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  1. 8 points
    I don't really think it's reassurance folks are seeking here. It cannot be, because after doctors have failed to provide reassurance, how on earth could we achieve what the experts in the field couldn't? I believe people who come to post and rant about their health fears, just want to feel and experience that they are not alone in this horrible state of mind, that there are peeps out there willing enough to spend time listening to them, peeps who KNOW exactly what they are going through. How I see it, it's more about brotherhood than it is about informational relief regarding their very symptoms.
  2. 7 points
    I went outside earlier and squatted down in a seated position, which I do regularly when I'm outside. As soon as I got all the way down, I had this sort of "pain" that shot from somewhere near my left shoulder to under my chin, also on the left side. It was an odd sensation. It wasn't a radiating pain. If you can, imagine electricity flowing from one point to another - a current. That's basically how it felt. It was very quick, but I could somewhat distinguish the movement, as in I felt it in my shoulder, then I felt it very quickly travel up to my chin. And then it was gone! No worries, it didn't hurt, and it didn't last long at all. I felt fine. Then I suddenly felt that rush of anxiety. I felt short of breath and my heart was pounding/racing. I'm not asking for reassurance. I'm sharing to show others who struggle with this that this stuff just happens sometimes, and that you will be fine! I am stressed recently due to buying a house, and it's getting very real because we close in a week and four days (May 15), but otherwise I've not been notably anxious. I've not had a true, lasting panic attack since August 2018. Yet there I was today, instantly in a panic despite feeling fine and accepting what happened just moments prior. How did I get out of it in a minute or so? I stopped what I was doing, I took some good deep breaths and I took time to "reset." It disappeared quickly, and I've been fine since. It happens to all of us, no matter how well we may be doing. I also know what triggered it. My mind, having such anxiety about early heart disease, automatically associates any pain/numbness/tingling in my right hand, arm, shoulder, neck or jaw with heart attack. Even when I regularly practice acceptance related to my apparently very healthy heart (per my doc and cardiologist, and several tests over recent years) anxiety can still quickly and unexpectedly latch on to triggers like this. I hope sharing this is helpful to you all. Let me know if you have any specific questions about how I got away from it, how I managed to calm myself, etc. I'll be glad to answer them.
  3. 7 points
    Hi guys, just decided to share this. I've made it for myself and it's helping me. And it has helped me in the past. Just summing up what I need to do. 1. Allow the sensations to come and go. Accept there can be eye discomfort. (Now I'm anticipating the sensations, sitting the whole day in fear). 2. Try not to make the thoughts go away. Your goal is not to eliminate anxiety. Your goal is to have anxiety lingering while you are chatting with friends or working, but let it be there as long as it wishes.3. Lose respect to these thoughts. Know you are an anxious person with the sensitized brain going through a hard time.4. Stop hoping that the sensations won't arise. Accept they will be here. 5. Get comfortable with the sensation of the anxiety which would like to be with you for some time. Embrace it. Know u're going to be anxious for some time. 6. Every "what if" scary thought is a manifestation of anxiety. Let it go. Stick to your plan. Consider it being a fly around your face.7. Stop sitting alone with your anxiety. Go out, talk to people, stop putting off things, waiting to feel good. 8. Stop trying to be happy now. Being ok is ok. 9. When you notice you are anticipating the symptoms, accept they can arise and let them arise, let the panic be there, know it's just an anxious state of mind catastrophizing.10. Stop using search engines and googling, reading about this illness.
  4. 6 points
    Every time I see the amount of posts on the Health Anxiety forum vs. ALL the other forums combined, I can see that health anxiety is at epidemic proportions. There are 45k posts on this forum. The next closest runner up is GAD forum with a mere 8k TOTAL. This is a forum for helping us all get through the rough days. Coming here to talk about a symptom and seeking constant reassurance does not help anyone. What it does is lead to a dependency of sorts. If 3 or 5 or 11 people say that I'm ok, maybe I'm ok until the next sensation comes. We are not doctors. When in doubt, go to a doctor to know why that headache , that rash, that tingling in the throat , ear, chest or eye is happening. We cannot tell you. I would recommend re reading every single morning the ' 100 symptoms of anxiety' post at the top of the forum. It's posted several places so it can be easily found. When someone tells me daily the same symptom and what if it's XYZ disease ( that they've been cleared for by doctors numerous times) , my response is ' what are you doing ABOUT it? ' If the only thing you are doing is rehashing google ' facts' and in a constant mode of needing daily or hourly reassurances that you don't have XYZ disease, then you, my friend, are not getting better and in fact may be getting worse. This is not a HEALTH forum. This is a MENTAL HEALTH forum. The very reason you're posting on this particular site is because you must KNOW your problems are mental and not physical. So that being said, what are you doing about it? Are you seeking HELP for your thinking problem ? Or are you merely seeking assurance that you don't have a physical problem? You cannot make positive steps to improve your mental health while constantly focusing on the physical body. And if you want to debate me and say ' if I only had this mri or that blood test or this one thing would go away or one doctor would tell me I don't have xyz disease', I have news for you. That will never happen. I have seen time and time again the long awaited Test results come back fine and the very next DAY the person then moves on to a new disease with a different body part and starts to focus on that one instead OR they don't believe the test is accurate or the doctor is knowledgeable. It's a loop. It's a never ending loop. You cannot have enough clear tests to relieve your mind. Another thing is the fear of afterlife may be where the problem is. If you fear a big , gloomy, scary afterlife then figure out WHY you fear that. What in your belief system makes you think that after life , we have a worse fate awaiting? Coming to terms with the circle of life and all it entails may bring you more peace than that MRI, colonoscopy, ekg, etc.
