for years. It's usually seasonal, when the weather changes. I've had it for about a week, when I lay down and esp when I turn on left side, the room begins to spin. I'm trying not to focus on that and keep telling myself I've had it for years and if it was something really bad, it would be getting worse and not come and go as it does. health anxiety is so tough, but I feel like i am doing better since on the lexapro. how are you doing with your dose increase?
  2. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    Today I felt a little more anxious. I have positional vertigo esp with weather changes, so have dealt with that the last few days. My head feels spacey and ears feel full which makes me anxious. I've still not checked vitals which I guess is a positive step. I went out shopping alone and they helped a friend put a desk together and set up a computer. My upper lip started twitching in the middle of lip. Now I'm focusing on that🙁 I'm used to eyelid twitching now and then but never my lip! Of course I googled and it could be stress, caffeine, Tumor on a nerve or ALS!! I'm going to hydrate and take some magnesium and hope it goes away. I hate being like this.
  3. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    @Ethansmomsounds like you had a good day. The fact that you run on a treadmill should confirm to you, you don't have a heart problem. Thinking like that has helped me with my constant monitoring. I was constantly taking my pulse and blood pressure. My pulse was always high and blood pressure low, especially in the early weeks of taking lexapro. With the help of my therapist, I realized no matter what the reading was, nothing bad happened and I was able to exercise, move furniture, do yard work etc and if I had a true problem, I'd have worsening symptoms. I still do worry about every little ache and pain, but I haven't been checking my vitals. I hate that I focus on how I always feel, but I'm trying really hard to focus on other things. It's a start that i've moved beyond taking my vitals. Another thing I worry about is I seem to blame every weird symptom I have on anxiety and I am afraid I'm going to miss something bad if I attribute it to anxiety. So again, i'm worrying about worrying Let me know what your MD and therapist suggest.
  4. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    Hi Ethansmom - I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Hopefully once your body gets used to the new dose again, you will feel better. You have a lot of other stresses like the remodel and immune system being down w/pink eye and that all contributes to anxiety. I am feeling better on a more consistent basis, but at times feel anxious. Thankfully not full blown anxiety attacks though. Last week I got my hair colored and felt extremely anxious, but got through it. I've always had a hard time at salons. My hairstylist is so understanding, but I feel bad because I just don't enjoy things "normal" women do. I felt the tingle on my scalp from the dye and felt the all to familiar rush go through me, but I told myself "this is not going to happen here". i let my stylist know and she let me stand outside a bit and it began to pass, but I beat myself up about it all weekend. I know it's hard to take deep breaths because when you are anxious, you literally cannot. I find if i make myself yawn to get a good breath in, it makes me feel better. It's hard to ignore the heart rate, I wish I had a trick to that because that is the scariest feeling. It makes you wonder just how much your heart can take, but it does because your body knows it's healthy, and just our old friend anxiety. It's just so miserable and disappointing to feel like this, but I am so glad to know i'm not alone when I read other stories on this site. I hope you feel better soon and be proud of yourself for hanging in there with the meds. You will feel good again. I'm being to see the light at the end of the tunnel and you will also. We are stronger than we think. Please keep me posted 🌻
  5. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    Looking for lexapro reassurance. I am just about 5 weeks into lexapro journey. Two weeks on 5mg and little over two weeks on 10mg. I have a lot of morning anxiety and just feel afraid to go anywhere for fear of full blown panic attack. I've managed to go to work but that is about it. I don't feel like myself. Constantly worried about my heart rate and low blood pressure. Saw cardiologist the other day who assured me ekg fine other than high heart rate of 133 because it was done during an anxiety attack. I've read 6-8 weeks is the magic time frame for most to feel better. Anyone have advise?
  6. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    yeah, I checked with pharmacist here at work and Prilosec not really recommended with Lexapro and celexa. I'm ok with rolaids t be safe
  7. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    @EthansmomI swear we are going through the same things at the same point after starting our new meds. I too am having reflux! Unfortunately, prilosec or nexium are not compatible with lexapro (and some other antidepressants) so I've been using rolaids. It's not the typical burning sensation, but more a feeling of fullness in my throat area/upper stomach. I then start worrying about esophageal cancer also, but as Penny said, these short term symptoms usually aren't problematic. Hang in there! I'm relieved to feel less anxious, but still worry about every little thing
  8. anxiouslisa

