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    So, here we are. And a big thank you!!

    By Gilly

    January 2012. The past year has been eventful to say the least. Met some amazing people, had some bad times, some great times, some frustrating times but lots of laughs too. And now I find myself in charge of a site. Just how did that happen? lol It's never been my intention. I love to help people, in helping people, I help myself. I've said in the past, if it came down to it, I would be willing to do something. I guess I didn't really think it would happen, but here we are! It's a shame that things didn't work out at the last site. I always tried my best to help it work, doing this was an attempt to make it work. No matter what people thought, my intentions were for the good of us all. To make a site where everyone felt able to come, to get support, to not feel alone and to have a bit of a laugh when it was needed. I took it upon myself to try to push to make it better there, it didn't work, maybe I was wrong, maybe it was meant to happen like this, idk. But it happened, it got out of my control, and now here we are. One of the things that motivates me every day, and believe me I've been struggling with motivation a lot lately, is all the people I've met in the past year or so. How supporting each other has made such a huge difference. Looking after my paralyzed Mum is a daily struggle, I'm unhappy with that, I know I am. I don't want to have to do it, it's hard enough battling my anxieties but it is what it is. Having such amazing people to keep my spirits up, it keeps me plodding along. I want to thank you all, it means more than I can put into words. I will give this site my all, we're in this together. It's for us, and we deserve it. xxx
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  • MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why Make A Blog?

    By MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why should one make a blog? There are a number of reasons to why making a blog is great, the advantages are: 1 - Relieves Stress 2 - Can help others 3 - Preach what YOU care about 4 - You have control 5 - It can actually turn into a business (like Cake Wrecks). There are a couple of disadvantages though: 1- Research, can take up time and not always be correct, always double check. 2 - People may read what you see as light hearted chat as to be something mean and nasty. 3 - Trolls, yes they happen on blogs too. 4 - Websites go down 5 - Some blogging sites are difficult to use and puts people off. Here at AC however it's easy peasy, and within reason you can blog about what you like, but please, if you blogs are hate, racist or too explicit, they will be deleted and information will be passed onto Admin who will then decide which action to take with your account. Thanks for reading! Pamie
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    Panic attacks suck. I know it, you know it and anyone who has fallen victim to one knows it. However, this one simple exercise could help you relax in a pinch.

    What if I told you that you might be breathing all wrong? In fact, experts estimate that only around 12.5% of the population uses this optimal breathing technique.

    I understand it may sound silly to some that breathing has a technique to it. Let’s face it, air goes into your lungs and air leaves your lungs. It can’t be that hard, right?

    If I told you to stand straight up and take a deep breath, most of us don't use Diaphragmatic breathing; also known as abdominal breathing or belly breathing.

    Instead, they would likely be lifting their chest or shoulders to take in a deep breath. This is called shallow breathing and can cause more problems than you think.

     

     

    Breathing with the Belly

    Imagine an infant sleeping soundly in front of you. Do you notice that the child does not actually breathe with their chest and shoulders?.

    Babies automatically breathe using a muscle called the diaphragm. We humans instinctually use this same muscle while we are sleeping or unconsciously breathing.

    The problem is that when we are conscious about our breathing and with the knowledge of the lungs as we age, we lift our chest and shoulders to take a deep breath.

    This doesn’t mean we never belly breath, it just means that when we are consciously aware of our breath we tend to trick ourselves.

    Not to mention that after some time of being consciously aware of the ability to control our breath, we tend to use shallow breathing more than belly breathing.

    Unfortunately, when you are having a panic attack, you are very conscious of your breath, which leads to hyperventilation.

    Not to worry though because this easy exercise can get you back on track to breathing correctly.

     

    Taking a Deep Breath

    To take a truly deep breath and be consciously aware of it, the first thing you must do is just be aware of your posture.