  5. 6 points
    Still alive, one thyroid lighter. Didn't tolerate the anesthesia as well as I usually do and there were some minor problems, but nothing went too horribly and I'm already home. Painkillers not really working, but hopefully in a few days that won't be an issue.
  6. 5 points
    So i've had a fairly symptom packed last 3 months. Prior to those 3 months it was nonstop headaches, vertigo type feelings, numbness in my body. the recent 3 months has been pure fatigue, dizziness, sore muscles from my legs up to my neck. I have had jaw pains,and the worst part was body wide muscle twitching. twitching in my feet, calfs, thighs, quads, buttocks, back, stomach, then a few days ago in my lips, face and tongue. My nose and head would twitch even. i had twitches i could feel and even ones i could only see but not feel. i've been off balance had tinnitis, felt like i had arthritis in my hands (still kind of do). i started feeling burning feeling in my feet, legs hands and bottom lip. I was a mess telling myself all day every day that im going to die. telling my family i might die. i was even crying trying to explain to my children that i might not always be here and not because i dont want to but because life just doesnt always work out the way we plan. I was afraid i had als or ms or some serious neurological issue. my initial neuro visit he said no way i have anything like ALS or MS but sent me for bloodwork and scheduled a nerve conduction just to be sure. I still didnt believe him because my body was fooling me into thinking otherwise. so i went on worrying myself, trying to google the right answers obsessively, daily, non stop. I would wake up at night sometimes and google things. i did my nerve test and had to wait 2 more weeks until yesterday to recieve the breakdown of the results.. im in there crying waiting to hear that im going to be dying. Dr walks in and says "ok lets go over these test results". my Heart rate was 120 when i got there, surely higher by this time. He then says you only have minor abnormalities and he shows me the numbers and all my limbs are just barely slower than normal with my right hand( my dominant carpenters hand) being the worst. He says i want to do more labs to test for neuropathy. i said "is that going to kill me?". He chuckles and says Nooo. and right THEN i felt free. And now here i am a day later and already im up doing things, still sore but not feeling like i need to lay in bed all day. i barely notice my twitching and a lot of the major twitching has already started to become less frequent. My lips and face stopped twitching. my tongue stopped feeling numb and twitching. my arms havent twitched as much. i know its going to take time to relax from all this and get my strength back but the difference in just one night of knowing that im simply not dying has already alleviated so much. i was a person who always thought i wasnt susceptible to anxiety or anxiety attacks and now that i look back the anxiety attacks i had werent like the ones i've seen others have, mine were more kept to myself i didnt cry or freak out publicly or at others. i just felt like i needed to go home and felt dizzy and uneasy, and i would get a little bit irritable if i couldnt get home so i could relax myself and this is where i now see a lot of my anxiety and health anxiety started to manifest into serious physical symptoms and pain. I just want to say that if i can conjur up so much hurt on myself like this even when i didnt believe i could...it can happen to anyone at any level of severity and beyond because i was getting worse...i was slipping away, a victim of my own mind... so please people... understand that it is possible to have serious symptoms just from Anxiety. I love you all even if i dont know you. Im just more humble now that i can understand something like anxiety from a personal level and not just from the outside looking in..This has been a real eye opener and i can respect the beast within and learn to tame it rather than fight with it. Goodluck to all fighting their beast and i hope some if not all of you can get some solace from this post. Have a good day everyone and i'll be around here to give advice if i can... but believe in yourselves.
  7. 5 points
    Hello all-- I went to the oncologist yesterday to get blood work done, and everything came back normal! Thank you for your support.
  8. 5 points
    Dr called today final pathology report says no cancer. Thanks be to God.
  9. 5 points
    What about: Mongolian Swamp Fever. Mississippi lurgy. New York Acne. Trumpitis! Brexit phobia. (Found in the UK only. Very nasty.(Can drive you mad if not treated!). Inflammation of the wallet. (I get this badly!). Not making enough money. (moneyitis). Inflammation of the workplace. Miserable sods disorder.( MSD. People that make you miserable) Weatherphobia. Asking too many questions disorder. (ATMQD. Nasty complaint!). Temperitis. (Losing your temper unnecessarily). And so on. I'm sure you could find some more fictitious ones. That's what most of our problems are, fictitious!!!!!!
