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  • MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why Make A Blog?

    By MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why should one make a blog? There are a number of reasons to why making a blog is great, the advantages are: 1 - Relieves Stress 2 - Can help others 3 - Preach what YOU care about 4 - You have control 5 - It can actually turn into a business (like Cake Wrecks). There are a couple of disadvantages though: 1- Research, can take up time and not always be correct, always double check. 2 - People may read what you see as light hearted chat as to be something mean and nasty. 3 - Trolls, yes they happen on blogs too. 4 - Websites go down 5 - Some blogging sites are difficult to use and puts people off. Here at AC however it's easy peasy, and within reason you can blog about what you like, but please, if you blogs are hate, racist or too explicit, they will be deleted and information will be passed onto Admin who will then decide which action to take with your account. Thanks for reading! Pamie
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  • Gilly

    So, here we are. And a big thank you!!

    By Gilly

    January 2012. The past year has been eventful to say the least. Met some amazing people, had some bad times, some great times, some frustrating times but lots of laughs too. And now I find myself in charge of a site. Just how did that happen? lol It's never been my intention. I love to help people, in helping people, I help myself. I've said in the past, if it came down to it, I would be willing to do something. I guess I didn't really think it would happen, but here we are! It's a shame that things didn't work out at the last site. I always tried my best to help it work, doing this was an attempt to make it work. No matter what people thought, my intentions were for the good of us all. To make a site where everyone felt able to come, to get support, to not feel alone and to have a bit of a laugh when it was needed. I took it upon myself to try to push to make it better there, it didn't work, maybe I was wrong, maybe it was meant to happen like this, idk. But it happened, it got out of my control, and now here we are. One of the things that motivates me every day, and believe me I've been struggling with motivation a lot lately, is all the people I've met in the past year or so. How supporting each other has made such a huge difference. Looking after my paralyzed Mum is a daily struggle, I'm unhappy with that, I know I am. I don't want to have to do it, it's hard enough battling my anxieties but it is what it is. Having such amazing people to keep my spirits up, it keeps me plodding along. I want to thank you all, it means more than I can put into words. I will give this site my all, we're in this together. It's for us, and we deserve it. xxx
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Anger

I'm not an angry person. For most of my life I've been avoiding conflict for the life of me. Even when my brother used to steal and break my dolls I would only cry the most when my mom found out and he got into trouble. In fact, anger is something that's not discussed in our house. It's basically an unwritten rule that we have to smile and act polite or it's just unacceptable. We always have to be happy. I can't count the number of times when my mom has told me I don't get to be mad because I don't have to put up with everything she does or I don't get to be mad because I've had it better than she did. I used to listen. I'm starting to realize that maybe I don't have to. This year has been pretty difficult. I found out a lot of things about my family, I got rear-ended by a drunk driver, and I began to get snippets of memories of sexual abuse from my childhood. I've been trying to be so positive, but lately everything's been changing and it's making me feel like I've once again just stood up before someone's pulled the rug out from under me again. Without alcohol I've had to deal with it, and I've been trying to let myself not be so controlling over what I let myself feel. Sure anger has it's downsides. Sometimes I just want to punch the wall or scream at the world in frustration. It clouds my judgement at times (as any emotion does) and makes it hard to keep up my "nothing to see here" routine. People that I can usually put up with I've had to sever connections with because I just can't do it anymore. I'm less approachable, less of a pushover, but I don't mind. Mostly I'm alright with it because for me the benefits outweigh the detriments. It's a means to an end. If I get angry I can process it all. I get to feel what it did to me, and I get to get rid of all of that negative energy so I can move on. Maybe I won't move on from everything, but at least I can start to heal and take back the power the past has had on me. So if you're reading this, be angry with me. Don't be afraid of it. Anger can be a weapon, but it's also a tool. Depending on how you use it it can sew you up or rip you apart. You can't learn how it works until you experience it for yourself. What is something you're angry about? 

