MrsMoon

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  1. MrsMoon

    Seeing A Little Light

    Today I woke up with a ton of anxiety but now I am feeling pretty well. I had to post a video for an online course and it was making me so anxious. I got it done, was able to do the dishes, sweep, and take a shower. It is amazing how mundane tasks can give me so much anxiety. When I wake up, I see dishes in the sink and it freaks me out. Does anyone else feel anxiety when you think about mundane tasks? It's terrible! I am still waiting for the therapist to call me. It seems to be taking some time so I am going to call tomorrow. I see my practitioner on Monday and I hope that she can tweek my meds a little more to help me with my anxiety. I wish I could find more people to connect with on here.
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    I Took A Step

    It did. They were able to adjust my medicine so that I could sleep. My practitioner was weening me off meds and weened down my sleep medication. I hadn't slept all the way through the night untill I sought treatment. My anxiety is still bothering me though.
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    I Took A Step

    Last Thursday I decided to go inpatient to get some help. I attempted to check myself into a local hospital but was turned away because I didn't meet the criteria. Apparently I had to be homicidal, s*****al, or psychotic. I was told to go to a local crisis residential unit that I have been to before many years ago. At first I was apprehensive but I knew that I would slip deeper into insanity if I didn't take the leap. I packed my bags and my friend took me. It is odd because I barely remember even going or the process of admission. The first few days were tough. I couldn't sleep which has been a persistent problem for about a month. They decided to put me on Ativan temporarily and eventually increased my Trazadone dosage enough to knock out a horse. Well, it finally worked. There were groups including visualization to assist with panic attacks. I met a young woman that also suffers with mental illness and we developed a friendship. I left last night and the house is a mess. My husband didn't have the time to clean up because I was released early. I woke up today and I am extremely overwhelmed with the housework that is needed around my house. I also woke up with ear worms...again and found that a prescription I got filled last night got misplaced. I am going to spend the day reading, coloring, and maybe watching Games of Thrones. I also have schoolwork to make up which is making me extremely anxious. I see my provider on Monday. I am praying for more progress. All I can do is have faith and pray.
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    Ear Worms In Full Effect

    About Me: For the past couple of weeks I have been wakened up by musical verses in my head. They are pretty consistent but sometimes they change. Its a group of lyrics on loop, over, and, over, again. It is absolutely maddening. It makes my anxiety 10xs worse. I just try to tell them to go away and they come back with a vengeance. I don't remember every suffering from this. Of course, I've had music stuck in my head but it was not troublesome. I am desperate to combat this. Also, I am not getting adequate sleep. I feel like I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. This really had an onset last week. I attend college online for my MSW and I had to turn in three papers and do a video (I HATE having people see me). Anyways, this is when my anxiety went to an all time high. I am also frustrated with my husband because he drinks and I worry that he will wake up drunk and go to work. It is terrifying. Everything scares me pretty much. I can't drive. When I'm in a car, I am apprehensive and hyper vigilant the whole time. I can only handle going to the grocery store and doing small errands. My anxiety is consistent throughout the day. Sometimes I cannot find the source. I wouldn't say I have panic attacks (I have in the past) but I have an internal dialogue of anxious feelings and beliefs. About Today: I woke up with the normal loop of music lyrics. I thought that a half way decent sleep would lol the effects at least a little. Wrong! I feel exhausted. I have chores to do. Seeing the sink with dishes in it makes my anxiety really bad. I feel like I have not been able to take care of my home because of my anxiety. I tend to take a shower and watch some tv. I'm currently obsessed with Game of Thrones. I am also quite active on social media. However, I find that it is increasing my anxiety. The political debates online dishearten me and anger me. I rarely comment, I just sit by idly hoping someone else does. I have to remember that there a more important things I need to worry about and many things are out of my control. I pray daily and try to read the bible. I just received a book in the mail "Be Anxious For Nothing" by Joyce Meyer. I plan on reading this today as well.
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    Ear Worms

    Yes, it is like a continual record playing. Sometimes only a few verse or it will switch to another song. They are very intrusive. I'm unable to wake up without the anxiety that they induce. I hear that chewing gum may work. Not sure, though
  6. I am new to this site. I am hoping that I can find some relief by speaking with other people that suffer from anxiety. It has taken over my life. I haven't been hospitalized in over 3 years now and thought that I was doing well. Now I am on the brink of a breakdown. I am going to school online for my masters in social work. Last week I had to write 3 papers. Needless to say, it triggered the onset on my anxiety and I am doing very poorly. I am unable to sleep. I am hypersensitive. Sounds are amplified and it is terrible. The worst part is the ear worms. I have been plagued by an ear worm for about two weeks now. It is a group of verses from a song that I used to like. Sometimes it switches to another song, but it is maddening. As soon as I wake up, it is there and will not go away. Has anyone suffered from this?
  7. I am new to this site. I am hoping that I can find some relief by speaking with other people that suffer from anxiety. It has taken over my life. I haven't been hospitalized in over 3 years now and thought that I was doing well. Now I am on the brink of a breakdown. I am going to school online for my masters in social work. Last week I had to write 3 papers. Needless to say, it triggered the onset on my anxiety and I am doing very poorly. I am unable to sleep. I am hypersensitive. Sounds are amplified and it is terrible. The worst part is the ear worms. I have been plagued by an ear worm for about two weeks now. It is a group of verses from a song that I used to like. Sometimes it switches to another song, but it is maddening. As soon as I wake up, it is there and will not go away. Has anyone suffered from this?