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  1. Good! Glad to hear it helps. And yeah, therapy is the best.
  2. It's not MS. The MS scare is a VERY real thing among anxiety sufferers (I had mine back in 2013; I was convinced), as their physical symptoms are incredibly similar. You're gonna be fine, I promise.
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    Is My Mind Creating Symptoms?

    Hi Bella! Sorry to hear what you're dealing with. Rest easy, though: every single thing you're feeling is 110% caused by your anxiety. I've dealt with this shit for over a decade now, and if I had a dollar for everyone odd twitch, spasm, ache, pain, and weird sensation that I believed was indicative of some sort of catastrophic illness, I could quit my job and move to a beach house in Key West. The brain is an extremely powerful entity. I mean, it is us. It controls every single aspect of our being. So, when the brain is overloaded with chemicals that scream "OH MY GOD, WHAT", it stands to reason that it's going to react in strange ways. The central nervous system, in particular, is prone to the effects of an overworked brain. That's what causes the annoying things you're feeling. ALS and MS are also disorders of the CNS, which is why the systems of an anxious mind tend to mimic those of these diseases. It is well, WELL documented that those two diseases are a common concern for people with anxiety. Spend some time browsing this forum. You'll see it. Start trying to tell yourself that this is all in your head, because it really is. Once you start believing that, all this will pass.
  4. Hey Rainbow! I hate to hear that you're dealing with that. I never dealt with the paralysis, but the weird buzzing and whatnot were terrible. Fortunately, though, it all went away as soon as I got my anxiety under control. I started seeing my therapist again, got my sleep hygiene in check, and cut out anything that could interfere with sleeping (goodbye, venti iced coffee), and I was right as rain. I still feel that stuff to some extent if I've had a particularly bad day, but as soon as it happens, I start reassuring myself that it's just anxiety and it pretty much goes away. One bit of advice: if you start feeling that crap, get a weighted blanket. If you don't have one, get a bunch of heavy blankets and throw them on top of your normal bedding. That extra weight will ground you, relieving some of that anxiety and help you get to sleep. Don't worry. You'll get past this.
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    You're having an attack. And our brains can go to some weird places when that happens. This will pass, like it always does. And get some sleep!
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    People sweat from anxiety. Also, people just sweat, man. It could be your nerves, or it could be your environment (I'm having to get used to wearing sweaters again; ergo, sweating). You're fine ?
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    Afraid of hallucinations.

    Bobnatt nailed it. You're totally having hypogogic hallucinations. Enjoy them! They're actually pretty cool if you embrace them for what they are. There's actually a lot of literature about what happens in that state of sleep; it's when our brain tries to solve problems on a subconscious level.
  8. Oh, the ol' ALS scare. That's a pretty common one among us with health anxiety. I went through mine about 5 years ago, then another, smaller period again in early 2015. I dealt with most of the same things you mentioned: weakness, clumsiness, twitching, odd sensations. Hell, I still have them today. But, I don't have ALS. In fact, my last visit to the doctor resulted in a nearly clean bill of health, aside from a bit too much weight and high cholesterol (genetic; I don't take the blame for that one). Wrapping my head around the possibility that I did not have an extremely rare disease and that this might just be anxiety after all was what got me past it. You need to realize that the human brain is an incredibly powerful thing. Every thought, feeling, and sensation we experience comes from the brain's interpretation. So, doesn't it stand to reason that it can really mess with us in crazy ways when its chemistry is thrown off? That's what happens with chronic anxiety; the brain gets bombarded with bad shit, it gets worn down, and your body starts to respond in kind, particularly with anything that involves with CNS. Every single thing you're feeling is just your anxiety manifesting itself physically thanks to bad signals from your brain. Wanna know the good thing about that? When the anxiety calms down, so does everything else. You have got to start telling yourself that. It's not easy, believe me, but it's the only way to get better. One more thing: NervUs gave you a fantastic piece of advice, which is to be realistic with yourself. My therapist told me the same thing years ago, which helped tremendously. If you do have ALS (which you don't), how would you deal with it? Would you really just crawl into a hole and wait for death? Doubt it. You're gonna keep kickin' ass.
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    Fatal insomnia

