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    Panicking - Rodent Illnesses

    Wingnut.....Breathe. High blood pressure is not a sign on hantavirus. I have been this one more than once. I am not going to lie and say you face no risk. You were exposed to droppings, and there is a slim risk. The only thing you can do about it, though, is mention that you were exposed to a lot of droppings if you are sick enough to go to the ER and demand that they do the test for that particular virus. The symptoms start out as a bad flu and BODYACHES are a universal symptom. Now, I know you are going to start feeling bodyaches now, but try to really discern if they are true pains or imagination. One time, I was like 8 days into having been exposed to mousepoop, and I woke up with INTENSE body aches. I was like holy crap, this is hantavirus, this is really it---- until I remembered I had raked leaves the day before and I am realllllly out of shape, apparently. I did not go to the ER. Anxiety is going to cause a lot of symptoms in you that you are going to want to interpret as hantavirus, and that is the shitty hand of hypochondria. Remember, there is nothing a hospital can do for you right now. They can't prevent it, or tell if you will develop it until the virus has replicated enough. That is true of any virus and might not even happen until the middle of disease course. The only thing they can do is test you and test you if you are in bad enough shape to be admitted. I know how terrible this is, but you need to maintain your wits about you and stop LOOKING for signs.Quit it with the blood pressure checks. Live normally until the moment you feel so sick you can't stand up (that's what happens with the flu). At that point, since you might have been exposed, go in. But, honestly, the most likely reality is that you will NOT get sick like that and you will never have to go in and you will be fine.
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    Calling all my lumpy friends... :D

    I am lumpy but they are not lipomas.Just weird random sh*t all over the place. Some of them have been suspicious for cancer, and I have had to go through various diagnostic processes. I feel like I've learned a whole lot more about cancer and how cancer is discovered since I've been through the "oh, the differential for this is cancer so we need to check" about 4 times. Benign everytime though!
  3. Oh crap! Just what you need. The impact of surgery makes the MOST sense though. That would be too much coincidence to have your lump for YEARS and only in the week or two after cancer does cancer appear visibly in your node. That does NOT add up. I just googled for you, and things in the neck do drain to axillary nodes. This time, I think we just need to trust Doctor G 🙂
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    Son's surgery in 2 days...

    Jae, I am so sorry!! Do they know that from pathology or just an impression? Bin is right. Finding out is the first step to doing something about it. That's all you can do now-- take it a step at a time. I know there is so much worry in that, but I am so rooting for you and your son!!
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    Existential Anxiety?

    I go through periods of having a lot of existential angst. I have a good life, a good marriage, three kids that I love beyond, unfulfilled ambition that drives me...and yet....I go through periods of "this is it?" "Life or existence is so strange" "There is a lot of suffering in life and living isn't always better than dying" and "There is no point to this." I know how quickly it goes and that you can just drop dead tomorrow and never get to experience everything you wanted to experience or become what you wanted to become on an evolved human level. Or you leave your family behind, possibly in a shambles if your kids are young like mine are. Or you get to be the one who is left behind with a pain or yearning that can never go away and that is just it.. I am an atheist, and do not believe in an afterlife. I am actually comforted by that, as eternity is a very long time 😉 The being dead part doesn't scare me as much as having an illness and having to live everyday knowing that it will soon be over and, even worse, the disease is going to rob you of your remaining time. Those bucket list movies always make me roll my eyes because if you have three months to live, you are not likely to be strong enough to climb Mt. Everest or meet the love of your life. Part of my journey has been coming to terms with this. I don't know if I will be able to apply it, but all of this HA and the imagining these scenarios ad nauseum has taught me lessons to employ when the inevitable time comes (hopefully when I am old and my kids are grown). I have had many moments of having to fake it til I make it and claw my way back from the sense of pointlessness, and realizing that it's kind of dumb to suspend your future since you still have right now (I know that one is sooooo cheesy, but I think it's very true and the attitude you kind of need to adopt if you have a terminal illness). Right now, I am not going through an existential mood, exactly. But, my mom has an age-related health problem that was just diagnosed that is not the greatest, and I was beginning to think again about the inherent angst in life and death. Agree with Molly- these thoughts have preoccupied people for millenia, and are probably why religions ever developed in the first place (and I mean the earliest ones, like ancestor worship or sun worship; I think the monotheistic religions have their roots in different social dynamics but still borrowed the older answers to all the existential questions). It's weird NOT to think about it, I think 🙂
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    Made it through surgery!

    Hope your pain is under control and so glad that surgery is behind you!
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    Worried about Skin C

    I find that, if I am in a panic or spiral, I need to dwell on the worst. I find that, by dwelling and feeling all the terrible, I can desensitize too much. I think it's understandable to take an afternoon and google and/ or just imagine the worst. BUT-- and this is important- put a time limit on it. Don't do it day after day. Just do it the one time. That second bit is the hard part. But, you have no idea what those bumps are. So, do what you need to do to desensitize but move on and don't google continuously. That mires you in the fear, IME.
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    Worried about Skin C

    If they have been there for years, you definitely need to get them checked. I have had basal cell carcinoma. They are easy to take care of with surgery, and there are new creams on the market that some people are using (but I would worry about missing cells, even though the creams also burrow down). Mine was on my shoulder, so less anxiety ridden than the face. That said, I had a bump on my face probably for a good 5 years or more. It was a tiny bump and, after the BCC, I started panicking about it. It turned out to be nothing! In hindsight, I have no idea why I lived with it there for so long. I guess my lack of vanity can be a problem, lol. Just get them checked and hopefully you won't get a call back for more treatment.
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    Bad cold, feat. vasovagal reflex

    NO! Viruses don't pass in a day. You have a cold. You need to slow down. There was no reason to go to urgent care the first time, and even less when your fever has come all the way down to normal. Your instincts are way off, and fight back against the delusions. Stay away from the doctor!
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    Surgery in three days

    Thinking of you Molly! Update when it's all said and done. I know you will make out fine and that thing will be gone!!!!
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    Could really use some support right now

    That doc needs a reality check. 36 does not make your pregnancy "high risk." That is just a weensy dramatic, lol! I don't know anything about the rash or lupus. It sounds like they would be taking a skin biopsy, though? I can't in a million years figure why that would be harmful in pregnancy. There is anaethesia that is safe during pregnancy. Why has the rash gone so long? Personally, I would do the biopsy.
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    10 year old wetting himself

    Constipation also causes bedwetting. Ask if he has pooped in awhile. If not, there can be a lot in the colon, pressing on bladder. My daughter has encopresis (can't poop normally), and this happens to her a lot.
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    Intrusive Thoughts Still Hang Around

    I think EVERYBODY has weird, fear-based thoughts.;-) What is different is that normal people don't get stuck. They have thought and immediately move on. People with anxiety DWELL the hell on the thought and can't/won't move on. I am at a point right now of moving on quickly from the thoughts, when they pop in. I don't think there will ever come a day when I don't get thoughts, though. I accept that 🙂
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    Ladies I have a period question

    Is there any chance you could be miscarrying?
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    Low Body Temperature

    I am of the belief that the thermometers we use at home are not all that accurate. So you can't take readings you see as literal truth.