emzi

emzi

 

Update

Well, it's been a couple months since I've posted. A lot has changed yet nothing has. I started University. It's pretty great for the most part and keeps my brain busy. The bad part of it is that I was completely blindsided a couple weeks ago. It started gradually like it always does. I thought it was because I was sick at first but I think that was just more of an excuse than anything. By the time I realized what was happening I was in my car with chunks of my own hair in my hands crying because I couldn't bring myself to go to my classes. I haven't resorted to that again but it was a bit of a shock. I still feel like shit, I've lost over 10 pounds because I'm just not hungry anymore. I keep trying to stay positive but I know I don't believe any of that crap. Best I can do is fake it until I make it and stick to my meds. 

emzi

emzi

 

I Took A Step

Last Thursday I decided to go inpatient to get some help. I attempted to check myself into a local hospital but was turned away because I didn't meet the criteria. Apparently I had to be homicidal, s*****al, or psychotic. I was told to go to a local crisis residential unit that I have been to before many years ago. At first I was apprehensive but I knew that I would slip deeper into insanity if I didn't take the leap. I packed my bags and my friend took me. It is odd because I barely remember even going or the process of admission. The first few days were tough. I couldn't sleep which has been a persistent problem for about a month. They decided to put me on Ativan temporarily and eventually increased my Trazadone dosage enough to knock out a horse. Well, it finally worked. There were groups including visualization to assist with panic attacks. I met a young woman that also suffers with mental illness and we developed a friendship. I left last night and the house is a mess. My husband didn't have the time to clean up because I was released early. I woke up today and I am extremely overwhelmed with the housework that is needed around my house. I also woke up with ear worms...again and found that a prescription I got filled last night got misplaced. I am going to spend the day reading, coloring, and maybe watching Games of Thrones. I also have schoolwork to make up which is making me extremely anxious. I see my provider on Monday. I am praying for more progress. All I can do is have faith and pray.

MrsMoon

MrsMoon

 

Ear Worms In Full Effect

About Me: For the past couple of weeks I have been wakened up by musical verses in my head. They are pretty consistent but sometimes they change. Its a group of lyrics on loop, over, and, over, again. It is absolutely maddening. It makes my anxiety 10xs worse. I just try to tell them to go away and they come back with a vengeance. I don't remember every suffering from this. Of course, I've had music stuck in my head but it was not troublesome. I am desperate to combat this. Also, I am not getting adequate sleep. I feel like I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. This really had an onset last week. I attend college online for my MSW and I had to turn in three papers and do a video (I HATE having people see me). Anyways, this is when my anxiety went to an all time high. I am also frustrated with my husband because he drinks and I worry that he will wake up drunk and go to work. It is terrifying. Everything scares me pretty much. I can't drive. When I'm in a car, I am apprehensive and hyper vigilant the whole time. I can only handle going to the grocery store and doing small errands. My anxiety is consistent throughout the day. Sometimes I cannot find the source. I wouldn't say I have panic attacks (I have in the past) but I have an internal dialogue of anxious feelings and beliefs. About Today: I woke up with the normal loop of music lyrics. I thought that a half way decent sleep would lol the effects at least a little. Wrong! I feel exhausted. I have chores to do. Seeing the sink with dishes in it makes my anxiety really bad. I feel like I have not been able to take care of my home because of my anxiety. I tend to take a shower and watch some tv. I'm currently obsessed with Game of Thrones. I am also quite active on social media. However, I find that it is increasing my anxiety. The political debates online dishearten me and anger me. I rarely comment, I just sit by idly hoping someone else does. I have to remember that there a more important things I need to worry about and many things are out of my control. I pray daily and try to read the bible. I just received a book in the mail "Be Anxious For Nothing" by Joyce Meyer. I plan on reading this today as well.