    I was in a similar situation a little over a month ago. My sleep was absolute garbage for the better part of a week after having a reaction to Advil PM (I'm thinking it was some form of sleep paralysis). I didn't get good sleep for days. I was a wreck, and I was afraid I was dealing with the same thing: something had short-circuited in my brain and that was my new reality. It was anxiety. 100%. I'm fine now. So, I'm going to tell you what you need to hear and what you need to do. And I apologize for being so blunt, but sometimes we need tough love. You are fine. You don't have some 1 in a 1,000,000,000 disease. You're not experiencing anything that anyone here hasn't experienced before. But, for the love of god, dude, go see a fucking doctor and put your mind at ease.
  10. This might be the one that finally gets me sent to the looney bin. Today, I'm sitting at work, and all of a sudden, I just say to myself, "Man, why is everything so yellow?" And now, everything appears to have a yellow tint. My computer screen, rooms around my building, trees & grass outside. Despite the fact that I work in a building littered with fluorescent bulbs and it's super sunny outside. Someone tell me I'm being weird. Or, if this is just something my anxiety has latched onto, I'll take that as well. Or if someone else has dealt with this, that'd be even more helpful.
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    Weird Symptoms

    My initial guess was thyroid issues. Weight gain & fatigue are hallmark symptoms (my wife has hypothyroidism, so I've seen this first-hand). Did you happen to see your test results? If you were tested by a GP, it may be worth getting a look at your numbers and doing some further research, as non-specialists tend to look at certain levels as "normal" where specialists would definitely be concerned.
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    Why did Taylor Swift hype up 22?

    Hi mik! Welcome to the boards. First off, early TS > anything post-Speak Now. I'm sorry to hear what all you're going through. It sounds like a "when it rains, it pours" kinda situation. And there are few things worse than a pet getting sick. My rescue shih-poo got sick last year (bladder stones), which took a considerable toll on me once it was all said and done (along with a $700+ vet bill). It's heartbreaking, because we can't really explain to them why they hurt or that it will pass. My wife said I took things harder than the dog, and I'm inclined to believe her (he's fine now, in case you're wondering). As for the numb sensations: welcome to the club. Everything you described is 100% textbook physical manifestations of anxiety. I've had the numbness, along with buzzing, burning, tingling, you name it. In fact, two weeks ago I was convinced I'd messed up a nerve in my thigh because my upper leg burned off and on for two days. And then it just stopped, because that's how anxiety works. And the not being able to catch your breath and getting dizzy? It totally sounds like you're hyperventilating. Even when our anxiety isn't at just outright devastating levels, we react to it in very subtle ways. One of those is shallow breathing. I know I'm doing it because I have a very mild cough (throat dries out). When it's a bit heavier, we can make ourselves dizzy. And the blue fingers totally sound like a not getting enough oxygen kinda thing. Do you see a therapist? Because your situation doesn't sound like just anxiety. Most of the time, people who are anxious tend to be depressed as well, and that "hopelessness" you mentioned is a tell-tale sign of being down in the dumps. If you don't see someone, maybe it's time to do so. Again, welcome. Hope this helps ?
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    Update: boo-yah! So, I felt like garbage all day yesterday. I basically set up camp on the couch and didn't move until my wife got home from work. I did end up taking probably 3 short naps throughout the day, none of which were more than maybe a few minutes, but they did help. At some point, while descending down the Google rabbit hole (yes, I know, I shouldn't be doing that, but it may have paid off!), I found something about how people with RLS can get relief by sleeping with a pillow between their legs. Something about how it can disrupt the signals between the legs? Not sure of the science, but that led me to recall a night a few months ago where I had this weird tense sensation in one of my legs (a one-off thing I get from time to time) that was helped tremendously by laying on my side and putting something down there. I'm typically a stomach sleeper, so I wasn't too fond of try this, but lo & behold, I: 1. Had NO issues falling asleep 2. Did wake up in the night, but dozed back off rather quickly, and 3. Only felt the buzzing sensation maybe two or three times, and I'm not even 100% certain that's what it was because I was able to get past it so quickly and nod back off. I slept pretty damn good from roughly midnight to 7 am, then dozed some until a little after 9. I'm still not feeling 100% today (I have major issues with slept debt; I don't recover quickly at all), but unless the pillow thing was a fluke, I think I'm starting to maybe see this BS resolving itself, which is making me was less anxious.
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    I had some WILD dreams on it last night. Which doesn't particularly bother me. But it did nothing for my anxiety whatsoever, so it's kinda like, what's the point?
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    aaaaaaaand last night sucked. I tried melatonin, at the suggestion of both my sleep doctor and therapist. It made me sleepy, which wasn't really an issue to begin with, but I was up almost all night with those buzzing sensations. I'm wiped today. Fingers crossed it was just a fluke.