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  • MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why Make A Blog?

    By MrsRoryFromRunrig

    Why should one make a blog? There are a number of reasons to why making a blog is great, the advantages are: 1 - Relieves Stress 2 - Can help others 3 - Preach what YOU care about 4 - You have control 5 - It can actually turn into a business (like Cake Wrecks). There are a couple of disadvantages though: 1- Research, can take up time and not always be correct, always double check. 2 - People may read what you see as light hearted chat as to be something mean and nasty. 3 - Trolls, yes they happen on blogs too. 4 - Websites go down 5 - Some blogging sites are difficult to use and puts people off. Here at AC however it's easy peasy, and within reason you can blog about what you like, but please, if you blogs are hate, racist or too explicit, they will be deleted and information will be passed onto Admin who will then decide which action to take with your account. Thanks for reading! Pamie
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  • Gilly

    So, here we are. And a big thank you!!

    By Gilly

    January 2012. The past year has been eventful to say the least. Met some amazing people, had some bad times, some great times, some frustrating times but lots of laughs too. And now I find myself in charge of a site. Just how did that happen? lol It's never been my intention. I love to help people, in helping people, I help myself. I've said in the past, if it came down to it, I would be willing to do something. I guess I didn't really think it would happen, but here we are! It's a shame that things didn't work out at the last site. I always tried my best to help it work, doing this was an attempt to make it work. No matter what people thought, my intentions were for the good of us all. To make a site where everyone felt able to come, to get support, to not feel alone and to have a bit of a laugh when it was needed. I took it upon myself to try to push to make it better there, it didn't work, maybe I was wrong, maybe it was meant to happen like this, idk. But it happened, it got out of my control, and now here we are. One of the things that motivates me every day, and believe me I've been struggling with motivation a lot lately, is all the people I've met in the past year or so. How supporting each other has made such a huge difference. Looking after my paralyzed Mum is a daily struggle, I'm unhappy with that, I know I am. I don't want to have to do it, it's hard enough battling my anxieties but it is what it is. Having such amazing people to keep my spirits up, it keeps me plodding along. I want to thank you all, it means more than I can put into words. I will give this site my all, we're in this together. It's for us, and we deserve it. xxx
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The First Post

Well, hi. I just made this account after searching many (many, many, many) different websites, trying to find something, anything that I can get on where I can just..write. Because I'm not really sure what to do anymore. Obviously I'm here because I am struggling with anxiety. And I havent seen anybody about it, and I dont really want to. Is it even anxiety? What is anxiety? Am I overreacting, is it something else? How do you know, and how do you deal with it? It happened again tonight. I was talking to a friend of mine, and we started talking about school and family, and I told her about things that have beengoing on and things that have happened, and like clockwork it all happened as it usually does. My hands shake. I feel like somebody is squeezing my lungs, the room starts to spin, and this wave of heart-stopping FEAR just overwhelms me. And it can last from two seconds to twenty minutes, and I feel utterly miserable afterwards. Is this even anxiety? Or is this just my mind, playing tricks on me, sending me in circles, worrying over nothing? I don't know how much longer I can do it. I dont know. I dont really have anything else to say right now. I could go on forhours spilling out the thoughts in my head but I dont know if it would do me, or anyone else, any good.

shaky_mess

shaky_mess

 

My Journey

One huge step that I recently took in my recovery journey was to follow my doctor's suggestion of joining a therapy group. I was referred to a 12 week group, its 5 days a week in the mornings. I am now 7 weeks in. Going to this group was one of my best decisions. Everyone in the group is super supportive. The staff are all wonderful and I know I'm in the right place. This is a mixed group using interpersonal, psychodynamic and Cognitive behavioural therapies. It is very structured, which helps people get back into a routine. It can be very serious and hard to be in the room at times. There are also sessions which are more fun. We like to laugh and have a lot of fun when we are given the opportunity. I have never really been a fan of individual therapy, because I always found myself running out of things to say. In a group, if you have nothing to say, someone else will, and that might trigger memories. You can address so much more than you otherwise would.

