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fortheo last won the day on March 23 2015

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  1. Wasted years

    Start now. Oh and by the way, there's plenty of 20 year old guys out there who would be interested in you. Just do what you want and don't worry about what society makes you "think" people your age should be doing. If you feel ready to try some things, then go for it. Good luck
  2. For some people anxiety can be a lot worse at night. Combine that with the fact that you're at a friends house, and essentially alone while everyone else sleeps, then it's understandable that a bit of anxiety might pop up. The only advice I can really give is to constantly remind yourself that it's anxiety and that it will pass. You've had anxiety attacks before and they all passed, this one will too. Good luck.
  3. Gaining weight is basically just math. Keep track of what you eat on a normal day (yes, count the calories), and whatever amount you eat, add 500 to 1000 more calories to that a day, preferably in well rounded meals (carbs, protein, fat). One pound is like 3500 calories, so if you add only 500 calories a day to your normal intake, then you'll gain a pound a week, which is a healthy rate to gain weight. You could go the extreme route and try something like the GOMAD (gallon of milk a day) diet, which basically just works on the same principles (a surplus of calories) but you get them from drinking a ton of milk on top of what you already eat. Long story short: if you want to gain weight, you need to make sure you're eating more calories. If you're not gaining weight, then you're not eating a surplus of calories. It's easier said than done for us naturally skinny guys.
  4. I was diagnosed with depression years ago, and I know that's a problem; but I'm also extremely introverted, and I've been an introvert for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, I was always on my own. My mom would vanish for weeks at a time, sometimes more, and I'd always just ride my bike or build tree forts or read alone. I was perfectly fine with that, in fact I preferred it. I would never go to friends' houses and I would never have friends over. I would never join clubs at school or stay for after school programs; I had no interest in that stuff. Fast forward to adulthood: I'm depressed, struggling my way through college, and I have almost zero interest in making friends or socializing. What I do have an interest in is my hobbies—I play guitar, study music theory, study french, read etc etc. The problem (so I'm told) Is that I actively turn down social invitations so that I can stay home and study these things. I'm very picky with my time; I have my whole day planned out from the moment I wake up, and it almost never includes socializing—it includes things that I enjoy doing on my own. I don't know if it's bad that I prefer my hobbies over socializing—I'd think my hobbies were a good thing because at least I have an interest in something. If I sacrifice time for socializing, my all or nothing thinking kicks in and I start to crumble thinking about how much time I'm losing from my interests....then I get depressed and become a human mole. I think what I'm trying to get at is this: My family tells me I need to open up more and broaden my horizons and meet new people and all that stuff (stuff I have no interest in), but if I do that, then that would mean I'm sacrificing time from the only aspect of my life that I enjoy, which is my hobbies. They think me being an introvert is because I'm depressed and anxious, but really I just don't value social life as much as I value bettering myself in other areas. I've gotten the "well, sometimes you just need to do what you dislike speech", but "getting out there" leads to me losing a part of myself and thus begins the cycle of my depression once again.
  5. Well, on the weekdays I sleep very odd hours. I'll nap a few hours here and there between my responsibilities. Then I will typical be up all night. It's come to the point where I don't even know If I want to change you know? like...I don't think there is anything wrong with me; I simply sleep better during the day than I do at night. There is just a lot of pressure for the majority of us to keep the same schedule as everyone else and I just suck at conforming I guess. I need to figure out how to work around my sleep schedule because I've tried my whole life to sleep better at night and it just doesn't sit well with me, both physically, and mentally. It also feels like I'd be sacrificing a part of myself if by some odd chance I ever fully acclimated to "normal sleep schedules". Maybe it's a control thing for me...I need this control over my life. I don't know really. It's not really hindering me at the moment though, it's just slightly annoying. I more so blame my exterior responsibilities placed on me by society than I blame my sleep schedule. Random rant over.
  6. It's been just about three years since I started this topic. It's depressing to see how little I've changed. Damn.
  7. Who else is severely bored by the same 4 walls?!

    I'm not even agoraphobic—I'm just depressed as fuck these days, but that depression results in me staying home far more than I should. I think about how tired I am of the same four walls all the time, and I think about how it only enforces more of the same ole depression, and I think about how nothing will change when I'm stuck staring at the same fucking walls every day. However, I know that's not really the source of my problem because I do move around from my apartment to my relatives somewhat often, and despite that change I still start to feel shitty again once I settle in. I'm clearly meant to be a traveling banjo player.
  8. Natural remedies for Anxiety

    Honestly, the best natural thing I've done for my anxiety and depression is to exercise more and eat whole foods. It doesn't cure it but it definitely helps my mood. I use to drink chamomile tea every night too and I found that it did have a relaxing effect but it also gave me some weird dreams.
  9. Anxiety and Homesickness

    I actually failed my first semester at uni because of this, well, mine was more so depression. Anyways all I can suggest is try to make it to your classes and stay on top of your homework no matter what. I'm not just saying this because " school is important" blah blah, but actually doing something and forcing yourself to concentrate will help you get out of your own head and at the very least distract you. Also, when you're feeling lonely do you have any friends you could text and talk to ? That helps me a little. good luck
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    I can relate man. I think half of it is our mindset, for me anyways I know it is. I have a habit of picking out all the negative things people say and then holding on to that negative comment for a long ass time. The other half of it is that a lot of people are just dicks. Gotta learn to be a bit less vulnerable I suppose. Don't know exactly how to do that though :/
  12. Hiking

    I like hiking, but I don't like driving to a mountain :/ It's awesome that you're doing it though! it gives you a great feeling of accomplishment.
  13. l lost 20 pounds

    That's awesome, keep doing whatever you've been doing haha
  14. bad day >.<

    Hope you feel better soon. You're over analyzing everything you feel! anytime you think somethings wrong, just remind yourself that it's just anxiety over and over again!