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  1. Also if it’s any help, when my anxiety is real bad my pulse rate has been know to get up close to 160. So 110, while fast and uncomfortable is definitely not dangerous!
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    Severe heaviness

    It may not be helpful but I had an INSANE panic attack a few months ago and I seriously thought I was dying. Felt like someone had their hands around my neck and like I was wearing one of those lead aprons they give you at the dentist when they do X-rays. I have never felt such pressure/heaviness/rightness. I told my boss I was going to die. That’s how certain I was. Laid me flat out on the floor. But....I’m still here! It was a panic attack plain and simple but god if it didn’t scare the living daylights out of me.
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    Extreme fatigue

    That’s encouraging to hear. I have never felt this way before without having an identifiable illness that’s clearly making me tired (flu, pneumonia, virus, etc). Ive been under some stress recently (if you’ve read any of my recent comments about this thing growing in my brain ;-)) but I’m having a hard time pinning this to anxiety. Sure, I always feel tired after a full panic attack but this is just day in and day out exhaustion.
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    Extreme fatigue

    And I mean extreme. Yes, I’m sleepy-tired, but I’m also just body-tired. I feel like I have to rest just walking from my car to the office. Standing up feels hard. I called to get an appointment set up with my primary care dr to get blood work done but I’m not sure when I’ll be able to get in. Anyone ever experience this with anxiety? Going on three weeks now like this. I just feel like a barely vertical zombie.
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    I spot all the time! USUALLY it's very predictably mid-cycle. Right around ovulation time which is super super normal. My period ended two days ago and I had some spotting today! Weird and unusual for me, but I"m not too worried. Stress can wreak havoc on our cycles so I usually chalk up any anomalies to that. It's always good to mention anything unusual to your gyno, just to be on the safe side, but I don't think you need to make a special appointment or anything. If things still feel out of whack by the time your next appointment rolls around, just bring it up and I'm sure your doc can reassure you. But, yeah, to answer your most direct question -- I spot mid cycle almost every month as do a lot of other women 🙂
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    Mammogram - Extra Views

    Oh my god I constantly use worry as a means of control...When I’m on a plane, I somehow think that if I stop worrying about crashing then we will crash. constant vigilance!! It’s a totally flawed way of thinking but a very difficult pattern to escape. Because every time I fly and I worry about crashing, we don’t crash. That reinforces the idea in my mind that we didn’t crash BECAUSE I was worrying. When, in reality, we didn’t crash because plane crashes are extremely rare and the pilot knew how to fly a plane:-) so I do that with health though — maybe if I’m constantly watching for symptoms to appear either they won’t appear or I’ll be “ready” for them when they do show up. It’s ridiculous, but I’m a control freak and it’s a very deep rut I’ve gotten myself into. So I get it. It’s hard. But we have to learn to live with the uncertainty otherwise o don’t think we’ll ever get better. And remember, everyone gets scared. It’s okay to be nervous about your test results just like it’s okay that I’m nervous about mine! That’s a normal human response! It’s when we let our thoughts run away with us and we jump immediately to the worst case scenario that we don’t do ourselves any good. That’s when we’ve gone waaay past reasonable fear:-) and thanks for your kind thoughts! I’m hoping to hear my results soon!
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    Pins and needles- Who and how often?

    Interesting that you mention this because I’ve been having some really horrible pins and needles that have definitely been stressing me out. They are nothing like the “asleep” feeling you get when your limbs aren’t getting enough blood. It’s very much like needles. Like hot needles pricking me. Started happening on the back of my neck. Then it would spread down my arms or across my chest. Sometimes on both sides. Sometimes on one side. I don’t know why it’s happening. I’m taking comfort in the fact that it hasn’t killed me yet 😉
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    Mammogram - Extra Views

    I’m waiting on test results too so I totally get how frightening that can be. Mine are not from a mammogram, rather a brain scan. The thing is, I already know I have something in my brain. It was found on the last mri and this most recent one is to see if anything has changed. Do I get freaked out about it? Yep, definitely. The possibility of brain surgery and all the things that could go wrong before that totally freak me out. But what I’m trying to focus on is that this thing grew in my brain whether or not I had worried about it. Nothing I did or didn’t do prevented it from happening and I try to carry over that thought process whenever I’m worried about other things. It doesn’t always work but, we are all just doing what we can right now. I don’t know that that’s super encouraging but, as many people have told me before, the only way to pull ourselves out of the pit of health anxiety is to recognize that we are not in control of everything and we have to be okay with that. WAY easier said than done 😉 I think you’re going to be just fine. But even if things are not 100% fine, it doesn’t mean that they will be 100% bad either. We tend to think in black and white but life it’s not like that. It’s mostly grey. If it helps at all, my mom just went though the “unthinkable” a couple of years ago. Overall, she was/is fine! In her case, it was surgery, some radiation therapy, and some meds with essentially no side effects. Obviously that’s not everyone’s story, but it is a good reminder that it’s not always the worst case scenario. Things can be not great, but still completely manageable. Ill keep you in my thoughts as we both sit in the uncomfortable space of waiting for our results:-) you’re not alone.
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    Stomach issues and more.