    You can do this exercise in one of three recommended positions:

    1.       Standing straight up in a relaxed position trying to keep the chest out slightly and shoulders back.

    2.       Sitting straight up in a relaxed position trying to keep the chest out slightly and shoulders back.

    3.       The easiest way is to simply lay on the hard floor.

    Note: This can be used during a panic attack, and I would suggest the floor because it is the most restrictive to your movements. I would not recommend lying on a soft bed for this exercise because your body will sink down causing your shoulders to squeeze your chest area.

    So, now that you have your position, take one hand and place it over your chest, and then place the other hand right below the ribcage so the thumb is touching the curve of the lower part of the sternum.

    Now, take a soft breath and then exhale, but when you exhale pull your abdomen in as much as you can. You will notice that this helps empty the lungs.

    Start to inhale, but as you do focus on your stomach and push it out. You will notice that even when pushing your stomach out your body automatically inhales as this is using your diaphragm.

    Now, upon exhaling make sure it is slow and extended.

    Your hands are merely there to help you be consciously aware of which part of the body to move while breathing.

    Try to take large, but short, comfortable inhales, followed by long slow exhales. This allows your body to relax and your heart to slow.

    Exhaling gives your body a natural relaxation response. I cannot stress enough that it is ideal to go slow and steady, but comfortable.

     

    Counting for Comfort

    Now that you understand the breathing technique, it is best to make sure not to overdo the process.

    I cannot tell you how many times I have been focusing on my breath, and suddenly noticed I began to hyperventilate because I was literally overly worried about how much air I actually needed.

    I have come up with a little counting exercise to use during those exact moments. That way I will always know how to calm myself without inducing hyperventilation.

    After your first inhale hold your breath for 5 to 7 seconds. Exhale slowly as previously instructed, but DO NOT inhale immediately. Pause for 3-5 seconds before you pull in your next breath.

    Once you figure out a good and comfortable rhythm try to add counts to your inhale and exhale. Inhale slowly for 3 to 5 seconds, Hold for 10 seconds, exhale for 8 seconds and wait to inhale for 3 to 5 more seconds.

     Practice Makes Perfect

    Once you have the technique pretty well memorized I would suggest putting in some practice and making it habitual.

    Giving any skill practice will cultivate it over time and belly breathing is no different.

    I suggest taking five minutes per day to really focus on this great technique. After a while, you will notice that during the day you will automatically belly breath to relax.

     

    Wrapping It Up

    There are so many great things that can come from belly breathing beside a quick panic attack helper. But the greatest thing it increases for someone like us who suffers from anxiety is the increased relaxation.

    Every time you belly breath to fill your lungs completely and then follow with a slow exhale your body gets love from your brain telling it to calm down.

    While this is not a cure for anxiety, it is a really great tool for you to use anywhere at any time. Not to mention, when it becomes habitual you will find it helps to lessen a number of panic attacks you will have.

    Give it a try. You have nothing to lose except an incorrect way to breath.

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    Beliza
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    Hello, my name is Brooke and I just recently joined anxiety central because I was in search of some advice regarding my health anxiety. It all started with the bottoms of my toes and feet feeling numb after one of my long walks. A couple days had gone by and the numbness was still there and that's when I decided to look online to understand why I was feeling this numbness and I came across all of these awful things that could be wrong with me and that's when I got scared and my anxiety started.

    From then on I had been in a state of constant anxiety and each day I would feel worse and I had a tightness in my chest, a lump in my throat, an upset stomach and tingling calves which worried me even more that something was wrong with me. It's when I finally made a post on here about what I was experiencing that I learned that all those things I was feeling was because of my anxiety and once I learned that, the things I was feeling started to get better and for the most part, go away. I'm still dealing with my health anxiety and am being hopeful that it will get better soon. Aside from health anxiety I also suffer from social anxiety and occasional anxiety due to stressful events.

    I feel writing this right now helps with my anxiety and I also feel that discussing anxiety with other users that may be going through something similar would be helpful too. If anyone would like to share any similar experiences or has any opinions or comments to add, please feel free to do so :) 

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    Being obese is not a problem but taking no steps to reduce the weight is. If you’re afraid and bored of vigorous exercises, you should add walking to your to-do list. In the beginning of the interview, Mr. Marshal, a physical trainer added, “if you’re tired of workouts and still there is no weight loss, you must try walking”. If you know the tricks, you can burn extra fat by stepping on the road.

