BejeweledMexican

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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    I just don't know anymore. My hand hasn't twitched in days but it feels so weak. I haven't dropped much but I occasionally drop papers and fumble with my pen and things like that. I'm still typing well, so I can still have a job (thank goodness) but now I'm starting to get twitching in my legs and even in my shoulders and back. I looked up how it all could be a result of a magnesium deficiency but after reading more I don't think that's the problem. I woke up and immediately felt the weakness in my hand. I yelled at myself over and over, 'Your anxiety is lying to you' but then I would yell right back 'But what if it isn't?' People with anxiety still get diseases and people with anxiety can still develop and die from ALS. It's just the painful truth. But I don't want to believe it but the tingling and weakness in my left hand tells me otherwise. I try and pass it off as carpel tunnel but the more I try and tell if it's that my brain yells back at me 'ALS ALS ALS'. Carpel tunnel would make more sense but ALS makes more sense with my symptoms. I just don't know anymore guys. Please help!
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    Again, wow. Counselor. Go to school. Get my number. Counsel me. I mean you have touched on everything and in such an understanding and firm way. I'm going to go home right after work and try that yoga routine! If it doesn't work right away, that's okay, I want to give my body time to heal. I understand about the tense muscles. I remember one time in college I was anxious, like super anxious, for like a week and then my body felt like it had been in a train wreck afterwards. It's incredible how sometimes we don't even see it ourselves. I need to relax, get in my zone, and push forward. You are an incredible human being, whoever you are, thank you so much! I'll be back, I'm a diagnosed hypochondriac, of course I will be lol but hopefully further and farther between each visit thanks to you!
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    This make a lot of sense and has brought comfort to my mind. I'm dealing with bone cancer fear now but I think you have helped me control my ALS fears and they are on the mend, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! You have no idea how much you guys have helped with my fears about this horrible disease. Now to fight off the bone cancer fear!
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    Wow this was amazing! Can you please, please, please be my counselor??? I've been trying to focus on other things all day and while it works most of the time I still get anxious. I ended up buying a wrist brace, just to see if it helped, and it has helped however I still feel weak in my legs and my hands but honestly the weirdest feeling of all is feeling shaky and wobly everywhere in my body. Have I been focusing on the wrong thing the whole time, maybe not ALS but something like a brain tumor? 4 years ago I was terrified of a brain tumor, I really dont' want to go back down that hole but I don't know how else to explain how I feel.
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    Guys my whole arm and hand are so wonky and almost numb feeling!!!! I'm freaking out! I don't know what to do. I can still type but I'm super clumsy. I keep freaking out and then calming myself down and then freaking out again and then calming myself down and the cycle is bitter.
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    Well that's the thing, it's not just feeling weak but it is weak, like dropping pens and feeling all flimsy and stuff. And now my legs feel it too. It's mostly just my left arm/hand (actually going up into my shoulder almost) but now it's in my right just barely. Ugh. Okay so let's talk practical. What are some things that you do to help you believe what you're already telling yourself (that it's anxiety and not ALS or something else?) I feel like there has to be more than just telling yourself something.
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    I tell myself the same things you do but then the weakness hits and my fear shoots through the roof, especially after I read that Cosmopolitan article about the 25 year old girl with ALS, it showed me that it's a lot more common (and possible) than I first thought. I just have such a problem shaking it. Then I'll feel really good for a while and then stand up and my legs feel week or I'll feel good and then go to type and my hand feels all wonky. I just, I want to think like you do!!!
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    Hand Weakness! Carpal Tunnel? 'A'??