    Kinda worried

    @joe17sounds like it's from increasing activity and from your physical job. Do you drink seltzer water? I've noticed increasing pains like you describe when I drink it, I attribute to the carbonation.
  9. anxiouslisa

    Sore muscles/body all the time

    As an anxious person, I always have sore muscles and when I wonder why, I take a good look at that moment and find I'm tensing every muscle in my body. No wonder why they hurt, my body is always on guard. As far as the floaters, mine have been driving me nuts! I've had them my whole life, but my recent issues w anxiety and starting a new med (lexapro) has made me focus on them a lot more. I saw eye doc Friday who pretty much said exactly what molly fin did. I am awake now at 1am wrong this because I woke up anxious and thought my lips were numb🙁They are not...but I'm feeling all kinds of stuff now that I'm up alone in a quiet house.
  10. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    @MsLLLthank you for thinking about us! I'm doing better for the most part. Tuesday will be 8 weeks on lexapro (6weeks at 10mg). I still feel nervous sometimes but find myself doing more again and not having panic attacks. I always feel a bit lightheaded and my head and ears feel full, so I tend to focus on that. I'm trying to increase my water intake. I've had ringing in my ears for as long as I can remember but it seems louder since on lexapro. I'll take that over panic attacks tho. I wonder if you've experienced or heard of others feeling lightheaded?
  11. anxiouslisa

    Increased heart rate

    Does anyone else feel increase anxiety and increase in heart rate after eating? I know blood is diverted to stomach for digestion, but today I really noticed it and became anxious. I actually felt anxious before eating and heart rate jumped to 126. I was thinking about how I started lexapro 4weeks ago and was wondering if I'd ever feel normal again and the panic started. Not a full blown attack but close. I took 1/2 ativan. Doesn't help I'm at work🙁
  12. anxiouslisa

    Increased heart rate

    @Ethansmom I've been wondering how you were doing. I no longer have cycles, but when I did, the week before I was always an anxious mess with high heart rate even at rest. My hormones have never been kind to me🙁 That being said, I sometimes still have high resting heart rate in the upper 90's. I cannot wear a fit bit because I'm obsessed with heart rate and would be focused on it always!
  13. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    Good for you for exercising! Up until my anxiety resurfaced, I was walking 40min every single evening. Even though I'm feeling a little better, I haven't resumed exercise. I know it would make me feel better. I had a good day yesterday, and woke up anxious this morning also. But I got through it and hope I begin to have more good days than bad. I wonder if your long cycle has something to do with your anxiety? When I still was getting a period, my anxiety was worse around that time. Hormones are not nice
  14. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    I think a little better. This is my fourth week on 10mg Lexapro (6 weeks total) and for the most part feel some improvement. I've not taken Ativan for 4 days, as I want to see if I can handle how I feel without it. It's been uncomfortable and I do feel nervous, but not full on anxious/panic. My head feels spacy and legs wobbly today because it's my first day coming to work w/o the Ativan so I'm worried I may feel more anxious and need to take it at work and then will feel defeated once again. It may be allergies too making me feel spacy. It's bee so hot and humid in Chicago. Trying to not think about every little feeling so much, but it's hard. I, like you, feel like I want to fall apart at any little hint of anxiety or unusual symptom. Do you feel any better?
  15. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    Staying in the here and now is definitely a challenge for us worriers, but I am trying. I have tried listening to relaxation type things on the way to work and it helps. Also, i find that I tell myself I've been through this before and felt this way before and nothing bad happened and I survived and I will again. Feeling nervous is not fun and it's uncomfortable but I have to work through this and push myself. I cannot make my world smaller because of my anxiety, as easy and comfortable as that may be. Thank you for your insight and encouragement. it is truly appreciated.
  16. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    @MsLLL thank you. So I haven't had a panic attack in about two weeks, so I know lexapro is doing something. Tuesday will be 4 weeks on 10mg. My psych didn't exactly say to take ativan at same time as lexapro, it just turned out that I take lexapro at 530a when I wake up for work and took .5mg also because I knew I'd need it to drive to work at 645a. I have not taken more than that .5mg in the AM for about two weeks, so only once per day. The most I ever took was .5mg twice per day. My ordered dose is 1mg BID PRN, so I've never even taken that much. I have not taken an ativan since Friday, since I'm off for three days, I thought I'd see how I do without it since i don't have to work. I"m not having panic attacks, but feel anxious probably 4-5/10 on scale. I've managed to go to stores and restaurants, and although I feel a little uncomfortable, I'm able to get beyond it. Not truly feeling happy again, but much better than a few weeks ago. I see a therapist weekly, and as awful as my psych has been, she is awesome. I am on a wait list for a new psych, and until then I have confidence in my PCP to give me direction. I wish there was a magic point that I'd know I've reached the therapeutic level of Lexapro. Every time i make it to another week I wait for something magical to happen, and maybe it is but I'm too focused on somatic things to appreciate it. Thank for your input and I hope the wellbutrin starts working soon for your friend, that seems like a high dose??
  17. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    @MsLLL I hope you can offer some advise both personally and professionally. I've been taking .5 ativan every morning w my 10mg lexapro for the last 3 weeks as I was advised to do to help with the anxiety during the initial stages of lexapro. At what point do I begin to wean the ativan? How will I know if the lexapro works if I continue the ativan. My psych refuses to answer that question and many others, so I'm in the process of changing. In the meantime my PCP will manage my lexapro dose. I'm seeing her on 9/6, but am just looking for an opinion. Thanks in advance!
  18. anxiouslisa