  10. 5 points
    It’s crazy what anxiety can do to you. i thought I had coats disease due to the fact since 2012 I always had a gold eye in my pictures. I’m a photographer and I know the difference between a red eye, etc. I never really honed into it until last year when i started having my health anxiety and I googled “Golden eye in pictures” and it came out w/ 20+ eye diseases and I thought I had eye cancer or coats disease. I was sure of it. Fast forward 2 months later..... Doc told me it was just due to the lighting and my eye isn’t really focused because I have bad vision. I have 20/70 vision, which really sucks lol. But I’m only going to be wearing one contact in my right eye for now since my left eye is great. Just my right eye sucks. Moral of the story, don’t let anxiety make you think you have a deadly disease, always think positive. God Bless
  11. 5 points
    I Just wanted to give everyone an update on how things are going. Sorry this is long, but if you give this a chance and read it through, I think this will help a lot of people with some things I learned along the way. So after almost 3 months of random symptoms, I'm finally on the mending path from this wicked bout of health anxiety. I had my MRI last Thursday of full Brain and Spine and the results came back exceptionally normal. Here is the list of things I've learned through this process that may help some other people out. 1. Symptoms feel real and it's normal to be afraid, but don't get too invested and pay attention to the likeliness of what your fearing actually happening. Sometimes just by thinking about something we assume that it's more likely to happen because we're thinking about it. This is called Thought-Action-Fusion. It's the same reason why when we imagine what we could do with millions of dollars we go out and buy a lottery ticket, but our chances of winning are no greater than if we never had that thought at all. It takes an incredible amount of stress and mental power to create and amplify symptoms, and an even greater power to stop them. Through the last month, I've had: pins/needles/numbness in my hands and feet, sore lower legs, dizziness, vertigo, trouble concentrating, night sweats, extremely dry mouth, palpitations, hyperventilating and not even realizing it. Sore muscles, feeling like I have pinched nerves, cold feet and hands, sucky memory, twitches, jerks before falling asleep, random tingles, burning skin, insomnia and weight loss. Now I'm just left with a bit of numbness in my hands (worse on the right) and my legs are sore but significantly better. (Tongue gets a little sore when my mouth is dry at night too, but that's pretty normal in winter dryness). I went from a lot of symptoms to very few in a short time by simply not thinking about them anymore. It is actually shocking how powerful the mind can be. 2. Listen to your doctors. They've perfected their crafts through rigorous studies and practical application. They know what to look for, and they wouldn't let anyone go through something terrible if they truly thought anything was wrong. When I was in my spiral, I wouldn't believe a word that anyone told me. I was so convinced that I was dying, I was the most bull-headed human being on the planet, and my anxiety monster wasn't letting anyone tell me any different. Now that I'm on the other side of this Tornado, I just feel like an ass. I let myself get to a place where rational thoughts and actions were simply broken, and going forward through therapy and CBT I'm not letting myself get back to that place. I actually have a follow up appointment with my doctor tomorrow and I plan on apologizing because he was right 2 and half months ago. 3. Seek reassurance, but know when to quit. When you are asking questions about what you're going through, remember that typically people who have been through similar experiences are quite honest. If someone is telling you that your fine, and 20 more people also tell you that you are fine, you are probably fine. There's no bets taking place around who can keep you from seeking proper medical care the longest. People have just been there and don't want you to spiral down as hard as they did when they might not have had the same reassurance resources. 4. Seek professional mental health resources. When your doctors, friends (or group of people in a forum) tell you that your anxiety is getting the best of you, don't wait while your having physical tests to start the help seeking process. Do it in parallel, it's never too early to start seeing someone who can help you with what you're going through on an emotional and mindful level, regardless of the situation. It's a big factor in feeling better. 5. When it comes to health anxiety just pretend that Google doesn't exist. Feeling better? Want to get sucked in to a black hole and repeat the same process you just fought tooth and nail to get out of? Just type in your newest symptom into that oh so familiar search bar and watch as your mental health is thrusted into a blender and set to purify. Unless you're having a heart attack, try out the three week rule. If something is bugging you, give it three weeks, and then go to the doctors. Don't ever Google a symptom ever. PERIOD. Like I said, sorry for the length of this post. But I learned quite a bit in this particular battle with HA (worst it's ever been since I was diagnosed with anxiety over 10 years ago). Hopefully you will use some of the advice above and remember that you are never alone. -Matt
  12. 4 points
    When my first wife left me I was very upset and cried a bit. We had just got back from vacation in Toronto and as she was handing me my dinner plate, she said, by the way, I am leaving you. Talk about a bolt out of the blue. She stayed a while and I finally said, you have to leave. So on a Sunday I left our apartment while she moved. When I came home, the whole apartment was cleaned out except for the kitchen set and the living room sofa, which money was still owed on. The first thing I did was to get a roll a way bed to sleep on from a rent-a-center, then I went to buy a TV and then I bought a bedroom set. Like I said earlier, it will be bothersome at first, but time will heal all wounds and you will meet someone new and better for you. Try to remember, if I can do it, so can you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  13. 4 points
    Well you can't block it, you accept it. Anxiety takes full advantage of that fear you feel when you hear of someone else's misfortune. It uses it to throw fearful thoughts your way. Anxiety creates a fictitious link between the celebrity and yourself, like their illness will somehow transfer itself to you. It's anticipatory and catasrophising, anxieties favourite flavours. So you hear about the illness and superimpose their symptoms onto you then calculate how you would feel, then go in to analysis about the likelihoods etc. Normal anxious response right? The fear response comes from reaction to the initial "oh no, i may get the same condition".. That's the point the roller-coaster starts so it's also the point in which you throw in some rationality like "I'm reacting to fearful thoughts and they mean nothing". At the same time, visualise the thought and let it move on WITHOUT your reaction. You don't need to react to it, your reaction is a choice, not a necessity. So that is the area that you can work on is to simply accept that yes, this person has been taken ill and it's horrible but no, it cannot link to you in some way.
  14. 4 points
    Pancreatic cancer hallmark is not pain. It's jaundice, sudden diabetes, very fast weight loss. At your age the odds you winning the lottery are higher than you coming down with p. cancer.
  15. 4 points
    Hi guys sorry... I just got home I was out all day.... the test went ok, it only took 2 minutes literally... they gave me the cd with the pictures but I can't even try to see it cause I won't understand. My appointment with my ENT is set up for Monday to discuss CT scan results and the allergy testing I am having tomorrow.... Thank you all for checking back... as soon as I hear anything related to results, I will let you know!!!! xoxo!
  16. 4 points
    I am back! NO TUMORS on my cervical spine! Thank God!!! I have 2 herniated disks and 1 bulging... they are worse now than 3 years ago. The doctor did a neuro test, said I am neurological ok (you know I fear Brain tumor) and said all my symptoms are from the herniation. I can get surgery and get it over with BUT we decided to to first PT and injections... if that doesn't work then I need to get surgery. Thank you all for your support! I now need to get sinus CT scan and mammogram GGGRRRRRR it never ends for us, right?
