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Weeping

Sometimes I weep. Sometimes I just cry my eyes out, thinking of a million different things, not knowing the real cause except whatever it is, is making me cry, silent hot droplets down my face. Weeping. 

Most of the time I’ll be thinking about my nephew who passed away. Other popular mind topics are dying. My health. My family and friends. My future. Did I mention dying? 

Recuring topics that will always be there, they will never go away and sometimes. When the stars aline, the thought of them makes me weep. 

Weep with fear, alone in a dark room. 

Waiting to be both completely alone and completely surround all at once. 

Weeping feels like a release though. It’s not hysterical, panic driven or causes small screams that I stifle with a pillow. 

I will sit or lay down and the tears will just fall down my face. The heat of them always surprising me. It is a release, it doesn’t necessarily make me feel better but something is open and shared when I weep to myself. 

 

Today i weep...I think because I started to think about my nephew but then I started to think about my future  and what I want to do. And I’ve been worried about my stomach the last few days too, it’s not felt so great. 

So im making a promise to myself, this week I’m going to eat healthy, cry if I want to about it haha but I’m going to do it. I’m going to try and make a doctors appointment to take about anxiety medication and I’m going to keep my future creative. Aim for happiness and you can’t go wrong, someone very smart said that to me once. 

I’llbefineintheend



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OK!!! Weep!! There's nothing wrong with a good cry. I have, many times. Oh yes, guys do cry, though few admit to it. I just don't give a toss what anyone thinks. My macho image went out of the window years ago. Not manly!! :fp:. RUBBISH!! But it's human!  We are all composed of our opposites. Women 80% female 20% male. Men are the opposite, BUT there is that element of femininity in every man, although it goes unrecognised because of the connotations involved. Watch a new father holding a baby! His femininity is showing! What is femininity as opposed to masculinity? It's caring, loving, gentleness, an ability to nurse and to help. Masculinity is more about assertiveness, the need to be in control, dominance. These are negative aspects, but there are positive ones in the need to lead, to protect, to see danger where a woman may not.  

So weep! But who wouldn't when you look around. Anyone with an ounce of human feeling would weep. Millions die of malnutrition and starve. They live in camps that are like hell holes, while we spend millions on going to Mars or building useless aircraft carriers. If there was oil in Eritraia would there be starvation there? Of course not. All the Western countries would be rushing to get in. But there's no profit in starving people.

" Laugh and the world laughs with you: cry, and you cry alone". An old saying but how true. The feeling of being alone and isolated is one of the worse symptoms of anxiety. It's one which can only be countered by talking to those who know.

Love your blogs!!! At least it gives ME comfort to know there is at least one human left!!!!! :D.

 

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On 2/12/2018 at 4:44 PM, jonathan123 said:

OK!!! Weep!! There's nothing wrong with a good cry. I have, many times. Oh yes, guys do cry, though few admit to it. I just don't give a toss what anyone thinks. My macho image went out of the window years ago. Not manly!! :fp:. RUBBISH!! But it's human!  We are all composed of our opposites. Women 80% female 20% male. Men are the opposite, BUT there is that element of femininity in every man, although it goes unrecognised because of the connotations involved. Watch a new father holding a baby! His femininity is showing! What is femininity as opposed to masculinity? It's caring, loving, gentleness, an ability to nurse and to help. Masculinity is more about assertiveness, the need to be in control, dominance. These are negative aspects, but there are positive ones in the need to lead, to protect, to see danger where a woman may not.  

So weep! But who wouldn't when you look around. Anyone with an ounce of human feeling would weep. Millions die of malnutrition and starve. They live in camps that are like hell holes, while we spend millions on going to Mars or building useless aircraft carriers. If there was oil in Eritraia would there be starvation there? Of course not. All the Western countries would be rushing to get in. But there's no profit in starving people.

" Laugh and the world laughs with you: cry, and you cry alone". An old saying but how true. The feeling of being alone and isolated is one of the worse symptoms of anxiety. It's one which can only be countered by talking to those who know.

Love your blogs!!! At least it gives ME comfort to know there is at least one human left!!!!! :D.

 

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