Lexieannlak

Lexieannlak

 

feeling a lil better 2day

i get bad & good days with the anxiety 2day is one of my better days im not feeling anxious or drained i actually have energy lol its always a challenge when u any type of disorder but its def always great when u get good days & u just feel normal so on that note im gonna go clean up get my babies ready 4 the day & im also gonna get ready

twilightmoon87

twilightmoon87

 

new here

hello im new here im mainly just looking for people that i can talk to that can relate im 26yrs old i was dionasged with social aneixty depression panic disorder & adjustment disorder when i was 16yrs old ive been to a therapist but it made things worse so i stopped going over the past month my aneixty has gotten worse ive had 4 panic attacks in the past 2 weeks even though ive had this stuff for years im still having trouble coping with it when i have the panic attacks i have trouble calming down i just think it would help if i talk to more people that can relate i find it easier to talk to people that have the same problems as i do

twilightmoon87

twilightmoon87

 

Nervous!!!

I have noticed over the past few weeks my anxiety is slowly getting worse, I never leave the house on my own now, I always have someone with me, normally my sister which makes me feel guilty because she has to plan her day around me and any appointments I have, I am seeing someone next week to start a course of CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) which has got me worried big style, the reason? the person I am seeing. when I first started with depression I had to go see a councillor,she was nice enough but she put me on edge which I don't like and when put on edge I either withdraw into myself or I get angry,with her I withdrew in to myself,she was nice enough but she reminded me of someone though I can't for the life of me think who and that made me nervous, anyway after three sessions I stopped seeing her deciding I could cope on my own (given what happened in the 2 years afterwards I proved I couldn't!!) then last week I recived a phone call saying I had an appointment with,yup you guessed it,my first councillor,it was actually her on the phone and she did ask if I was okay with seeing her and I replied that yes I was okay with that,in truth I am,i need to get my anxiety under control as it is starting again to rule my life,i keep thinking that I am now 3 years older than I was when I saw her last and am (slightly) more confident and will be able to hold my own when I meet her again. My confidence has been gradually getting better since I have been attending weekly group sessions half an hour form my home,it was ment to be only 8 weeks but due to cancellations it has been longer than that,there are only 5 of us in the group which is the prefect size and I am the baby the sessions help us with things like confidence and C.V writing and how to cope in interviews. To be honest the group sessions is my social life,i don't have any friends around here,i get on with everyone in the group and I don't know what I will do when they stop. anyways wish me luck for next week and i'll let you all know how I get on!

bumblelion55

bumblelion55

 

How do you eat an Elephant?

My doctor once asked me how do you eat an elephant? i didn't really understand what she meant at the time but these past few weeks i am beginning to understand. When i was a child and a teengager i was very shy and quiet and didn't fit in,tie that and me being a big person seemed to give people a reason to pick on me and i was bullied alot,at times i begged my parents to let me change high schools but they never did and i couldnt wait to leave. After high school i spent 2 and a half years at college and my confidence grew and i had a small group of freinds,after i left college i applyed for a job with a travel company and i got a job working for them for 6 months each summer, the first season was great and i loved it but i had problems my second season and i came home with a stutter and i was very wary of people. To cut a long story short i resigned from the company and decided to stay in the Uk,i stopped going out and stopped seeing people, i would spend all day cooped up in my room,it would be weeks before i would wash or get dressed and i never walked past the garden gate on my own,i started s**f h*****g and my confidence plummeted even more. My doctors tried me with councilling and a Psychiatrist none of which worked, i became very anxious and i started getting headaches and stuttering when i had to do anything that involved new people or places,i was on job seekers and saw the disabilty advisor there who said it sounded like i had social anxiety, when i looked into it, oit sounded a lot like me,things like using a phone is a big issuse for me,meeting new people,being the centre of attention and simple things like getting a bus,it was a relief to see there was other people like me and i wasnt alone,then last november i had to go to a work related place near where i live,i felt really panicky about it and my stuttering seemed worse than ever, i kept asking my parents questions about it and i kept reading the letter i had been sent over and over again which was my way of trying to prepare myself. My first meeting with my advisor was really good and she put me at ease straight away,she didnt judge me on anything and she was really freindly,i wasn't forced into anything i didnt want to do and after a few one to one meetings she asked me how i felt about a group session,i agreed but about 3 days before i was ment to go my symptoms kicked in and i didnt go,my advisor knew how i am around people and just said we would try again which i did and i started doing small group sessions,i have only been to two and there are 5 of us,i still get anxious about going but everyone in the group seems to have some sort of illness at some point that they are starting to get over,anything we say in the session stay between us,i am at my third session this week and i am feeling nervous but i am looking forward to it, which is a start! How do you eat an elephant? Answer:A small step at a time

bumblelion55

bumblelion55

 

Breakthrough.