  17. 4 points
    Acceptance is the key. I have had some actual health issues such as a compression fracture of my T-11 vertebrae, an esophageal ulcer, and basal cell carcinoma. Each issue was not exactly pleasant, but I tried to deal with them the best I could. I talked with each respective physician about my condition and that was it. My dermatologist told me during my last visit that medicine is neither 0% or 100%. My concierge internal medicine physician and GI physician told me to not look past today. That is difficult. Uncertainty surrounds our entire lives and of course nothing is guaranteed. All we can do is do the best we can and hope for the best. My mother (may she rest in peace), had 2 interesting sayings about life. One was instead of saying here today, gone tomorrow, she would say, here today, gone today. I remember saying to her, Mom, that is pretty negative and her repsonse was, well thats the way it is. Her other more positive saying was, life is what you make it, which is really true and I try to apply that to my health anxiety. I have a friend of mine who is a psychiatrist in private practive. He has told me that many forms of anxiety have a genetic and environmental component and at times can be difficult to alleviate completely and his advice was also to accept what you have and learn techniques for dealing with it so your life is more enjoyable.
  18. 4 points
    Thanks guys ❤️ the support is so appreciated. She had her ultrasound today and it seemed to go normally, anyway. At one point she asked if the tech saw anything terrifying and she said "No, just boring" so hopefully that held true for the entire thing. I tried to subtly ask how soon into the scan she asked that so I knew how much I could relax, but alas, she didn't take the bait. Oh well, I'll take partially boring over nothing. She gets results of everything on Tuesday so I just have to hang in there. (And, I mean, her too, but she's pretty chill about it.) And tbh we've had times when I wasn't sure our relationship would survive - but I've always known I'd do anything to keep it alive. She's my best friend. And she appreciates all your prayers ❤️
  19. 4 points
    I’m done with my imaging and it came back all clear. No cancer! Praise Jesus now if I can get the blood work on my daughter to come back normal I’ll be doing alright.
  20. 4 points
    Atrophy occurs after the nerves to a muscle have died and the muscle has been in disuse for a while. What this means is, you would not just notice weakness or bite your tongue more frequently - certain muscle movements would be impossible. For a substantial enough period of time for the muscle to waste. Please please believe me on this. This is coming from someone who used to regularly take pictures of my to tongue to show people. There are other reasons this is inconsistent with ALS: the onset is gradual. What you are describing is a simultaneous extremity onset and bulbar onset and while I don't doubt that with enough obsessive digging you can find another case of this, it would be an anomaly for an already extremely rare disease. Not to mention the fact that your hands look the same to me and your tongue looks normal. Stick your tongue out of your mouth now. Now run your tongue over your teeth. Pick up a pen. See how you can do that? Someone with ALS cannot. You are fine. PS- anxiety makes us set our jaw subconsciously which causes our tongue to get tooth imprints on the side. This can be exacerbated if we are dehydrated. Drink more water, sleep more and feel safe in knowing you don't have ALS.
  21. 4 points
    Hello everyone, just came back from my pcp appointment and let me tell y’all. Note: IVE BEEN FEELING ALOT BETTER ON MY OWN THINKING RATIONALLY, TRUST ME IVE BEEN THERE WHERE I FELT LIKE I COULDNT USE MY HANDS, LEGS. FELT LIKE I COULDNT WALK OR DRIVE, EVEN TEXT. LOST ALMOST 20 POUNDS DUE TO THIS HA. IVE ONLY GOTTEN 30 HOURS OF SLEEP IN A MONTH, SEEN MULTIPLE DOCTORS. I WAS 140, NOW IM 160 I FEEL LIKE I OVER SLEEP NOW HAHA AND ITS GETTING BETTER EVERYDAY. She was getting mad at me because I wasn’t focusing on the things I need to focus on haha. (I go to a university hospital and If you read my past post I’ve seen a lot of pcp just wasn’t mine cause she was on medical leave but she knows about my information since it was noted” Well to sum it up, she knows that I’ve been going through many ALS fear for some months now and she knows about my fasciculation's in my left calve (my hotspot) and all over. she said, “you don’t have ALS, we don’t look for twitching in ALS, we look for real clinical weakness.” She also said “you’re 25 years old, your muscles are probably telling you... hey I need to move.” I told her I haven’t been exercising or anything at all just labor work. She also explained, if you’re working out and you can barely curl a 5 pound weight come see me. She then asked me if I wanted to see a neurologist and I was kinda caught off guard, I told her “I do but I feel like I’ll be feeding into my anxiety. You don’t think i have ALS right?” She looked at me like I was crazy cause she just explained everything about ALS to me haha she said “NO.” she said “well I’m going to put the referral in and it takes months to see one anyways so if you feel like you don’t need to then don’t.” its funny because the doctor was telling me I should be worried more about diabetes and heart diseases because of my family. My parents also see my pcp so she’s very familiar with my family and she knows that diabetes runs in my family. So now she wants me to eat more healthier and work out more. i actually have an appointment with a neurologist on Monday cause someone canceled, I was kinda happy. so next Monday I have an appointment with a neurologist and I’ll keep y’all updated but just wanted to share my follow up.
  22. 4 points
    Stop liking online period. Let the doctors, who know what to look for, handle that. It will only make you stay in the anxiety spiral which will make your symptoms worse.