    Pack a perfect pair of shoes

    The first step you would take in walking is to buy shoes. Make sure it has normal flat surface with low-heel and fits you perfectly. Even a minute difference in measure can ruin your walking style.

    Walk before breakfast

    Studies say that, “walking as soon as you woke in the morning will help you burn more calories”. You will lose your glycogen levels during sleep and your body fat is used as a source of energy.

    Create your favorite playlist

    You should not get bored in your first attempt itself. So, before you step out, add your favorite songs to playlist. This will increase your walking route and pace. Adding beat songs may force you walk a little longer, so avoid sad songs that make you return home soon.

    Find a path to walk

    Walking pace and time depends on the route you’re going to choose. We don’t walk to our office nearby but we walk for miles in any holiday destination. Why is that? When our eyes get attracted to a place, it keeps forcing you from behind to walk, no matter how badly your legs pain. Find available long routes near to your house and choose the one with more trees, park and coffee shops. You can take rest for 5 minutes at the part and get water bottle from the café when exhausted.

    Who’s your walking buddy

    Well, if you’re very social and easily get bored while walking alone, all you need is a partner. The accompanier can be your sweet puppy, close friend or even your grandfather. Set your daily goal, motivate each other and achieve it.

    Sip green tea

    Don’t go to bath straight away when you return home. Sit for a while and drink green tea within 25 minutes after a brisk walk to heal cell damage and to see the slimmer you.

    Fats vary from person to person. So, don’t drop walking if it doesn’t give you any fruitful result. Be calm and chase your dream!

    Source: Modalert

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    SHALEASE
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    Being home everyday is something alot of women dream of. Most days are okay. Then there are those days I wish I could go out alone. People take things for granted, like going to the store. Or even taking their kids to the park. There are a few people that try to understand. Others tell me it's all in my head. Or say things like I should force myself to do it. All of them mean well I guess. Doesn't help. Just makes me feel worse. Sometimes I figure I should be used to living like this. But I can't and it's a hard pill to swallow. 

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    For the last three days I've felt three emotions. Sadness, anxiety and numbness. I don't know if numbness really counts as an emotion per say, but it's better than the knot in my stomach from pure fear or the feeling of energy-sucking emptiness that takes me over. It's almost comforting. Everything is just dulled.

    However, even though I don't feel it I know that I should be proud of some of the things I've done the last three days. Yesterday I spent most of the day out of bed. I worked on a puzzle a little bit and took a shower. I actually drove into town and applied for a job. I had an interview today. I spent most of today out of bed as well. I haven't hurt myself either but again that might just be the numbness. 

  3. I wrote off a group of friends from the previous state I lived in, about 13 years ago. They were mainly friends with me through my best friend, who I found out down the line was telling people before they even met me that I was "difficult to get along with". In the open she always commented, how I was a prude, or pasty white, or had no boobs, she'd laugh it off like it was some happy joke between us, but it wasn't funny for me- she was making light of things I could not or would not change. 

    I also tried out a couple of them to watch my two cats while I took off on vacation for 5 days, one person got a ticket while in my car and tried to deny it. The main couple thought each other was watching my cats, so neither came to tend to them. 

    So after spouse and I wrote them off, only telling them "we need to work on our selves, our lives, have a good life y'all, see ya"; we worked on our house and then sold it after a year. Moved across country. I thought I would get a job and make friends. Check, check, but then after 6 years, I quit said job and it ended up my co-workers did not wish to continue the friendship outside of work.

    I don't delve into drama, nor perpetuate, or judge people. I don't have kids, not single, cannot drink alcohol because my body won't metabolize it, and I am not pretty. I have some friends an hour away but lucky if we see them three or so times a year. I asked one of them privately what my quirks were when another of them brought up, in a group chat that they "like me with my quirks". The friend told me I could be "slightly sarcastic, which wasn't a bad thing, and that I tend to be self-effacing, also not a bad thing".