When I first went for therapy with a Jungian therapist he posed the question, "Do you want to get over this or go through it?" As I did not understand I responded, as one would; 'well, I want to get over it'. It took me some time to realise what he meant. To 'get over' something means that you revert to what you were before. Fine! That's just how I want to be, my old self. But is it? Is that not what brought about your trouble in the first place. The way you lived; how you thought; the relationships you had, good or bad; the poor judgements you made? This illness can be turned into a 'breakthrough' into a different way of understanding the world and our relationships. By going 'through' the experience; feeling the pain; not shying away from it a whole new perspective can open up. You become more aware of the suffering of your fellows and acquire the ability to help even if in a small way. The following is a quotation from a Jungian book and really sums up what I am trying to say. "There is a moment in the downward spiral of any negative emotion (fear, anxiety, despair) when an escape route opens up. Stop running away from the dreaded thing. Turn slowly. Face it. Walk deeper into the anxiety and know the pain. Cease resisting. Breath deeply. Soften you body and mind and let the full force of the rejected feeling into your awareness. Listen. Be attentive to the voice of the pain. Invite it to speak to you about your life. What is it trying to tell you? 'Negative' emotions are much like the dispossessed people in the body politic. They cease to be destructive when entered into full participation in the commonwealth. Suppress them and there will be insurrection rather than resurrection." Put the pain to some use. It is wasted energy and suffering if it is all to no purpose. Use it as a means to 'breakthrough' into a greater understanding. Physical help and medication can be useful but ultimately it is the mind that needs attention. J.

jonathan123

jonathan123

 

Agoraphobia

Hello, I am new here. I am here looking for advice mostly. I myself suffer from slight depression...anxiety and ocd. They have not affected my day to day life too much , but some days I do shut down and need solace. I have just started dating an agoraphobic. I felt quite lonely in my past relationship and am starting to feel that way again. I am supportive of him..and actually understand what he deals with.... but because I am human and love him, I am craving more time, and closeness with him. It is a struggle for me to be sympathetic sometimes ( though i don't voice that to him ) ....because I feel like my needs are not as important. We live far from each other , and he has made the effort to meet up a lot....but there is no alone time inside really. Any insight? Thank you in advance.

Needsclarity

Needsclarity

 

new medication has kicked in

Hi everyone well i say everyone knowowne will prob look at this but it gives me something to do when im having a bad moment, well i started on medication a week and a half ago after trying to fight anxiety symptioms for 4 years basicly i lost the fight and had to admit i needed help i did the counciling and it didnt work so meds were the only thing left to try,after trying sertraline for three days i had to come off them as they drove me up the wall the symptoms were so bad i couldnt cope at all so i have now been taking escitalopram the first week on them i thought id cracked it but then wallop i nearly passed out then was stuck with anxiety for three days i new i could have hightend symptoms but i also got some new ones to ,i doubt this is any different to many others but if your reading this and new to it i no it helps to no its not just you going through it. heres a few symptoms that i have id be interested to hear from anyone feeling the same way as me. dizzy feeling faint headaches a feeling of dread that washes over me shaking frightend fear of going out

alan

alan

 

Fed up

I am 17 years old and i have bin suffering with anxiety symptoms for about a year now. Anxiety runs in my family, My mum had it when she was just at the age of 6. Recently i have bin worried about stopping breathing, I have bin getting dizzy and feeling faint which causes me to panic more. I then start to shake and basically loose the plot. I get them when I am under pressure. I work as a waitress and when i go to serve someone i always feel the aniexty coming on. I have bin to the doctors i had my bloods checked, Everything is fine. My breathing has bin checked over by 3 doctors. He said he doesn't want to diagnose me with anxiety because he believes it is too young of an age to do so, He said it could just be my personality. My symptoms recently have bin back ache, Upper back ache. I may of pulled a muscles or something but the more i think about it the more it gets worse. And when i breathe in it hurts. At the moment i just feel like breaking down into tears...

Evie17

Evie17

 

Frustrated....