  23. 3 points
    I wanted to point this out (and bring it up again, as I'm sure its been covered before) because as data tracks our search history more and more, not only on our smartphones but on our computers or tablets or whatever device connects to the Internet, a lot of times your search results will bring up issues you've been worried about or Googling. For example a lot of my conversations and my typing lately has been bringing up ads related to lung cancer or any type of cancer either on YouTube, or Facebook or Amazon related products. Today I was in a CVS pharmacy and I hear an AD over the PA talking about the American Cancer Society and raising money for donations. But it starts out with fear mongering. "The number one killer-cancer, affects (enter number here) people a year and women are likely higher to get this diagnosis based on (blah blah "facts"). Please donate 1 or 3 dollars to the American Cancer Society...(blah blah blah)". Stark, ominous music playing with a woman using a creepy, serious tone. It was appalling! And made me so mad as a Health Anxiety sufferer to see the lengths they go to guilt or fear you, out of your hard-earned money. Just remember that this BS can begin to affect you mentally as your whole online world, and outside world can seem to be shrouded in "cancer, cancer cancer!" Scares. It doesn't mean you're more likely to get this illness nowadays, more than ever, but it just goes to show how fear mongering can potentially squeeze money out of you. It was probably an overlooked thought, concept or bug by Ad companies or these sites sharing your search results; as the potential for these internet Ad's to mentally affect those of us suffering from Health Anxiety when flooded with search engine results everyday through Ad's can be crippling. Ad's related to celebrities deaths due to cancer - start popping up on your news feed. You're scared and curious and go and read the infectious material, simply poisoning yourself even more. Sure, you're scared of lung cancer so as a way of apologizing for those stricken with a disease that terrifies you - you might find yourself donating $100 of dollars in hope's your "good graces" will keep you safe from ever getting the disease or sympathizing to the point you're hurting your own pockets, unsure of what else to do other than pray for someone when they're stricken by whatever disease terrifies you the most. Now I'm guilty of succumbing to this act myself, so its nothing to be ashamed of. In summary, while you should take concern for your health, there are productive and healthy ways to do it. Don't allow these fear mongering Ads to guilt trip you into tossing hundreds of dollars away and remember that your search results spawn advertisements throughout your many accounts. This isn't just cancer, but any related disease you begin trending or searching up on. The world around you is not just "Cancer, CANCER! EVERYONE HAS CANCER!" Or whatever disease your Ads are targeting towards you. It's simply the world your search results have immersed you in, unintentionally by your own curiosity. Stay positive and healthy, my fellow Health Anxiety sufferers! None of you are, alone in this fight!
  24. 3 points
    One of the lies health anxiety tells us that every sensation needs an explanation. Sometimes bodies are just noisy. My therapist encouraged me to use a reasonable person test for symptoms. Would a reasonable person without health anxiety think anything of the ‘symptom’? In the case of your muscle pain the answer is no. Can I offer some advice? Stop going immediately to the doctor when a new ‘symptom’ arises. Doctors are trained to find problems so if you go to the doctor with a ‘symptom’ they are going to start looking for a cause which will ramp up your anxiety. Again use the reasonable person test to determine if something actually needs investigating. Reassurance seeking doesn’t work. You cannot get reassurance for HA externally. You have to find it internally.
  25. 3 points
    Hi. Stephanie. Welcome to AC. . Of course, you are so right. It is all in the mind. But having said that the pains and emotions are only too real. It's very difficult to grasp the fact that the mind can actually cause symptoms of a disease even though we are checked out and found to be OK. Never underestimate the power of the mind! The tricks anxiety can play are endless. But the thought or idea must be there for you or anyone to feel symptoms that are not a reality. That's why Googling is out. When in an anxiety state, especially HA, we take in information that is useless because we are not doctors and don't understand. But the thought has been planted like a seed and will grow out of all proportion. Our vulnerability to suggestion is heightened. Suggestion can be a frightening experience, and just makes anxiety worse. Acceptance is still the answer. The realisation that it's all smoke and mirrors in Mr. Anxiety's workshop may give some relief. Bluff and counter bluff are his stock in trade. Once told you are OK, believe them, no second guessing.
  26. 3 points
    You don't have MS. You have anxiety, and symptoms include pain, weakness and tingling.
  27. 3 points
    Take a test now. If you have missed your period already then it would likely show up. It may give you some peace of mind. Stay calm. A surprise baby was one of my greatest blessings.
  28. 3 points
    QUICK UPDATED - EVERYTHING WENT WELL... SUPER AMAZING DOCTOR.... Told me headaches come from neck issues and gave trigger point injections. I passed neuro test 100% told me I don't have a brain tumor. Thank you all for your support. I need to move on with my life and actually start enjoying it!!!! I AM SO WORRIED ABOUT DYIENG THAT I'M NOT LIVING
  29. 3 points
    I am new to this forum and I am in your exact boat. I have been worried about ALS for 6 months ever since I had a brother in law diagnosed with it and started having twitches. I posted my story in my intro here. Today was my neurological appointment, and the Dr told me I was the 4th person this week that had presented with severe twitching all over the body and not a single one had ALS. She gave me a complete neurological exam and was told I passed with flying colors. I could have an MRI if I needed for peace of mind but in her professional opinion it was not necessary. She then told me I had something I had never heard of and explained my symptoms (muscle twitching, perceived weakness, trouble finding words (not slurring), fatigue, numbness, etc). Functional Neurological Disorder/Disease - FND. Often brought on by trauma, chronic stress/anxiety, panic attach, or even infection. In short, it is when you have no problem with the hardware in your brain (no tumor, cancer, stroke or structural disease such as MS or ALS) but there is a software problem in the way the brain is sending signals. I have scanned the document I was given below and the website it references. I did a search on this forum and only found 2 posts under FND so not sure how often it is mentioned or known. The big thing is it gave me a real explanation for my symptoms and something to believe in other than all the worse case scenarios I had been imagining in my head. It explains why the twitches don't stop even when I feel calm and why the jerkiness and trouble walking are not just in my head. And the great news is it is very reversible with therapies and other treatment. I encourage research on this and even googling it (yes, finally something positive to google). Having this knowledge helped my symptoms immediately. I hope this helps. Links to the websites in the document: http://www.neurosymptoms.org and http://www.fndhope.org
  30. 3 points
    Bejewled; You are deep, deep into the HA rabbit hole. You need to concentrate on treating your anxiety by seeing a mental health expert. Look at all the diseases you've "had" over just the past 1-2 months. You have none of them. As Molly says, like the rest of us you have anxiety. I'd say go get a CBC which would rule out leukemia, but once that happened, you'd be back on to another ailment. Besides, it does no good to rule out by testing/physicians every thing you worry about. My doctor called me a "frequent flyer" a couple of months ago when I was stuck in the muck. Then he got mad at me. Now you it seems are the opposite: avoid doctors. The key (which I also need to master) is to NOT go all the time BUT do go when it's necessary. Then, trust the doctor's diagnosis or lack of same. Bob
  31. 3 points
    Overthinking can be a real curse in anxiety. We hardly ever take things and life at its face value, but have to 'go into it' and find out what happens if the 'What Ifs' are real. If you are intellectual and have an enquiring mind the situation can get worse, because you are even more inclined to overthink. Intellectual people can and do focus their minds on very productive enterprises, and that's how it should be. But they can also focus on the negative and that's when the suffering begins. Under 'Articles' there is a essay on Mindfulness. It's a difficult thing for the Western mind to grasp but it can be of great value if we can practise it. Concentrating on the NOW and not letting our minds wander into speculative projections can help anxiety. Anticipation is a real problem in HA!! Sensitivity also comes into the picture. The vast majority of people with anxiety are kind and caring people. NO? Well look round the site and also ask yourself what you are doing here. It's not just to help yourself, because if you look at it carefully you will realise there is a desire to help others. It's by sharing experiences with those who have been there that we realise we are not alone.