    I am clueless about either of these. I am only sarcastic with my husband because he knows when I am being funny. Self-effacing means something like "staying in the background, not wanting to be the center of attention". And this is supposedly what drives potential friends away?

    After all this time, I have not gotten used to not having friends, haven't had anyone other than husband to celebrate my birthday with in over 15 years. I never complain about it until now because I know that would turn people off. 

    My head hurts, my heart hurts, it feels like no one cares, and it stresses me out immensely to not know how to fix it. My whole body is just so tense.

    I've tried volunteering, several times at different places- animal shelters, archaeology digs, art centers, etc- to meet people and learn about the areas I live in. I am currently part of a huge volunteer-run organization, which is how I met the current friends- but again, lucky if we get together with these people three times a year because of being frugal with gas an cash since I am prematurely retired, being a stay-at-home wife, and husband is probably looking at earl retirement because he is so burnt out.

    It just feels so hopeless. The friend site, again, only has people who are looking for friends an hour away from me. 

    So BIG hugs to anyone who feels they are alone. You are not, I am here for you, and appreciate you for who are. I have enough love and hugs for anyone who needs it.

  4. Ihadcancer
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    HI Everyone,  I haven't been around because I've been doing so very well.  Working in my  yard and being creative. Back at the gym, etc. 

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    I'm on Facebook under Diane Weldy Tavegia and anyone can read my blog.  

    Absolutely doing GREAT!

    Diane

     

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    Hi :)

    I just signed up for AC after a few months struggling with what I have been told is a 'panic disorder'. (i'm still not convinced i'm not dying, which definitely doesn't help the anxiety.)

    Recently i've been struggling with this strange discomfort/pain in the left side of my chest and left arm pit. It comes and goes, but is almost present. I can feel this weird pressure/tension in the top of my left breast, the left side of my chest, my arm pit, and sometimes it radiates somewhat down the inside of my left arm or down the left side of my ribcage. Originally, I believed it was related to my heart, but after multiple EKG's, tons of blood tests, an echo, and a chest xray all came back normal, my doctor is convinced that it is related to my anxiety. It feels like a muscle or nerve thing, but my doctor doesn't see the need for those tests. There's no swelling in my chest and I can't pinpoint where the discomfort is coming from, it truly makes me feel like I am losing my mind.

    This new anxiety started at the beginning of January, after returning from visiting my parents abroad. About 4 hours after landing I felt this hard thud in my chest, I got super dizzy almost collapsed when I stood up, my heart was racing and my legs were shaking uncontrollably. I went to the ER thinking I was having some sort of heart episode, but they did a bunch of blood tests, an ekg, and a chest X-ray which all came back normal. They hooked me up to 2 IV's which brought my heart rate down, they attributed everything to dehydration and sent me home.

    A few days later I was watching TV when all of a sudden my legs started to shake uncontrollably again, my heart started to race, my chest was incredibly tight, and I honestly thought that I was going to die. I went back to the ER in the morning and they did more tests but couldn't find anything. They told me I most likely experienced a panic attack and to talk to a therapist 

    It's now almost the end of February, and i've experienced around 5 of these panic attacks. It starts with the shaking/seizing of my legs, the pain in my chest is multiplied by 100, my heart races, I can feel extremely hot or freezing cold at the same time, it feels like theres fire in my veins spreading from my neck down my chest and back, and when it happens theres nothing I can do but sit there feeling like i'm dying. It's terrifying. I absolutely hate living this way. I keep hoping its muscular or a nerve, at least those are treatable with medicine and go away. 

    Now, when I start to feel the pain in my chest it automatically sets off my anxiety because i'm thinking about it. Sometimes my neck feels really weird and tight, it feels somewhat spastic. The neck stiffness/spasms and leg seizures made me think it was neurologic. I get nervous that one of these attacks will happen while i'm in class, luckily so far I that hasn't happened.

    I've been in Zoloft for almost a month and haven't seen much improvement. My doctor dismisses this pain and basically just sends me home to deal with it on my own but it's difficult when you don't know what you're dealing with. I was on klonopin for a month, 1.0-1.5 mg could usually bring me out of that panic state.