It's been such a long time since I felt good. I remember a time when I didn't have to worry about panic and anxiety. For 6 years I have been living a nightmare. I have some days that are good. Others that are pure hell. I was put on Zoloft and Ativan for my panic and anxiety. Seemed to work good for a long time. Then bam. It seemed like nothing worked. I have been on so many pills. I tried them all. So many bad side effects. Finally in January of 2012 I decided I had enough. I stopped taking Zoloft. No help nothing. All on my own. I did good till about March. Then everything got worse. I feel a lot better without the pills. But the panic is still there. I am not sure if it's withdrawl or what it is. It gets so hard to live. I feel like I will never be myself again. From zaps, blurry vision, anger, shaking, numbness in my face and very very dizzy. I went to my doctor and he took me off everything. Said the only way to get past this is to try a therapist. I am allowed 10 Ativan a month. Only to take when the panic is too much to handle. When will this stop? Am I having withdrawl even after so many months of being off Zoloft? I dunno what to do anymore.

MiZz MaG

MiZz MaG

 

Back Blogging

Well, blogging took a back seat for a wee while whilst I got myself sorted because my depression decided to be a douche. But yeh I am back and I am happy to be typing away like crazy again, I love it soo much, I suppose that is why I want to become a writer/journalist in so many ways. I was wanting to do sports journalism, but I am more and more leaning towards entertainment, and no I wont stalk anyone for you guys lmao. I changed from sports journalism because with the whole affair going on with Glasgow Rangers it has put me off, they have seriously ruined the game of football, along with Sepp Blatter, but yeh, they ruined the game and ruined what I wanted to do basically, but I always had entertainement as my back up area. I will be starting NC (National Certificate to non Scottish people) Media at Forth Valley College in Stirling so it is A LOT closer than Aberdeen, won't be doing up to 400 miles per week travel, maybe 100 miles at most, and please, no stalkers lmao, not that you would be able to find me as I change my hair colour as much as I change my socks haha. Well anyways, I will leave it all here, I am eating lunch and remembering I have to transfer my files from my laptop to my brothers PC, that is if my dad stays off it haha. so chow for now guys and gals, happy blogging. Mrs M x

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

All My Life

The other night my girlfriend was sleeping. It was about 3am, so the only thing I knew to do was write my poetry. All my life I have sought poetry, believed in poetry, from end to earth and beyond. I thought the way out was the way in, and through experience I would know more in life. I even began to stand on passionate moral stones, something I had never done before. Yet they are two impossible ones. Change the channel if you don't like them, but they are the belief that money is the root of all our problems. The other is commercialism sucks the soul out of genius. That aside, you cannot escape money and commercialism. And escapism runs rampant for you and me. I did drugs to escape the early onset of depression, which led to further exploration in the drug world and culture. Ultimately, I discarded that culture, because it is only escapist and just about the high. Did I stop there? NO. I turned to women-of-the-night, if you will. And that was a dark road, believe you me. A dark road few travel and should ever travel. I have left that dark path only with untying the knots between my enabling parents (the best parents really one could ask for. It is I who was diabolical) and with the help of my girlfriend and getting real with the facts of economic crisis, unemployment and the general drudgery that weighs a person down. So I have turned to no-god, to maybe a god, to there-is-God. But I am unfulfilled, and making ends meet is not the time to meditate on the great ALL I once dwelt on so much. And the pills, cost of pills, psychiatric-patient relationship, I've sat in on enough to know how the psychologist ticks more than they know how I tick. Despair, kvetch, crying shame. It is a lamentation and confession. I sought ways for solutions to my problems and it always becomes part of the greater problems. Not vice-versa. And so the impossibility of a world without currency and commercialism drives me insane. And that everyone simply just follows along, nickel and diming their advertising, their art, their skill set, their pics of babies on Facebook. In one giant cluster-f, I am angry. And I know that this anger I feel is meant for hunting in fields for dinner, not going to the grocery store. It is for dragging some female to my cave, not match.com. Yet this is Civilization, and I have to deal with it. We all have to deal with it. I also wish I could stop smoking cigarettes so much, too.

XavierAlex

XavierAlex

 

So, this is what happened!

My mum called my curriculum leader about me being off and my sickline. All she had to say was "I'm sorry she isn't well" AND "she will have to email me about her returning", ummmm excuse me? I am signed off for my anxiety and depression, I am getting help and all the college can think about is numbers and statisitics, f***&&& BS! After my 4 weeks is up, I am literally gona say to my GP that I don't want to go back just to go back to square one, cause I know that will happen. Just a small thing to clear my head after hearing what she said to mum, mum DID mention that she didnt want me to start self harming again mind you so that probs put a shock through her.