  32. 3 points
    I’ve ordered hemp oil from Charlotte’s Web. The wellness shop nearby carries it as well, it’s part of the integrative medicine group for the health care system my doc belongs to, and that’s enough for me to trust it.
  33. 3 points
    Hello Hanna, welcome to AC. I hear you, i've been there myself. I've always been distant socially and at times felt awkward when in a social situations and it's ok to be like that, no one is judging i promise you. Social anxiety stems from the fear of not being accepted (which in turn branches off into other fears ie fear of not being liked etc). Anxiety has it's roots in fear and it's the fear that feeds the anxiety. Insecurity and second guessing 'block' your natural ability to just 'be' because when we relax and let whatever happen, happen, no fear is present and we can talk and socialise normally and freely. The major issues comes from preoccupation and consistent self analysis and your then reaction to the self analysis, this fuels a cycle of "event, analysis, reaction to analysis, fear, introspection, attempt to socialise, event, analysis...." and so on. In all of that time, you spend 99% of it in your own mind. Anxiety can only hold back someone who reacts to the thought of being held back, fearfully. Anxiety needs that fear to thrive. Yes, this can be an issue but don't worry, your in good safe hands here. We will help you through it. Yes and this is being done fearful of the result. This is fighting anxiety and one thing we must not do is fight it (no matter how odd that sounds). Anxiety will always win a pitched battle and will resist back whatever mental energy you put in. The first thing? Deep breath and the drop of the shoulders. I would suspect that usually when you find yourself in a social situation, you follow the same mental patterns of fear. You preplan what your going to say then stumble and trip over your words etc. The thing to practice is to not get involved with the introspective, fearful thought. To let the thought go and instead engage with what is being said. You fluff a word? so what, everyone does that. You fear that they are judging you? Well that's their issue, that says more about them than you. If you feel awkward just repeat a mantra to yourself like "i'm just reacting to thoughts" and let go of said thought. Thoughts are not sticky, they only cling to you if you hold on. Open up the metaphorical palm and let it float away like a balloon. The more you start to practice this, the better it gets. Accept that anxiety will try to catch you out and go with it. Laugh at it, anxiety really hates it when you don't take it seriously, it drains it's energy.
  34. 3 points
    You may want to find another PCP if they treated you like this. Get a second opinion - always good to ask.
  35. 3 points
    A lightbulb moment that helped me a great deal was the realization that anxiety can't hurt me. It's godawful and makes life harder than it needs to be. But it in and of itself can't hurt you. If the anxiety comes, so what? Tell it to fuck off. Give it a name if it helps and tell "Steve" you know his secret - he's the equivalent of a little kid doing that obnoxious "I'm not touching yooooou" thing. He's an annoying little brat whining for attention. Don't give it to him and he'll eventually go away and bother someone else. But if you give that kid the attention he wants, he'll keep pulling that crap because he knows it gets him what he wants. Your anxiety wants attention. It wants you locked into the panic-reassurance loop. But if you stop giving it the reassurance, the panic too will go. It will feel awful at times. Deep breathing, meditation, those exercises where you take better notice of your environment, websites full of videos of baby animals, there are plenty of things out there to help you get through those moments. Block WebMD and similar sites on your computer and phone in case you give in and want to google stuff. There are books and workbooks that may be of help; I'd ask the doctor prescribing your medication if they have any recommendations. Eventually, your brain will be broken of the anxiety/reassurance habit. It's like detox, and eventually the cravings for whatever it is lessens to something that's usually not bad to manage. There will probably be triggers that make it worse and eventually you'll know all those (if you don't already) and be ready for it. (For example, this morning I started having catastrophic thoughts likely triggered by my actual health problems - I recognized them for what they were and ignored them. "Yup, maybe I do have metastatic cancer. Probably not though. We'll find out Monday. Go away so I can enjoy my shower." And I'm not saying this because I think I'm so great - on the contrary, if *I* can do this, literally anyone can!) Anxiety is basically the physical embodiment of the lie that something terrible is going to happen right now. In the case of those of us with OCD, it's often "something terrible is going to happen if I don't do this random thing that objectively makes no sense." But the important thing is, it's a lie. It can't hurt you, and it won't last forever. Steve's just a dick. Kick him to the curb - you can do it. And there are a lot of people here who probably have better advice than I do, and there's usually someone around here when you need some encouragement.
