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    You're having an attack. And our brains can go to some weird places when that happens. This will pass, like it always does. And get some sleep!
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    People sweat from anxiety. Also, people just sweat, man. It could be your nerves, or it could be your environment (I'm having to get used to wearing sweaters again; ergo, sweating). You're fine 🥃
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    Afraid of hallucinations.

    Bobnatt nailed it. You're totally having hypogogic hallucinations. Enjoy them! They're actually pretty cool if you embrace them for what they are. There's actually a lot of literature about what happens in that state of sleep; it's when our brain tries to solve problems on a subconscious level.
  4. Oh, the ol' ALS scare. That's a pretty common one among us with health anxiety. I went through mine about 5 years ago, then another, smaller period again in early 2015. I dealt with most of the same things you mentioned: weakness, clumsiness, twitching, odd sensations. Hell, I still have them today. But, I don't have ALS. In fact, my last visit to the doctor resulted in a nearly clean bill of health, aside from a bit too much weight and high cholesterol (genetic; I don't take the blame for that one). Wrapping my head around the possibility that I did not have an extremely rare disease and that this might just be anxiety after all was what got me past it. You need to realize that the human brain is an incredibly powerful thing. Every thought, feeling, and sensation we experience comes from the brain's interpretation. So, doesn't it stand to reason that it can really mess with us in crazy ways when its chemistry is thrown off? That's what happens with chronic anxiety; the brain gets bombarded with bad shit, it gets worn down, and your body starts to respond in kind, particularly with anything that involves with CNS. Every single thing you're feeling is just your anxiety manifesting itself physically thanks to bad signals from your brain. Wanna know the good thing about that? When the anxiety calms down, so does everything else. You have got to start telling yourself that. It's not easy, believe me, but it's the only way to get better. One more thing: NervUs gave you a fantastic piece of advice, which is to be realistic with yourself. My therapist told me the same thing years ago, which helped tremendously. If you do have ALS (which you don't), how would you deal with it? Would you really just crawl into a hole and wait for death? Doubt it. You're gonna keep kickin' ass.
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    Fatal insomnia

    I was in a similar situation a little over a month ago. My sleep was absolute garbage for the better part of a week after having a reaction to Advil PM (I'm thinking it was some form of sleep paralysis). I didn't get good sleep for days. I was a wreck, and I was afraid I was dealing with the same thing: something had short-circuited in my brain and that was my new reality. It was anxiety. 100%. I'm fine now. So, I'm going to tell you what you need to hear and what you need to do. And I apologize for being so blunt, but sometimes we need tough love. You are fine. You don't have some 1 in a 1,000,000,000 disease. You're not experiencing anything that anyone here hasn't experienced before. But, for the love of god, dude, go see a fucking doctor and put your mind at ease.
  6. This might be the one that finally gets me sent to the looney bin. Today, I'm sitting at work, and all of a sudden, I just say to myself, "Man, why is everything so yellow?" And now, everything appears to have a yellow tint. My computer screen, rooms around my building, trees & grass outside. Despite the fact that I work in a building littered with fluorescent bulbs and it's super sunny outside. Someone tell me I'm being weird. Or, if this is just something my anxiety has latched onto, I'll take that as well. Or if someone else has dealt with this, that'd be even more helpful.
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    Weird Symptoms

    My initial guess was thyroid issues. Weight gain & fatigue are hallmark symptoms (my wife has hypothyroidism, so I've seen this first-hand). Did you happen to see your test results? If you were tested by a GP, it may be worth getting a look at your numbers and doing some further research, as non-specialists tend to look at certain levels as "normal" where specialists would definitely be concerned.
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    Why did Taylor Swift hype up 22?