    Wow Holls, how do you do it? I want to have the confidence like you! Have you noticed that something helps you think this way? I try and tell myself to have that kind of confidence daily but then my symptoms always shut it down.
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    I always look at statistics to help calm my nerves, so thank you. For some reason I can't shake this though and I think it has to do with the fact that I read that article about the 25 year old girl, same age and gender as me, who got it. Why is it that reading that freaks me out so bad? It's not common in and of itself and even less with my demographics and yet here I am dropping pens and papers and all. Ugh, guys I hate anxiety.
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    I'm struggling this morning, more than I've struggled in the past year. I haven't had a big anxiety attack like this since probably February 2018, if this is even anxiety. Last week my middle finger started twitching on my left hand. I tried not to think anything of it, but it went on for about 3 days. Then my hand started feeling weak. I didn't drop anything but it didn't feel right, and I could tell. Then my chin started having random tremors. I started freaking out silently. Yesterday I came to work, and my left hand hurt, SO BAD! It was like major aching for at least 3-4 hours and then after lunch it just stopped! (thankfully, I have a desk job and type on a keyboard all day) But then the weakness came back. I was stupid and googled. I read an article from Cosmopolitan that talked about a 25 year old girl who developed ALS and yes, I read every single symptom she had like slurred speech, weakness, etc. I freaked out to my boyfriend, who helped calm me for the evening but then this morning I woke up and my speech feels slurred. I feel like my tongue is really big in my mouth and I'm talking funny. I also seem to be typing slower than normal and now BOTH my hands feel weak. I'm just a hot mess guys. I'm only 25. I don't want to die so quickly and especially from ALS. I was doing so good for so long and then this ALS fear hits me out of nowhere and now I can't tell what's anxiety and what isn't. HELP!
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    Unfortunately I'm not on any medications, I take a Stress B-Complex vitamin every day, and the only thing stressing me out is this dumb anxiety! I was FINE during lunch and then I came back to my desk afterwards and I'm dropping pens and unable to grab ahold of paper without being all flimsy with it. I don't know what to do guys, I just don't know.
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    IT'S GETTING WORSE! I just had a big and long twitch in my leg! First my left hand, then my right hand and now my leg. This is all in my brain, right? Gosh it's driving me crazy and sitting at a desk for 8 hours a day doesn't help!
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    Can carpal tunnel cause twitching? I know it can cause some of the other symptoms but I wasn't aware it caused twitching.
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    ALS Symptoms! HELP!

    I have not had a chance to read any yet, sometimes I'm hesitant because I've read things before and then started having symptoms that made me spiral down further into the pit, but I guess since I've already hit the bottom there's only upwards to go. Here's my thing though....how do you explain the hand weakness? It's not like your mind tricks your hand, your mind tricks your mind. Does that make sense?
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    Back AND Knee Pain

    I’m suffering y’all. Really suffering. I’ve been having intense knee pain since the middle of last week. It’s only my left knee and it doesn’t hurt to walk on it or anything but when I bend it inward, like if i were to sit on it, it’s an intense pain and it makes me scream. My family says they think i just pulled something but how is that if I feel fine walking? It seriously only hurts when I bend it. My back is also causing me a lot of pain and all i can think of is that there’s a tumor. I imagine breast cancer that has spread or the tumor in my knee that spread. I’m a mess. Worst is I just started dating a new guy and everything was fine until this happened. I don’t want him to know how crazy I am yet hahaha
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    Anxiety Is Eating Away At Me

    I don’t know why my anxiety has been so bad lately. A couple of months ago I was fine, and now here I am on this site almost everyday and I’m panicking around the clock almost. This week was stressful. I still haven’t started my period and I’ve been having random bouts of diarrhea. Today I had to run to the bathroom to go and I shouldn’t have looked, but I did and I saw a bunch of black and red. The red doesn’t concern me so much because I ate a bunch or red peppers recently but I’ve eaten nothing black....so of course my first thought is colon cancer. At 25, not likely but still possible. I told my friend and she was like ‘Your anxiety has been so bad lately’ and that’s when it hit me that it really has been. It’s also at an all time high right now because I’m getting my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow. I can barely eat anymore because they’re so bad and I’m absolutely freaking out that I’m going to die during the surgery. Even the technician told me ‘If they hit that nerve at the bottom then you can’t recover.’ Oh good....thanks? I’m a mess and now this colon cancer fear, along with not starting my period has me all freaked out. The last time I got out of a bad anxiety mess like this I moved, but unfortunately i’m stuck where I am for a while. Any other suggestions you wonderful people may have?
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    Anxiety Is Eating Away At Me

    That’s one of my biggest problems is the ear pain and pressure. I just, ugh, I dont’s want to die yet Holls! I’m really freaked out! I wish there was a way out of this but there isn’t and so the only 2 options I can think of is 1. I die from the infection that’s in my teeth or 2. I die from the procedure. Why do I think like this?!?!? I can’t even sleep....
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    Anxiety Is Eating Away At Me

    When you had your wisdom teeth removed were you completely out or did you just have the area numb? I can’t for the life of me figure out what to do. I just went to sign the papers and they said that the anesthesia can lead to DEATH!!!!! Anesthesia?!? Death?!? I didn’t sign up for that! I’m a mess now. But I’m also freaking out about getting a shot in my mouth. I mean, who does that! And dry socket?!? Ugh! Plus, my old dental technician from like a year ago told me that she’s ‘only’ seen one guy die from a wisdom teeth removal and it’s because he had an unknown heart condition. What if I have an unknown heart condition?!? I haven’t had a physical in at least 2 years because I’m too terrified to go to the doctor, now that choice may be the end of me!
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    Colon Cancer/Anal Cancer????