MrsMoon

MrsMoon

 

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Benlinda

 

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Benlinda

Benlinda

 

Don't Panic, Just Breathe

Panic attacks suck. I know it, you know it and anyone who has fallen victim to one knows it. However, this one simple exercise could help you relax in a pinch. What if I told you that you might be breathing all wrong? In fact, experts estimate that only around 12.5% of the population uses this optimal breathing technique. I understand it may sound silly to some that breathing has a technique to it. Let’s face it, air goes into your lungs and air leaves your lungs. It can’t be that hard, right? If I told you to stand straight up and take a deep breath, most of us don't use Diaphragmatic breathing; also known as abdominal breathing or belly breathing. Instead, they would likely be lifting their chest or shoulders to take in a deep breath. This is called shallow breathing and can cause more problems than you think.     Breathing with the Belly Imagine an infant sleeping soundly in front of you. Do you notice that the child does not actually breathe with their chest and shoulders?. Babies automatically breathe using a muscle called the diaphragm. We humans instinctually use this same muscle while we are sleeping or unconsciously breathing. The problem is that when we are conscious about our breathing and with the knowledge of the lungs as we age, we lift our chest and shoulders to take a deep breath. This doesn’t mean we never belly breath, it just means that when we are consciously aware of our breath we tend to trick ourselves. Not to mention that after some time of being consciously aware of the ability to control our breath, we tend to use shallow breathing more than belly breathing. Unfortunately, when you are having a panic attack, you are very conscious of your breath, which leads to hyperventilation. Not to worry though because this easy exercise can get you back on track to breathing correctly.   Taking a Deep Breath To take a truly deep breath and be consciously aware of it, the first thing you must do is just be aware of your posture. You can do this exercise in one of three recommended positions: 1.       Standing straight up in a relaxed position trying to keep the chest out slightly and shoulders back. 2.       Sitting straight up in a relaxed position trying to keep the chest out slightly and shoulders back. 3.       The easiest way is to simply lay on the hard floor. Note: This can be used during a panic attack, and I would suggest the floor because it is the most restrictive to your movements. I would not recommend lying on a soft bed for this exercise because your body will sink down causing your shoulders to squeeze your chest area. So, now that you have your position, take one hand and place it over your chest, and then place the other hand right below the ribcage so the thumb is touching the curve of the lower part of the sternum. Now, take a soft breath and then exhale, but when you exhale pull your abdomen in as much as you can. You will notice that this helps empty the lungs. Start to inhale, but as you do focus on your stomach and push it out. You will notice that even when pushing your stomach out your body automatically inhales as this is using your diaphragm. Now, upon exhaling make sure it is slow and extended. Your hands are merely there to help you be consciously aware of which part of the body to move while breathing. Try to take large, but short, comfortable inhales, followed by long slow exhales. This allows your body to relax and your heart to slow. Exhaling gives your body a natural relaxation response. I cannot stress enough that it is ideal to go slow and steady, but comfortable.   Counting for Comfort Now that you understand the breathing technique, it is best to make sure not to overdo the process. I cannot tell you how many times I have been focusing on my breath, and suddenly noticed I began to hyperventilate because I was literally overly worried about how much air I actually needed. I have come up with a little counting exercise to use during those exact moments. That way I will always know how to calm myself without inducing hyperventilation. After your first inhale hold your breath for 5 to 7 seconds. Exhale slowly as previously instructed, but DO NOT inhale immediately. Pause for 3-5 seconds before you pull in your next breath. Once you figure out a good and comfortable rhythm try to add counts to your inhale and exhale. Inhale slowly for 3 to 5 seconds, Hold for 10 seconds, exhale for 8 seconds and wait to inhale for 3 to 5 more seconds.  Practice Makes Perfect Once you have the technique pretty well memorized I would suggest putting in some practice and making it habitual. Giving any skill practice will cultivate it over time and belly breathing is no different. I suggest taking five minutes per day to really focus on this great technique. After a while, you will notice that during the day you will automatically belly breath to relax.   Wrapping It Up There are so many great things that can come from belly breathing beside a quick panic attack helper. But the greatest thing it increases for someone like us who suffers from anxiety is the increased relaxation. Every time you belly breath to fill your lungs completely and then follow with a slow exhale your body gets love from your brain telling it to calm down. While this is not a cure for anxiety, it is a really great tool for you to use anywhere at any time. Not to mention, when it becomes habitual you will find it helps to lessen a number of panic attacks you will have. Give it a try. You have nothing to lose except an incorrect way to breath.