  36. 3 points
    Hi. guye. Welcome to AC. . We have to be careful here. What we have in health anxiety is fear of what may happen, not what is necessarily happening. But distraction and avoidance will not solve the problem. Instead of pushing thoughts away we need to face them square on and see them for what they are, thoughts in a tired mind. When your mind loses it resilience it tends to fasten onto negative things, and that's what causes HA. Facing challenges is, in effect, testing yourself to see if you are able to do what you may not want to. You finish up either pleased that you have succeeded or are disappointed that you have failed. It's best to take things as they come and not make big issues out of minor problems or symptoms. Of course, it's a good idea to get checked out by the medics. Once told it's 'nerves' then believe them. No second guessing. Now I am going to say something that is easy to say but difficult to do. If you ACCEPT how you feel without adding 'second fear' your recovery will be much quicker. By 'second fear' I mean the OMG's and the 'What Ifs' that occur when you feel bad. By adding second fear you add more adrenaline and so prolong the anxiety. Acceptance may not work at once, indeed, it can take time, but it does ease the situation somewhat at first. Don't fight or struggle with 'IT'. Don't be afraid of 'IT'. 'IT' is harmless if treated with the contempt it deserves. Now you may not be as bad as the picture I have painted, and it sounds as if you are a sensible person, but try not to put time limits on yourself to see how far you can go without anxiety. Apprehension is bound to arise and that's not good. Best wishes.
  37. 3 points
    Almost started a new thread because I couldn't find this one. Haha. I'm feeling SO much better now. The debilitating illness was gone by Wednesday, but I had awful nasal congestion and a bit of a cough. I figured it'd go away. However, I still had it yesterday. Last night I took some daytime Mucinex Sinus and it did the trick. Not feeling quite 100% yet, but very close to it, it just takes time to get appetite and all that back. Thanks for the well wishes.
  38. 3 points
    Hey there Lynette, As Holls said, you’re not alone on the twitching front. I’m sure you have seen the multitude of posts over the last’s few weeks and months regarding twitching, BFS, and ALS fears. I know it’s very easy to fall down the MS/ALS rabbit hole, especially when you go to Dr. Google and they are the first things that come up. Our anxiety sets in, we become hyper aware of what’s going on with our bodies, and it’s off to the friggen races. I’m 32 years old as well and have been dealing with this stuff for 19 months now - twitches, cramps, and other weird sensations. No doubt, I took to Google and my anxiety went through the roof. Holls is spot on in saying that twitches with real clinical weakness means absolutely nothing. There is a lot of information out there and it is easy to get lost in the weeds. My primary care didn’t seem very concerned with these symptoms. When I went to the neurologist, primarily for my own peace of mind, she was not impressed either. She knew my fears and just kept telling me that this wasn’t how that disease works. She did an EMG, again to try and put my mind at ease, and it all checked out. This stuff is rare as it is, especially at our age, yet this is what we chose to focus on. Heck, tomorrow is garbage day. As I said before, I could get nailed by the friggen garbage truck tomorrow bringing out the trash, but I’m not worrying about that...and those odds are more likely than what I’m really worrying about. Please note that it is even more rare for you know what to start primarily and solely with just twitching, especially body wide; again, it just doesn’t work this way. Now, it never hurts to get checked out by a medical professional, especially if it will prove to give you the peace of mind you need. Often though, and I say this from experience, it’s not enough. Early on I was finding myself asking what if’s...surely all this twitching isn’t normal. Yet, what I’ve learned over all these months, and through all this reading, is that is normal, especially in folks with elevated and long lasting anxiety. It had been said that we twitch because we are anxious and we are anxious because we twitch. So, sorry for the long winded response. My advice...enjoy your your vacation!!! You’re not alone...again, this forum is full of posts just like yours...from anxious and worried twitchers. Enjoy your vacation!!!! JD
  39. 3 points
    You can’t be serious. You really, really need to get some help and fast. You would question the sky is blue right now. Your anxiety is consuming you and you are not thinking rationally about anything at the moment.
  40. 3 points
    Hello everyone, I came on here to spread some positivity since I’m feeling a lot better myself today. So first let me start off my saying that the last two weeks have been every hard for me. I’ve gone through fears of lymphoma to MS to ALS to other cancers and more. My body has been twitching (still is), aching, and tired. I have had tingling, numbness and lots of itching and rashes. So yes I’ve been through it all and I’m here to tell you that it gets better. I know that for many of us we have phases where we’ll get better, feel something small, catastrophize, and end up super anxious. Trust me I do it all the time. In order to feel less anxious and reduce these feelings I think it’s important to stop seeking reassurance. My psychiatrist explained this to me and it makes so much sense. Why do we google? To seek reassurance. Why? Bc at some point google might have eased your mind or having a friend tell you that they have that symptom made you feel better and now your brains been conditioned to seek that reassurance. When you do that in stressful situations you tell your brain that there is something threatening to worry about and it continues to happen. You become extremely self aware and now notice the small things (a little bruise, scratch, random mole). Ignore it. Don’t give your brain that reassurance and slow you’ll start to stop noticing these things or maybe you’ll notice them but they won’t cause panic or high anxiety. Also guys, be nice to yourselves. Don’t get mad when you feel anxious. It’s a normal human response. Accept it and let be. I know that’s easier said than done but through practice you’ll start to realize anxiety can be dealt with and you won’t always feel this way. Eat healthy, drink lots of water, exercise, see your pcp once a year, and do things that make you happy. Life’s to short to worry this much. I haven’t figured it all out yet and I know I’ll probably be back to read this sometime in the future myself, but slowly things will get better. And even if anxiety comes back, if you’ve kicked it’s ass one time you can do it again! ❤️❤️
  41. 3 points
    Well I did it! I got my root canal done! God knows I didn’t want to and I almost threw up but it’s finally over! It was completely painless and the numbness has worn off and I’m not feeling any pain so I guess I was worried for nothing. As usual. Thank y’all for your help. Your encouragement is what made me go sit in that chair. Much love.