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

So angry right now

So today I've been feeling ill. Anxiety pretty low though, for a change. Then Mum calls, my Brother wants to talk to me. I call my Brother who said Mums annual review was today, well as her primary carer it would be nice to know!! All I was aware about was the council wanted to talk to me about my Mum. I got a letter a few days ago, requested I call them to discuss Mum, but who and where, no details on the letter, no contact information. So my Brother was there when social services came today. There had been several complaints from Mums carers. On hearing this I was about to explode. Any of you that know me well know how incompetent they are, they leave lights on, leave the door open, don't give Mum all she needs before they leave. I am ALWAYS cleaning up after them. But they have complained that they cannot put Mums gas and elecrticity on, even though the keys are ALWAYS kept on the mantle. They can't always give Mum her pills because they can't find them, seriously??? they are ALWAYS kept in the same place. And they have reported that my Mum appears to be in debt... She owes some money to a catalogue from before her stroke, like wtf. It's not a big deal. Also they have said there is never any hot food to give Mum for lunch. YES that's because she doesn't want hot food for lunch, I cook her evening meal, she likes to have sandwiches for lunch. Honestly I am SO pissed off right now, Mum's just as angry as me about it. THEY are the ones who should be complained about. I try so hard to care for my Mum to the best of my ability, and argh I haven't complained about them because I don't do that, i don't like to complain, I appreciate what good some of the carers do. But no more, this has made me feel like shit, it makes me look bad. It's wrong and unfair. They WILL be hearing from me about this.

Gilly

Gilly

 

Depression & Me.

Well, Hi everyone, I am Pam, also known as Bendy. I am 26 years old, will soon be 27, and I would like to tell you about depression and me. It all really started when I was 7 years old in Primary School. My best friend at the time was tragically killed within the school grounds in a freak accident, my mum tried and tried to get me counselling as I had witnessed the event, but the school and education board would not allow it, even the doctors wouldn't put me through as I was young they must have thought I would grow out of the thoughts of that day, or something. But they hadn't. My education suffered and so did my social activities, I stopped a lot of things like playing football and netball, I stopped attending the Guides (when I was of age) and just shut myself in my bedroom. It was when I was 11, my mum had had enough of seeing me like this, I wasn't the bubbly hyperactive child she knew, so I saw a new doctor and she diagnosed me with depression, I was 11, so I was put on medication which helped a lot, but my schooling was still suffering, why?, because my friends from school decided to "ditch" me. I went on to leave school with no Qualifications as, well, my High School wasn't going to let me sit my exams as I wouldn't sit my maths exam. So off I went into the big world of College, I tried to get into a media course as I want to either work in journalism or TV Production, but due to leaving school with nothing, I wasn't accepted into college, this put me back to square one. I was then accepted to study computing and IT as I though I will build up my qualifications through college and try again. As this is rather long, I will fast forward and say I successfully completed four courses at college in Computing, Administration & Travel & Tourism... Last year I applied to study a HND in Aberdeen, I was accepted and I travelled from my home in Fife to the city three days a week, that was until that fateful day in October, when I gave someone my own opinion of themselves, from then on they have tormented and bullied me with the college doing absolutely nothing, this has put me back, I haven't had an easy 12 months with 3 deaths in the family and a c***** diagnosis, so he knew my weakness was this time and now he is pouncing. I hate to say it but I had a meltdown today (20.01.12), I told my mum everything whilst crying my eyes out and she is taking some control of the situation, I will be seeing my GP on Monday to discuss this, and to hopefully sign me off from College, but it looks like I will not be returning, mainly for my mental state, I guess you could say I have won against this bully, as I am standing to the college via my mum and asking why nothing is being done!. I will leave my story here as I do not want to drone on, but I hope Monday will be a positive day for me. Pam x

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

Why Make A Blog?

Why should one make a blog? There are a number of reasons to why making a blog is great, the advantages are: 1 - Relieves Stress 2 - Can help others 3 - Preach what YOU care about 4 - You have control 5 - It can actually turn into a business (like Cake Wrecks). There are a couple of disadvantages though: 1- Research, can take up time and not always be correct, always double check. 2 - People may read what you see as light hearted chat as to be something mean and nasty. 3 - Trolls, yes they happen on blogs too. 4 - Websites go down 5 - Some blogging sites are difficult to use and puts people off. Here at AC however it's easy peasy, and within reason you can blog about what you like, but please, if you blogs are hate, racist or too explicit, they will be deleted and information will be passed onto Admin who will then decide which action to take with your account. Thanks for reading! Pamie

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

Adam Smith College, Fife is SCUM!