Topher Burns

Topher Burns

 

My anxiety

Hello, my name is Brooke and I just recently joined anxiety central because I was in search of some advice regarding my health anxiety. It all started with the bottoms of my toes and feet feeling numb after one of my long walks. A couple days had gone by and the numbness was still there and that's when I decided to look online to understand why I was feeling this numbness and I came across all of these awful things that could be wrong with me and that's when I got scared and my anxiety started. From then on I had been in a state of constant anxiety and each day I would feel worse and I had a tightness in my chest, a lump in my throat, an upset stomach and tingling calves which worried me even more that something was wrong with me. It's when I finally made a post on here about what I was experiencing that I learned that all those things I was feeling was because of my anxiety and once I learned that, the things I was feeling started to get better and for the most part, go away. I'm still dealing with my health anxiety and am being hopeful that it will get better soon. Aside from health anxiety I also suffer from social anxiety and occasional anxiety due to stressful events. I feel writing this right now helps with my anxiety and I also feel that discussing anxiety with other users that may be going through something similar would be helpful too. If anyone would like to share any similar experiences or has any opinions or comments to add, please feel free to do so  

Beliza

Beliza

 

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dearprudence

dearprudence

 

Easy ways to burn calories by walking

Being obese is not a problem but taking no steps to reduce the weight is. If you’re afraid and bored of vigorous exercises, you should add walking to your to-do list. In the beginning of the interview, Mr. Marshal, a physical trainer added, “if you’re tired of workouts and still there is no weight loss, you must try walking”. If you know the tricks, you can burn extra fat by stepping on the road. Pack a perfect pair of shoes The first step you would take in walking is to buy shoes. Make sure it has normal flat surface with low-heel and fits you perfectly. Even a minute difference in measure can ruin your walking style. Walk before breakfast Studies say that, “walking as soon as you woke in the morning will help you burn more calories”. You will lose your glycogen levels during sleep and your body fat is used as a source of energy. Create your favorite playlist You should not get bored in your first attempt itself. So, before you step out, add your favorite songs to playlist. This will increase your walking route and pace. Adding beat songs may force you walk a little longer, so avoid sad songs that make you return home soon. Find a path to walk Walking pace and time depends on the route you’re going to choose. We don’t walk to our office nearby but we walk for miles in any holiday destination. Why is that? When our eyes get attracted to a place, it keeps forcing you from behind to walk, no matter how badly your legs pain. Find available long routes near to your house and choose the one with more trees, park and coffee shops. You can take rest for 5 minutes at the part and get water bottle from the café when exhausted. Who’s your walking buddy Well, if you’re very social and easily get bored while walking alone, all you need is a partner. The accompanier can be your sweet puppy, close friend or even your grandfather. Set your daily goal, motivate each other and achieve it. Sip green tea Don’t go to bath straight away when you return home. Sit for a while and drink green tea within 25 minutes after a brisk walk to heal cell damage and to see the slimmer you. Fats vary from person to person. So, don’t drop walking if it doesn’t give you any fruitful result. Be calm and chase your dream! Source: Modalert

clerk09

clerk09

 

Just thinking

Being home everyday is something alot of women dream of. Most days are okay. Then there are those days I wish I could go out alone. People take things for granted, like going to the store. Or even taking their kids to the park. There are a few people that try to understand. Others tell me it's all in my head. Or say things like I should force myself to do it. All of them mean well I guess. Doesn't help. Just makes me feel worse. Sometimes I figure I should be used to living like this. But I can't and it's a hard pill to swallow. 