  42. 3 points
    Hey Cuban, I no doubt feel that you can rest easy that all will go well and that your EMG will be clean. One thing though...in following you for some time on this forum I do hope a clean EMG will be enough for you. I worry that you will be second guessing the doctor and the results. Your anxiety no doubt seems to be pretty high. No doubt a lot of us can and do completely understand where you are coming from and have followed a similar track. Even after I had my EMG five months into twitching roughly 14 months ago, I still often find myself second guessing the doctors and the EMG itself, asking questions like was it done too soon...was the needle in the right place and left in long enough...was something just flat out missed? Even still I wonder if things have changed with the passing of time. Again, I speak from experience, please trust your doctors and the results...which I’m confident will be squeaky clean! The doctors are the medical professionals with years of training and experience. I just had a yearly physical with my doctor. Still twitching after 18-19 months. Reflexes checked. Blooodwork normal. No other changes after all this time. They still believe all this to be physical manifestations from an overstressed, hyper vigilant nervous system. I have good days and bad, with twitches, cramps, and all sorts of other weird sensations. One common thread in all this is the fear and anxiety. I feel as though I will not be back to normal, fully healed, until I accept this as fact. So please, once the results are in, focus in on the real problem...your anxiety. For the sake of yourself and your loved ones reach out to a professional who can help you work through all this. I myself have just started seeing a professional to work on not only the health anxiety I have been dealing with, but my OCD as well. Focus on your physical and mental well being and I’m sure you will begin to see an improvement. All the best! And yes, your wife should be able to come in with you...mine was. And, I’m not sure if you have ever had one, but he EMG and NCS are not at all painful. I was worried going in, but after experiencing them I can tell you that it wasn’t bad at all.
  43. 3 points
    You will see what you are obsessing over, even if it isn’t there. To be frank, atrophy does not even come until the muscle has been dead and unusable for quite some time. You don’t have any atrophy. Your mind is catastrophizing. Don’t let it.
  44. 3 points
    Those tongue lesions no more points to ALS than the pimple on my butt points to colon cancer.
  45. 3 points
    Well, this thread has given me a good laugh. Honest!!! it goes to show that we KNOW it's all smoke and mirrors so why do we still get uptight with symptoms? HABIT!! It has become our habit to think in a negative way. 'Catastrophizing they call it. You know, I bet if everyone on this site went for a medical check-up about 99.9% would be found to be OK. Ah now, here we go again! 'What about the 1% you ask, that's what I'm afraid of'? It's a lot more dangerous out there on the road if you drive, but most of us have got in the habit of driving it has become second nature. We don't have to think about it. Now why can't we make positive thinking a habit? We can you know if we persist with acceptance. We can never, in this life, avoid all the problems that being human brings, but we can see events for what they are, milestones to be overcome. We can overcome if we want to and NOT be overcome by events. We don't have anxiety, anxiety has us. Now who has more intelligence, you or Mr. Anxiety? Who is in charge of your mind, you or him? He will take charge if you let him. YOU have the power to change so begin today and use that God given power.
  46. 3 points
    Hey Everyone, Over the weekend some of you may have noticed that the site was down. After doing some digging I found out that Gilly pays for the site to run out of her own pocket! If you're anything like me, this site and its members have really helped through some tough times, so please people go to the top of the web page and click the "Donate" button and keep the site going. Gilly shouldn't have to carry the costs on her own (although I sure as heck appreciate the fact that she has this long). This is an amazing community, let's keep it going! -Matt
  47. 3 points
    And I’ve told you I’ve never had this many symptoms before either. It’s embarassing because my past HA scares I’ve brought up to friends, family, coworkers, etc and each time they turn out to be nothing. I feel like if anything serious does happen to me in the future that they will all down play it because of all the false times I’ve told them about other health scares. Your mind is powerful and HA of the “a” is causing your mind to create its symptoms much like mine did, Stronger than any other HA scares because the “a” is one we cannot test for. Now that i am calmer I no longer have a lot of the symptoms anymore...
  48. 3 points
    Yes!!! I remember when I was young and grabbed magazine while I was getting a pedicure and reading about skin cancer.. by the time I left I was freaking out and checking every mole.. and forget about me watching Grey's anatomy lol, seriously!!! I had everything on that show. 😆🙄😏
  49. 3 points
    Cuban, I read your long PM, and please forgive me, but I'm not responding to it. Suffice to say, after having read it all, I don't think you have ALS at all. I never thought it and don't think it now. I, and we all, want to help you, but giving you continual reassurance is not helping you. You have a serious illness destroying your life, but not ALS. You have health anxiety, really a form of OCD in my book. It is so obvious in your self-testing efforts and repeatedly asking the same questions, repeatedly asking for reassurance. Go ahead and get your EMG, but expect any relief associated with that to be short-lasting, because soon enough your HA will be questioning the test, whether it was performed too early, on the right parts of your body, etc. etc. What you need to do is treat the actual disease you have.
  50. 3 points
    No, not lol. You don’t have it. Read your post after the doc appt over and over again. He said he can spot ALS a mile away. If you had it, it would not only be in your thumb. He does not need to test your thumb to know you don’t have ALS. Perhaps you should see your primary again to see if it may be carpal tunnel or injury and talk to them about treating your severe anxiety.