    Hi mik! Welcome to the boards. First off, early TS > anything post-Speak Now. I'm sorry to hear what all you're going through. It sounds like a "when it rains, it pours" kinda situation. And there are few things worse than a pet getting sick. My rescue shih-poo got sick last year (bladder stones), which took a considerable toll on me once it was all said and done (along with a $700+ vet bill). It's heartbreaking, because we can't really explain to them why they hurt or that it will pass. My wife said I took things harder than the dog, and I'm inclined to believe her (he's fine now, in case you're wondering). As for the numb sensations: welcome to the club. Everything you described is 100% textbook physical manifestations of anxiety. I've had the numbness, along with buzzing, burning, tingling, you name it. In fact, two weeks ago I was convinced I'd messed up a nerve in my thigh because my upper leg burned off and on for two days. And then it just stopped, because that's how anxiety works. And the not being able to catch your breath and getting dizzy? It totally sounds like you're hyperventilating. Even when our anxiety isn't at just outright devastating levels, we react to it in very subtle ways. One of those is shallow breathing. I know I'm doing it because I have a very mild cough (throat dries out). When it's a bit heavier, we can make ourselves dizzy. And the blue fingers totally sound like a not getting enough oxygen kinda thing. Do you see a therapist? Because your situation doesn't sound like just anxiety. Most of the time, people who are anxious tend to be depressed as well, and that "hopelessness" you mentioned is a tell-tale sign of being down in the dumps. If you don't see someone, maybe it's time to do so. Again, welcome. Hope this helps 🍻
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    Update: boo-yah! So, I felt like garbage all day yesterday. I basically set up camp on the couch and didn't move until my wife got home from work. I did end up taking probably 3 short naps throughout the day, none of which were more than maybe a few minutes, but they did help. At some point, while descending down the Google rabbit hole (yes, I know, I shouldn't be doing that, but it may have paid off!), I found something about how people with RLS can get relief by sleeping with a pillow between their legs. Something about how it can disrupt the signals between the legs? Not sure of the science, but that led me to recall a night a few months ago where I had this weird tense sensation in one of my legs (a one-off thing I get from time to time) that was helped tremendously by laying on my side and putting something down there. I'm typically a stomach sleeper, so I wasn't too fond of try this, but lo & behold, I: 1. Had NO issues falling asleep 2. Did wake up in the night, but dozed back off rather quickly, and 3. Only felt the buzzing sensation maybe two or three times, and I'm not even 100% certain that's what it was because I was able to get past it so quickly and nod back off. I slept pretty damn good from roughly midnight to 7 am, then dozed some until a little after 9. I'm still not feeling 100% today (I have major issues with slept debt; I don't recover quickly at all), but unless the pillow thing was a fluke, I think I'm starting to maybe see this BS resolving itself, which is making me was less anxious.
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    I had some WILD dreams on it last night. Which doesn't particularly bother me. But it did nothing for my anxiety whatsoever, so it's kinda like, what's the point?
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    aaaaaaaand last night sucked. I tried melatonin, at the suggestion of both my sleep doctor and therapist. It made me sleepy, which wasn't really an issue to begin with, but I was up almost all night with those buzzing sensations. I'm wiped today. Fingers crossed it was just a fluke.
  12. Hi MsLLL, thanks for the reply. I was starting to think this board was a ghost town. I'm currently in therapy. In fact, I went to a session on Tuesday and ended up getting a decent night's sleep afterwards. But last night the tingling feeling came back with a vengeance and I'm feeling like garbage again. I also tried melatonin for the first time last night, which I will not be touching again (in case it made that sensation manifest itself again).
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    Hey Mark! Guess what: 7-ish hours last night with barely any weird sensations! I'm still kinda drained today, and my anxiety isn't back to normal (but part of that is because I pulled something in my neck this morning while trying to pluck something from my eyebrows), but I'm in a much, much better state of mind. I got to see my sleep doctor this morning. He said there's nothing going on that throws up any red flags. As he put it: I'm an unusually healthy 31 year old who takes good care of himself, despite the anxiety issues. Bodies to break and do weird things, but the odds of something happening to me at this point in the state I'm in is very, very unlikely. He told me to pop some melatonin, get more exercise, stay hydrated, and treat the anxiety itself.
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    Mark, everything you said is incredibly reassuring. You're right: why would this just come out of thin air and affect only one thing if it was something serious? I'd considered the notion that this was my anxiety fighting my body's response to sleep. But it just seemed too real, you know? So has most of the other issues I've dealt with over the years, though. And telling myself it's all stemming from an anxious response is usually the first step in fixing it. That first step is a bitch, though. (Also, I closed my eyes at my desk for roughly 45 minutes earlier and never quite dozed off, but felt remarkably better afterwards. I've upgraded from "husk" status to "zombie".)
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    Weird sleep stuff & sensations; anxiety?

    Update (for anyone keeping up): slept maybe 5 good hours last night. The rest was tossing and turning thanks to that half-asleep sensation. And sweating. I was sweating like a mofo. I saw my therapist this morning. She's working with me to convince me that this is all anxiety, and not something sinister like a tumor of FFI or some astronomically-rare short circuit in my brain that will prevent me from ever sleeping like normal again. I'm at my witts end right now. I'm sitting at work, listening to alpha wave videos on YouTube and trying to close my eyes every time it gets quiet in here.