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  1. I totally get what your feeling. In the past, I have to say that even if I dreaded them, vacations were amazingly medicinal for me. It's like taking me out of my routine helped me to see things from a different perspective and somehow calmed me down. Weird, hugh? I totally get it...completely but for me "getting away" has always be helpful. I hope it will prove to be helpful for you as well. Keep us posted, ok? We want to hear about all the fun you had.
  2. @mollyfin you have the healthiest and most amazing attitude about everything and I appreciate all of your posts so much. Hugs.
  3. I'm a woman so I get my yearly pap smears. I've always tested negative for hpv but they only test for the high risk strains. My warts were all external and quite visible and uncomfortable. I have my doctor check but I'm sure I'd notice it as well, like I did the first time. So anyway, all women are supposed to get checked yearly and now a days with the pap smear they also do an hpv test...that's how prevalent it is. They should do similar for men...but they don't...I guess because men don't have a cervix. I too was taught to abstain and obviously with the first man I was engaged to, I didn't. A part of me thinks I was punished for not's just the way I was raised. But God is merciful and we are all sinners in one way or the other. I had a lot of guilt and self loathing when I found out. My husband was amazing, he just didn't care at all...not at all....and he's never had a wart. It's not easy to come to grips with it....but it does get better. I hope I've helped.
  4. Here are a few resources for you that will help you tremendously...and by the way men get all sorts of HPV as well as women, it's just the men don't have a cervix and therefore are not tested via pap smear for hpv. 1. Google Dr. H. Hunter Hansfield (the one and only time I'll suggest you google)...he is the expert on HPV and will make you feel oh so much better. 2. Look up info on the USA CDC on HPV and you'll also feel better. Here's what I know, the hpv that causes genital warts in men and women are not the same hpv strains that cause cancers in men and women. It's thought that one's immune system either completely eradicates or suppresses the virus...if it is suppressed it is possible for warts to come back during periods after your immune system has had a blip of some sort - any wart can come back similarly. Here's how I know all this stuff. I was diagnosed for the first time with gw in 2017 after being married and faithful for 25 years (dated 2 years before that...and was faithful). I have no reason to believe that my husband cheated on me. My husband was a virgin when we met. I had been with only one man prior to my husband who I was engaged to but that fell apart. That first man, had other experiences before me. Before my outbreak I had a very very very severe life episode that caused my immune system to plummet....a hugely anxious life the same time I was given a pretty potent systemic shot of prednisone for another issue and voila. My gyn thinks that the combination of the two caused my immune system blip which allowed the warts to surface. So I'm not that "experienced." I'm faithful, my husband is faithful but almost 30 years after possible first exposure I get warts. I was devastated to say the least, but my gynecologist made me feel so much better. She says it's super common, everyone has it, they just might not know about it. She told me about an 80 year old woman that came in with warts who hadn't been with anyone in 30 years (she was a widow)...and her husband was her one and only. It was an awful and humiliating experience, but Dr. Hansfield (see doc to google above) refers to the warts in some of his writing as "an unpleasant inconvenience." Get treated, deal with your anxiety, take care of yourself to boost your immune system (sleep, no smoking, good food etc...) and this will be a far distant memory sooner rather than later. Hang in there...I know how hard it is...but you'll be ok. PS Condoms do not protect against's a skin to skin issue not a bodily fluids any skin in the nether-regions touching other skin in the nether regions and hpv is easily passed along. They should tell people this but they don't make it known.
  5. This is very helpful. Thank you both.
  6. Going through this same thing myself...almost exactly as you. Long story short...I have an appt with my gyn for next Friday...although it's all gotten better. I figure I can always cancel if it gets even better still. I suspect that it's IBS for both of least that's what I'm hoping. Are you feeling better?
  7. I've had this before on and off and for me it is always related to something I ate. Like gum..I love gum...but if I chew gum then I'll get scalloped tongue. I don't allow myself to have gum any longer. One time I had Big Red Gum that hot cinnamon like's so delicious...and I didn't just have like one I kept chewing and chewing and chewing piece after piece after piece. I wound up with the worst case of scalloped tongue ever...but it went away. Yes I did that as a grown adult and not a little kid. I have no control when it comes go gum. LOL! So I had to quit it cold turkey and must always stay away from it. My mom gets it as well.