    Hey! I think I might have replied to your other post, sorry I didn’t see your update! Im sorry you’re feeling so scared. I’m right there with you. We are struggling with different fears, but at the end of the day, we all have the same core issue. All this catastrophic thinking really gets us into trouble. Right now, I’m pretty sure I’m going to stop breathing. Doesn’t matter how irrational that is, I’m convinced. Doesn’t matter that it’s almost 3am and I’m exhausted. Or that I haven’t been eating well. Or that I’m stressed out a lot. Or that I have really bad cramps. Oh no. Certainly none of those super real and reasonable things could be contributing to my anxiety and making me feel like I can’t breathe. Nope, I must be dying 😉 it sucks to feel like you have no one to talk to and I hope you find the support you need here. Keep in touch.
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    Not doing great

    Hey! I hope you’ve started feeling better over the last couple of days! I’ve been going through something similar. I haven’t had the same bowel troubles that you have but just been feeling vaguely unwell and seem to ping pong between nausea and fatigue and headache and .... the list goes on. I actually do have a real and confirmed medical diagnosis that is unlikely to be causing these symptoms but if it is causing them, that could signal trouble. I too am really struggling with the idea that, yeah, maybe I’m just a normal level of sick and my body needs to just work through a thing. It’s always the worst case scenario with us:-) i guess I just want to say that I hear you and I get it. It’s hard to take our minds off the fast track to disaster. But think of all this other times in your life that you sick. And then you got better. This is probably one of those. My bowels jump all over the place and, though unpleasant, I’m always fine afterwards.
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    Ladies only

    I also had irregular periods for years. I’ve finally (mostly) evened out bit they still don’t come like clockwork. My cycles are anywhere from 28-35 days long so being off by a few days definitely Italy doesn’t seem weird to me! But I like the above advise — if the irregularity persists, just mention it to your gyno. If your period is usually right on “time” then any persistent deviation from that is worth mentioning, but like another poster stated, this can happen for any number of perfectly benign reasons:-)
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    Really scary palps

    Yeah I’ll probably make an appointment. Especially because I had two episodes today and I’m feeling kind of stressed out about it:-) i dont take anything for reflux. It takes a lot for me to take medication — to my detriment. But I should try something and see if it helps. Im just so horrendously bad with uncertainty and the though that my heart could just gallop out of rhythm at any moment is really starting to fray my nerves. God I wish I was a little more carefree.
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    Really scary palps

    I imagine it’s hard to add exercise to your life and I feel lucky that it’s already been an integrative part of mine. But it sounds like you’re doing great! Interestingly, I think I had really bad acid reflux last night when I had it happen most recently. I not 100% but I think that’s what it was. Luckily, heartburn/acid reflux are relatively new to me and I’m still not so sure when it’s happening. I have had tests. The only things that have ever come up are slight enlargement of the right atrium and an unclassified ST wave abnormality. Drs have said that these aren’t things to be worried about jitni think it’s hard to hear “abnormal” and just be totally fine with it. Some of my palps have been diagnosed as PACs, PVCs, and SVT. I’ve had ekgs, and echo, and a Holter monitor. This new kind hasn’t happened during those tests though.
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    Really scary palps

    No worries! You didn’t give that impression. I guess what I meant was that while a fib can have very serious consequences (like a stroke) it’s also true that people can have it and be okay so it’s not like the first time I get it (if I have/ever do) it will kill me immediately on the spot. It could, sure, but people can be in a fib for long enough to get to the hospital and have it corrected and I guess that should give me some peace of mind. I dont usually have other symptoms. Maybe a slight catch in my breath but it’s so hard to tell if that’s a consequence of the palps or just the panic that goes along with it;-) They last such a relatively short period of time that it’s hard to notice. I’m mostly focused on trying to get it to stop which is sort of a weird response I guess. I could definitely eat a little better than I have been but I don’t know I would say I have an awful diet. I exercise all the time — ballet, biking, weight training. The only source of caffeine I have is chocolate as I don’t drink coffee or tea or soda. I could try cutting that out I suppose. Thanks for sharing your experiences. It helps. Do you take anything for a fib now or did they just tell you it was maybe a one-off thing?
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    Really scary palps

    Thanks for your reply. Yeah, so far thy have only lasted for a couple of seconds, but I am terrified of the time that they don’t stop. I guess I should feel comforted by the fact that people with a fib can have it on an ongoing basis and, while that’s not okay and CAN cause issues, it doesn’t always. I just feel so frustrated not knowing what’s happening I’m not good with the unknown 😉 Im equally afraid of going and not going to the dr. Because of course it won’t happen while I’m there and I hate feeling like I’m not being taken seriously. I just feel like I’m waiting for it to happen again. I’m on edge all the time