    I haven't spoken to anyone this in depth about how it makes me feel. I'm sharing my story to see if anyone experiences similar symptoms, and with the hope that someone struggling with similar issues takes comfort that they're not alone

     

    :)

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    TwitchyCanuck
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    When fighting a battle, there is always strength in numbers. But, having someone by your side sometimes comes with a cost. Superiority in numbers is something very different from strength in numbers, and, with anxiety, this can be a crucial difference.

    Late at night, when my anxiety found me alone in the dark and slowly pushed me over the edge into a panic attack, I used to think that everything would just be better if there was someone there with me. I think the isolation that the dark and quiet of night time is what made this the worst time for my anxiety. It was harder to distract myself when I was alone, and I didn't have the helpful distraction of trying to keep a strong mask in places for everyone around me so they would think I was fine. At night, there was nobody there to see me struggle, nobody I had to put energy into making believe I was fine. And, nobody to support me when I finally tipped into panic.

    I've been with my wife for five years now, and what I have come to discover is that no longer being alone may have helped me in some ways, but it has also presented challenges that I didn't expect. I don't get the night time panic that I used to get, and in some ways have better control over my anxiety than I ever have. But, I've also adopted my wife's struggle with anxiety, panic and depression. In some ways, that's been a tougher battle than the one I faced alone.

    I suppose I thought that addition would lead to subtraction; I thought that by adding a partner, I would be subtracting anxiety. In fact, adding a partner added their struggles and difficulties to my own. There's nothing simple about the arithmetic. Whenever you add, you add complexity.

    This is not to say that I have regrets. I guess this initial post is really just a recognition of the fact that a lot of us face what we feel is a solitary struggle, and sometimes we think the solution is out there for someone to simply gift us with it. We want the solutions to be simple. We want someone to take the problem away. But, the world is more complex than that, and the solutions are never simple. The strength we gain in numbers comes with the commitment we have to make to give back to that network of people to help them with their own troubles. My wife has helped me face a lot of my own problems with anxiety, but the struggle is still there and has taken on a new dimension because I, in turn, have to help her deal with her own. And, that's difficult. Just as it's difficult for us, as a community of similarly afflicted individuals separated by screens and distance, to share of ourselves while needing the sharing of others to keep moving forward. 

    I'm here and willing to be your +1, of the occasion. But, can you be mine?

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    This is the time we all start to look at what we did last year and how we can change for the coming year. What is the one thing you want to do to make this year different from last year?

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    mswcmw
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    Hello, recently moved to Buffalo, finding a new job, doesn't start until the 28th, so bored nothing to do and the anxiety has been hitting me pretty hard usually starts when I wake up which is very difficult, Started reading a Conversation with God but it seems to have made my anxiety much worse, feel like I've wasted my life, have hypothyroidism, and been fighting depression all my life. Afraid to succeed, have appointment for the doctor on tue and a therapist wed, how am I going to make it? Living with my daughter and had a good chat with her and felt better that night but woke up, and it started all over. I try and stay busy and hike or skate but it's insidious and hits when I least expect it. Tried alot of different things for depression

    Thanks for reading my pissing and morning 

  6. I had a pretty decent day today. I still had a little bit of an attack but nothing like I normally do. I really think I am on to something by not sitting in front of the computer all day. I actually went out to the store today. I didn't go in but I did drive all the way there and I was pretty close to fine while my wife went in and grabbed some stuff. I played baseball out in the yard with her and my kids today. That is something I wouldn't have even considered doing a week ago. I am moving forward. I ate a good dinner, drank a good amount of liquids and haven't really spent too much time thinking bad thoughts. I had about an hour relapse when it started to get dark and I got a little depressed but I fought through it. I didn't freak out, I stayed decently calm and rode out the attack. I feel okay. Not great, but okay. I can live with okay. My entire house seems a little happier. I'm pretty excited that I can pull it towards the right direction. 