  8. Glad you're doing well. You are strong and capable and you got this. It will soon be all behind you and just a bad memory. Hugs.
  9. So last month I posted on here about some extreme pelvic pain. Over the course of the following days it got worse...I ended up in the ER. They only tested me for a UTI...said I had a slight uti and sent me on my way with antibiotics. A few days (Tuesday) is Thursday... similar symptoms began. After resting a lot yesterday and last night. Most of the pain is gone. I had a ton of gas and belching (sorry tmi). Also pain when even just walking or moving around in my lower (mostly left) tummy. I had IBS diagnosis years ago in my 20's it comes and goes...mostly though it's been gone...I'm wondering if this is IBS again....but this time I don't have terrible diarrhea just bad bad bad lower abdomen pain with seemingly a lot of gas. So today I am better. Do I wait it out and see if it comes back? I mean, what do I tell my doctor, I had bad gas for 2 days but now its gone? I've never been to a gastro in my area so I'd be a new patient and not sure how quickly I could get in anyway Do I wait and see if it comes back? I know none of us on here are medical professionals. I know you can't tell me what to do. I'm asking instead only for your non-professional fellow HA sufferer opinion as I really want to avoid doctors if I can because I'll go down the rabbit hole again. So... What is the reasonable thing to do? What would you do?
  10. You got this. You are in my prayers. Hugs. We're here if you need to vent.
  11. Drat...I don't know. What I think is that anyone...whether or not they suffered from anxiety...would be feeling anxious. You're a father, you love your daughter. You want her to be well and do well. I think I'd be worried about you if you weren't anxious under the current situation. I also think it's normal to "feel" the anxiety in one's body...or at least it is for me. I hope today is a better day for you and your family.
  12. I wonder if your brother could provide you with some insight and/or provide her with some insight? Can a school counselor help? Can they provide insight?
  13. Absolutely stress is to be expected under these circumstances and feeling it physically is absolutely normal, but you know that are doing great at handling things. You are inspiration to us all here...especially to me. I've learned a lot from you. A few thoughts for you. 1. Teenagers are acne covered thugs - bless their little cotton socks. But you and she will survive these years. 2. You are doing everything you can to parent her the best way you know how but at the end of the day, she is has to choose to "fly right." You can do all things right and she might still make the wrong choices - that's scary but it's true. All you can do is the best you can and love her. Love is a great tool to raise up a kid and you obviously love her 3.Throughout the ages people have gone through some rough and stupid teenage (and sometimes early 20's) years and then they grow out of their stupidity. Your daughter will likely grow out of these trying years like everyone else does. What I do when I become overly stressed and need to escape a bit 1. Watch really stupid and cheesy reality tv. 2. Read a fun book. 3. Pray. 4. Help anything at all. Like it helps me to come here and encourage someone, smile at someone who I think needs it, pray secretly for someone else, donate a nominal anything positive I can do for someone else is very healing for me. I'm not really sure why. I guess I do it for selfish reasons really because it really does help to ground me and take me out of my current situation or thought process to try to find some small way to help someone else. 5. Play a video game. One more thought on your daughter....idle minds are no good...not for anyone. Having been a mischievous teenager myself once, I'd say that keeping busy helped keep me on the right track. Perhaps help her to get involved in clubs, sports, a job, a church group, anything. Structured time with little free time was good for me...heck it still is...keeps me from being too anxious. LOL! Hang in there, binn, and thank you for all you do for all of us here always. I hope things settle down for you and your daughter. I'm sure they will.
  14. Dog's are God's Angels...truly. They are such wonderful furry people....they are better than people - always accepting, always encouraging, always loving. Oh and they are funny. there's nothing more calming for me than cuddling with my dog. I completely concur on the dog therapy. Also, know this, you actually aren't have all of us here. Sometimes doing mundane things helps ground me in times of extreme anxiety (dishes laundry)...or sometimes silly/entertaining things (reading a fun book, watching really cheesy reality tv or playing a game on my ipad). Sometimes helping someone else helps a takes me out of my head...and makes me feel useful. Helping someone can be as simple as giving someone a smile at the grocery store, encouraging someone, or honestly anything positive that you feed into someone else's life. It's very healing - who knew? Hang in there. You got this.
  15. Good take care of you!