    I’m having a full out panic attack in my bathroom at work for a number of reason. 1. I’n Officially 5 days late for my period, I’ve never been more than 4 days late and no there’s no way I’m pregnant. 2. My butt crack itches like CRAZY up at the very top (TMI, I know, but it’s a symptom if I remember correctly from my Dr Google says) 3. I just had a blowout at work. I don’t think you understand....I NEVER use the bathroom unless I’m at home just because it makes me uncomfortable but today I couldn’t even hold it in, like I had to run down the stairs to go! It was nasty and basically diarrhea. So now I’m sitting in the baño avoiding life. I’m scared. I don’t know what’s going to happen. I’m 25, not a 70 years old with a much more likely diagnoses of this horrid diseas and I haven’t really had a fear of this since 2015 when I had convinced myself I had colon cancer. I don’t know what to do. I’m literally just alone and afraid in a public bathroom. Pitiful, yet this is my life.
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    Missed Period! Pregnant or worse?

    I’m just so stressed out guys. Last night I was feeling good and I honestly thought my period would be here now (I’m officially a week late), unfortunately no such luck. I had HORRIBLE lower abdominal cramps this morning and I was happy about it because I thought it was my period. I mean....I don’t think I’m pregnant. But what if I am! I had a little sexual activity 2 weeks ago today but my jeans didn’t even come off. I got some of his cum on my hands but then I washed them and went to the bathroom. Of course I’m thinking the worst....cancer. I haven’t even been that stressed out until I missed my period. Now I’m a mess again. Encouragement ladies? Please?
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    Missed Period! Pregnant or worse?

    And I get that but the thing is I’ve never been on the pill and I’m almost never late, or at least not past 4 days. It’s been 7. Plus my lower stomach issues just makes it awful.....my co-worker doesn’t help and she’s like ‘I had that too when I was pregnant.’ Ugh. I don’t need that kind of negativity Lol I guess I’m just worried about the cancer because it’s just so not like me. And I don’t even feel very stressed lately, a little of course but nothing compared to times like college or anything like that. I guess I’m just confused. And I can’t talk to my mom about it because ahe’s Always with my aunt so I either come to y’all or google and I’ll choose y’all over google anyday!!!!
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    Bone Cancer? Leg pain....l

    I can’t seem to catch a break guys. It it’s not one then then it’s another of course. Yesterday I randomly started having a really bad pain in my right leg. It started at the top near my hip and then it went down to below my knee. It’s an aching pain and nothing seems to take it away. It started late in the evening last night, was gone this morning and now it’s back again. I don’t want to immediately jump to cancer but I know it’s a possibility. Any thoughts? I’m not a very active person and on Sunday I walked 3 miles in sandals but that wouldn’t do anything to just one leg, it would have been both, right? Ugh....
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    Colon Cancer/Anal Cancer????

    You both have seriously given me so much hope I’m finally in my bathroom at home crying! I needed to hear these things. I was doing so good with my anxiety and then i took this new job and it was like BAM so many new feelings! I will try and remain optomistic and trust that my body is functioning as it should. I guess it also has been difficult lately because my aunt has cancer and they found out it officially spread to the brain. She’s like my second mom so i’m Trying to be 100% there for her while also trying to take care of my own mental thoughts. Sometimes it can lead to irrational fears and feelings of anxiety that I thought I had been done with. You guys are amazing. Time to lift my head up high, keep moving forward, and being thankful for every day that is given to me. I’ll be back later if anything else progresses! The worst thing is the itching (and now burning) plus I realized that there seems to be some sort of rash on my bottom so of course I’m starting to get concerned again but I’m gonna try and fall asleep before it all takes over!
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    Rectal Cancer- Here We Go....

    So yesterday I had some extreme itching right at the very end of my bottom, like where the crack ends (sorry, TMI) I didn’t think anything of it, scratched it, drew some blood and went on my way. Well today it’s still itching and then i remembered that’s a sign of rectal cancer (of course I remember everything from when I looked things up in my Dr. Google days). Obviously I can’t see back there and I’m stuck at work but ugh, i’m Freaking out. My 3rd grade teacher’s husband died from this and he couldn’t have been more than 35 years old. I’m 25....oh great. Then I remembered that all last week I had bad diarrhea. It’s gone now but what could it have been from? Help....please?
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    Leg Pain.....still

    Well it’s been since Monday evening and the leg pain is still there. It mostly stays in my knee but can sometimes radiate up and down. At first I was like, okay, this is my sciatic nerve, but after countless exercises to try and stretch it out nothing is working. I’m trying not to freak out but sometimes the aching pain is so bad that I just want to cry or have an anxiety attack. I don’t have health insurance right now so that’s out ( I just got a new job and am in the middle of my application for it) but honestly doctor’s freak me out anyway. Is there anyone else that has experienced this?