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    This week has been hard for me. I have been seeing my current BF for 6 months now. He knows about my anxiety, but I don't like to show it to him all the time. I love being able to talk to him about it because he makes me feel safe, but I also do not want to scare him off with it. He loves me unconditionally, but I also have an understanding that explaining anxiety to a person that does not have it over and over again can get pretty frustrating to the other person. i am trying to find the fine line between feeling supported and being over the top. I have not been over the top, but the past two weeks my health anxiety has peeked and I am constantly thinking about it. I want to talk to him about it, but I know he is running out of things to say because he doesn't understand. I am hoping that writing my thoughts down and possibly hearing from others could help curb my need to talk to others in my life that may not understand. 

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    Hi everybody ! I did a blog wich talk about getting the control of anxiety. It is in french but you can use google translation. I will be thankfull to you to visit my blog and also give ideas if you want.

    http://anxiete.eklablog.com/

    Thank you !

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    Well... It's been a few months since I started dating him and some say we moved too fast but we are engaged and trying to enjoy all that it brings. It's hard though when I spend so much time feeling out of control. Then I start to hate myself for bothering him when he fights his own anxiety and depression. I just want to know what it's like to not feel guilty about being happy or standing up for myself for something I truly want. Most of all I need to learn to not feel like I'm bothering him since my whole life he has helped me fight this war.

  7. Hello!

         I wanted to share something going on with me that is separate from my anxiety/panic/depression. (The story of why I have anxiety/panic/depression does not seem like an important detail to tell. I only want to share the journey of recovery.) For a few years now I've had trouble with my lower back. Nothing too serious (so I thought). If I began to feel pain I would just take it easy for a few days and treat it with rest, ice, and Aleve. BUT about a month or so ago, right after my anxiety/panic returned, I woke up with excruciating pain down my whole left leg. I couldn't feel my toes or outside of my left foot. I could barely walk. I started taking heavy doses of Motrin and using ice, but it was no use. I figured the pain would eventually subside but it wouldn't let up. Finally I went to my doc and they kind of down played it, thinking I was just being sensitive. They sent me for Xrays and put me on a prescription strength Aleve (naproxen). They also put in a request for an MRI. Long story short they rejected my MRI 3 times. I went back my Doc for a different problem and I told him the problem was persisting. I received a referral to the spine specialist. Finally the specialist got me and MRI and I began physical therapy. Well, yesterday I saw the specialist to go over the results...it's not good. I have two herniated discs. One of which is so degenerated that there is practically no disc between the vertebrae. The disc is laying onto of the sciatic nerve completely covering it. If that isn't repaired, I could have permanent damage of the nerve forever. Which means numb foot for the rest of my life. (Oh, did I mention I am a dance teacher for a living so MOVING is my livelihood?) He said he may have to do surgery! I DO NOT WANT SURGERY! I don't want to take any narcotics because it messes with my anxiety. So for now, I will continue PT and they're going to give me cortisol shots! Yuck. And if that doesn't work I will get "minimally invasive" surgery to shave down the disc off the nerve. I'm in a lot of pain and I'm very upset because this is a lifelong problem and I am only 24. I'm scared it will ruin my career. I can't run, lunge, or squat. So my gym activity is very very limited. This is exacerbating my anxiety/panic because it is an additional stressor that affects my overall attitude plus increases my levels of tension in the body. Now I am seeing two types of therapists...a cognitive behavioral therapists and a physical therapist. I am not a healthy girl right now and I am frustrated and scared. I'm putting so much effort into getting better it exhausts me. My social life has suffered a lot but I everyone is telling me that I HAVE to take care of myself right now and put ME first. I have difficulty with that. If anyone is reading this, did you ever experience a significant injury like mine? How did you overcome it? Did it make your anxiety worse? How did you cope?

    Thanks for the read. Sorry to ramble. :D

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    The relationship between God and anxiety is actually very complex. Some people see turning to God as a way to gaining strength against anxiety disorders, and use their religion as their primary source of coping.

    My husband has been suffering from anxiety for three years now and because of this he was not able to work for one year. I know that there are people out there who have suffered for much longer. But, no matter how long one has suffered, you know the toll it takes on your life and the lives of the people who love you!