SHALEASE

SHALEASE

 

Tough but Getting Through

For the last three days I've felt three emotions. Sadness, anxiety and numbness. I don't know if numbness really counts as an emotion per say, but it's better than the knot in my stomach from pure fear or the feeling of energy-sucking emptiness that takes me over. It's almost comforting. Everything is just dulled. However, even though I don't feel it I know that I should be proud of some of the things I've done the last three days. Yesterday I spent most of the day out of bed. I worked on a puzzle a little bit and took a shower. I actually drove into town and applied for a job. I had an interview today. I spent most of today out of bed as well. I haven't hurt myself either but again that might just be the numbness. 

emzi

emzi

 

Starting Over

Hey, My name is Em. I've been struggling with mental health issues as long as I can remember. The last six years have been especially tough. I've been diagnosed with GAD, depression and PTSD by a couple psychologists in therapy. I've also been put on antidepressants. I dropped out of therapy because my other therapists both had to leave for one reason or another and I just couldn't handle all the mixed messages and to go through everything again. I've been on my own for a while now, since February. I was doing ok but then summer came and now I don't have as many things to distract myself with. So I'm back to square one. I'm having a hard time getting out of bed, I'm worried all the time, I've been dissociating a lot. I can barely function with my meds. I have to fight to get back to where I was. I can do it, it's just going to be rough. I wanted to make this so I can vent and try to document my progress, even if it's small. Maybe we can help each other.  Thanks for reading.

emzi

emzi

 

So I joined a meet-a-friend site

I wrote off a group of friends from the previous state I lived in, about 13 years ago. They were mainly friends with me through my best friend, who I found out down the line was telling people before they even met me that I was "difficult to get along with". In the open she always commented, how I was a prude, or pasty white, or had no boobs, she'd laugh it off like it was some happy joke between us, but it wasn't funny for me- she was making light of things I could not or would not change.  I also tried out a couple of them to watch my two cats while I took off on vacation for 5 days, one person got a ticket while in my car and tried to deny it. The main couple thought each other was watching my cats, so neither came to tend to them.  So after spouse and I wrote them off, only telling them "we need to work on our selves, our lives, have a good life y'all, see ya"; we worked on our house and then sold it after a year. Moved across country. I thought I would get a job and make friends. Check, check, but then after 6 years, I quit said job and it ended up my co-workers did not wish to continue the friendship outside of work. I don't delve into drama, nor perpetuate, or judge people. I don't have kids, not single, cannot drink alcohol because my body won't metabolize it, and I am not pretty. I have some friends an hour away but lucky if we see them three or so times a year. I asked one of them privately what my quirks were when another of them brought up, in a group chat that they "like me with my quirks". The friend told me I could be "slightly sarcastic, which wasn't a bad thing, and that I tend to be self-effacing, also not a bad thing". I am clueless about either of these. I am only sarcastic with my husband because he knows when I am being funny. Self-effacing means something like "staying in the background, not wanting to be the center of attention". And this is supposedly what drives potential friends away? After all this time, I have not gotten used to not having friends, haven't had anyone other than husband to celebrate my birthday with in over 15 years. I never complain about it until now because I know that would turn people off.  My head hurts, my heart hurts, it feels like no one cares, and it stresses me out immensely to not know how to fix it. My whole body is just so tense. I've tried volunteering, several times at different places- animal shelters, archaeology digs, art centers, etc- to meet people and learn about the areas I live in. I am currently part of a huge volunteer-run organization, which is how I met the current friends- but again, lucky if we get together with these people three times a year because of being frugal with gas an cash since I am prematurely retired, being a stay-at-home wife, and husband is probably looking at earl retirement because he is so burnt out. It just feels so hopeless. The friend site, again, only has people who are looking for friends an hour away from me.  So BIG hugs to anyone who feels they are alone. You are not, I am here for you, and appreciate you for who are. I have enough love and hugs for anyone who needs it.