    High Anxiety and Can't calm down. Help needed friends

    I'm sorry this happened this morning. Anxiety takes the joy out of these simple things I don't know how I am, I want to say a little better but then I start to feel down and anxious again. Once our meds kick in we are going to be new women! We are getting there one dose at a time. Hang in there and thanks for checking on me.
  19. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    Thank you. Glad to hear it's a common worry. I'm beginning to question everything. The one thing I know is my only wish in life is to see my children, who I love with all my heart, grow and see their dreams fulfilled. I would never do anything to myself or them to jeopardize that. The what ifs are just things to give myself something to worry about.
  20. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    I'm sleeping well for the most part. Just frustrated. Had a very anxious weekend. Today is week 5, but only 3rd week on 10mg. Trying to hang in there. Do you ever worry about meds changing who you are. I worry every time I hear of someone killing their family or other murder s****de, I think OMG I wonder if they were on lexapro? I just want to give myself something to worry about. The what ifs?
  21. anxiouslisa

    have you ever felt that you are going crazy????

    Don't beat yourself up. You love your kids and want them to be happy and healthy, that's why we worry about them so much. Mine are now 26 and 20 and I think back to all the crazy things I worried about. The sad thing is bad things do happen and I think those of us with HA want to be so proactive that we derail our own happiness. It's so easy for me to say all this, but I live in constant worry. Wish I could take my own advice!
  22. anxiouslisa

    It never ends!!

    I have twitches also but for some reason like Leah, I can let that go pretty easily. I worry about everything. Right now I'm focused on heart rate and eye floaters🙁
  23. anxiouslisa

    have you ever felt that you are going crazy????

    @Leah1976 I'm sorry you are going through this. I've done the same with my kids when they were small. Always looking for something. Like you, I've bounced from one disease to another with myself and the kids. Please know your daughter is fine and you will get through this tough time. I feel health anxiety has ruined enjoyment in my life and feel like I was so worried all these years that I didn't enjoy the little things. It's a miserable situation but you are not alone.
  24. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    Yes, I have 2 dogs who I feel look at me and wonder what is wrong, where are my walks?? I work days, husband works evenings so I'm alone a lot and that's my problem, alone with my negative thoughts🙁 I'm going through empty nest big time. And this is how I cope by worrying. I know I need to get out and do things to get my mind busy on things other than myself, but that takes energy I don't have right now. I'm lucky to make it through work and back home. I'm trusting it'll get better.
  25. anxiouslisa

    Lexapro

    @MsLLL you are a blessing to me for this reassurance. I'm trying so hard 😕