    Every time my husband had an attack, we would have to make a trip to the emergency room. These visits took place at least once a week sometimes, two or three times a week! After about three months of this, I would try to convince him that he was not dying and he needed to calm down. But, there was no convincing him of that! His chest would hurt, he couldn’t breathe, and he was convinced that he was having a heart attack. It got to the point where I was growing more and more tired of the ER and the ER was tired of seeing my husband for the same thing time and time again. I got so bad, that after a while, it seems that they were going through the motions when treating him because they just could not convince him that he had yet ANOTHER ANXIETY ATTACK!! Now, this was not helping him and I was not helping him either by getting frustrated and angry because here we go on ANOTHER TRIP TO THE ER!! Our relationship was suffering because of this. Something different had to been done!

    Yes, he did eventually come to terms with the ideas that he does have anxiety and eventually went to see a physiatrist. The physiatrist put him on medication and I can say that it did help. But, there was still something missing in his recovery. This is what prompt us look to God…

    Christianity teaches that belief and strength are a great way to support your own mental health, and that it's your duty to take care of your emotions

    God helps people who believe to overcome anxiety because the core of anxiety is fear. People with anxiety fear the unknown and the belief that the unknown cannot be controlled. Beliefs in God and what he teaches will help promote less anxiety, because what he teaches runs directly with the issues that cause anxiety.

    In the bible, it says fear of the unknown shows a lack of faith in God. If you're allowing yourself to be overcome by anxiety and fear, then you are showing lack of faith and trust in God. If you trust in God, the future is nothing to fear. God also teaches that death is nothing to fear. In fact, life lived in God’s plan is a promise to eternal life. Believing in God is about having faith in him and his plans for you. Having complete trust helps in managing anxiety.

     

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    3 days until Saturday and all the craziness takes place, family is coming into town and I am starting to feel surrounded. Everyday I wake up feeling like I have a 10 pound weight on my chest and I can't get rid of it. On top of all of this I am suffering for major migraines that makes it hard to do anything when its hard to see or even function. Even after all of this is over I just move on to trying to figure out what is causing my headaches and hoping it is an easy fix... 

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    So my therapist recommended I see an additional doctor to talk about medication. It's frustrating. I logically know drugs can help. I'm just scared and it's most likely irrational, which just makes me angry.

    I guess what it comes down to is I don't want to keep feeling stressed; i want to stop hiding in the bathroom, to stop procrastinating, being so absent-minded, to stop getting lost for hours in list making and organizing. At the same time, I don't want to lose me in the process. The other thought is what if it does change how my head works, but doesn't help me improve my life, like a lot of half-finished projects of mine.

    Also, it feels like I should be able to handle things without, but I obviously have not done a very good job of it. I look back on life and have mostly regrets, so I'm jumping in the deep end. 

  10. SlowAndSteady
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    I'm so used to worrying about silly things and having panic attacks about things that may never even happen that sometimes I'm almost surprised when I have something legitimate to worry about. It's a different kind of fear when you know this is something that will have an impact on you or others, whether it be emotionally or financially. A actual problem that needs a solution, something you need to figure out, a constant nagging in your mind that won't go away until you resolve the issue. I can't say that either one is worse to me, just two sides of the same hated coin. One of the funnier things is when it is a real problem all the people who normally dismiss your fears are so understanding, they agree this is bad, you are vindicated. Something that you might appreciate any other time, but at that moment is a very cold comfort.   

     

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    It's funny it took me forever to post anything, but as soon as I started, I really unloaded. I never used to really talk about this. 

    Now that I am, I just feel the need to talk about everything. Sorry if it's excessive. 

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    Feeling alone today. I'm thinking about disconnecting myself from social media because of the impact it has on me. I see all these pictures/posts of people being "normal" and I can't help but wish it was that easy for me to connect with others. I keep thinking there's something wrong with me. I worry that I'll always be alone. I worry that I won't find my place in this world. I hate that I am my own worst enemy.