Florette

Florette

 

Doing GREAT

HI Everyone,  I haven't been around because I've been doing so very well.  Working in my  yard and being creative. Back at the gym, etc.  I'm on Facebook under Diane Weldy Tavegia and anyone can read my blog.   Absolutely doing GREAT! Diane  

Ihadcancer

Ihadcancer

 

CURED STAGE IV Colon Cancer!

It's been 5 years today since my liver resection and 8 years 3 1/2 months since my original Stage III dx. I had my blood work and scans done two weeks ago and all are good (other than walking pneumonia). 

My oncologist said I'd have blood work every six months for 2 years and a scan at the end of year 1 and possibly year 2, but I've had so many scans that we've now reached the point where I should only have scans if we think there's a reason or we might actually cause a new cancer.

It feels like I've been a 'cancer' patient for most of my life and I don't think I'll ever get over this experience, but hearing him say 'You're cured' was awesome. When I repeated it back to him, he said 'Likely cured. You've got only a few percent, more than 1%, but a very tiny percent chance this would ever come back.' He said it would be just unheard of for someone to have a tiny cancer cell just floating around out there in your body for 5 to 8 years, surviving my immune system, and then just attach to something and start to grow. 

That was awesome. He asked if I was still coughing and said just to finish the medication and my body would do the rest. 

CHRISTIAN REMARK FOLLOWING: 

I am so thankful to my LORD and Savoir for sparing my life and I hope He is pleased with how I use the time I have been given. 

"I will not die, but live, and I will proclaim what the LORD has done." Psalm 118:17

Diane

Ihadcancer

Ihadcancer

 

Cancer Tests start tomorrow at 10:15 3/13/2017

My 5 year post liver resection every 6 months tests begins tomorrow at 10:15. I'm having an MRU / MRI tomorrow in Douglasville. Another test on the 22nd and blood work and a CT scan on the 28th. I believe I am forever healed from Stage IV Colon Cancer and ask you to stand in agreement with me and against any worry or anxiety these tests tend to bring. Prayers of FAITH, please! I'll update as I get the results from each one. God is good. Two verses that I always lean on during testing time are: Psalm 16:8-11 I have set the LORD always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because You will not abandon me to the grave, nor will You let your Holy One see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; You will fill me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand. "I will not die, but live, and I will proclaim what the LORD has done." Psalm 118:17

Ihadcancer

Ihadcancer

 

Sunday thoughts...........

Sunday is always a bit of a struggle, getting up and started, because we teach 1st and 2nd graders at our church, in the next town.  Sunday School starts at 9:00, but we have 28 on roll and many of their parents teach or volunteer in the nursery or as greeters, sing in the choir, etc., so those children arrive extra early.   Today we arrived in plenty of time to get paper and foam frames ready for the class to make cards for our Children's director and family.  Our Minister of Music's father is actively dying and they took him home from the hospital and are caring for him there.  They have four children, from 7 years old up to a freshman in college.  The kids are helping but Dr. Frank (two doctorates and lettered in 3 sports at Auburn in the 1940's) has become agitated at times.  The hospice nurses have requested no more visitors, just family.   I have a friend who is 10 years younger than me who is actively dying of rectal cancer.  Her cancer was found very late and she's been fighting to live for 2 1/2 years.  The family is very private, but the husband did tell me that it is getting very, very bad.  Her husband and grown children are caring for her.  Things like this make me question why I was spared 8 years ago when I was diagnosed with colon cancer.  My pastor told me that God had something for me to do so it was my place to go and find it and DO it.  That's one reason I don't mind when one of you sends me private messages or even texts late at night when fear overcomes you.  Maybe that's why I'm still here. So, I do my best and fight my own fears that come less and less often, leaning on God and trusting that HE is in control.  Still, wishing I never had to face anxiety and fears of illness. I hope your day was a good one! Diane '

Ihadcancer

Ihadcancer