Adam Smith College, you have reached an all time low!. I received a letter today regarding my application to HND Practical Journalism. It stated that they could not offer me a place. I wonder why? Because I am over 25, have no qualifications, have some radio journalism experience? Whatever it may be it will NOT be because there are no places left. Funny how they offered me an interview LAST YEAR!!! Why DOES the college not let those over 25 with experience onto their course? I have seen it in their other courses at HND level, this is discrimination against us! Well to my knowledge it is. I will be 27 in one week and 6 days, I have ALWAYS wanted to become a journalist because I can write and talk for Scotland, but I couldn't get into a NC Media course because of leaving School with no qualifications, so I built them up in computing and IT and administration, as to be a good Journalist you need these skills. So I proceeded, again wasn't able to get onto the Media course. So I thought f**k it, I will go for my second choice which was Travel & Tourism, I passed my NC, failed to get onto the HNC at Adam Smith, but was awarded a place (depending on numbers) at Carnegie College! I would try Carnegie, but they don't seem to have the HND Practical Journalism course running this year, I am currently awaiting an interview from Forth Valley College in Stirling, I received a letter from them stating they would be in contact with an interview date soon. I would stress that if I do get a place in Forth Valley, I will be writing to Adam Smith College and my local MP to see what the hell is wrong with giving a 27 year old local girl the path to what has been her dream job since she was 8 years old. Adam Smith's website is actually down at the moment, they must know I have gotten my letter lol, unfortunately for them I remember their address from my past courses haha! Fool to them, and if I get a place at Forth Valley it will be Adam Smith's loss!. I will blog on future outcomes of college . Pamie x

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

A Blog I wrote about Bullying and Me.

Here, I am going to talk about how I was bullied through Primary School, High School, One time at College, my work and most recently online. I have had a tough life, I was an outcast in school, mainly because none of my family were from Fife, everyone was like family because they were from the area. But I wasn't. I had friends who stood by me up until the age of 12, when it was revealed I was diagnosed with depression. They must have all thought I was mad because of my age etc. I felt so low and shut out, I stayed in my bedroom. Anyways on to the bullying. Everything was fine until my older brother Michael left for High School, that's when it started each day I was tormented by a boy 1 year above me. and it went on and on and on. I told my mum, who then told the school, but nothing was done, until my teacher in P5 got involved. Because people in my class seen I was an easy target one girl then started, she hid my pencils, forced me to write in colouring pencil, and it wasn't her getting the row it was me, it wasn't until one parent's night my mum spoke to my teacher and she called me in and I literally just cried and cried because of it. My teacher who I really liked that year was so involved with helping me so much, but then came P6. And it started again, this time because my teacher didn't think I was being bullied, and yet SHE was bullying me also, because of this I didn't want to speak to her or anything, she called me thick in front of my friends, this really hurt me, told my mum, but because my teacher was a trusted teacher it was dismissed, even by the Education Board in Fife Council. So then on I admit I skipped school because of this teacher and the bullying, but no one really knew how it was affecting me. I had already lost my best friend Lee in 1992 who was involved in an accident in School. I didn't want to lose anything else, but the way things were going, it was heading that way, this continued into P7 class. I have to admit the bullying in High School was low and was only committed by the same person that started it when my brother left. This was because my brother was almost leaving High School when I started. At this point in my life other things was happening to me (body changes etc). And this continued throughout High School, I was put into an Adolescent Unit, where I was bullied there. Then moved onto a Support Unit where things got better. Came to exam's the unit I was in asked if I could sit my English, Geography and History exams, but my School said no because of attendance, again, I felt the school was punishing me because of this. My parents even said the School was bullying me. In 2008/09 year of college I was bullied because of my anxiety. The others in my class were younger than me, I was the oldest, and because they knew I suffered from this they took it upon themselves to call me names like junkie, loser, lier (they thought I was milking it all). The bullying was stopped for a while but then it started again, so to stop it once and for all I decided to switch campuses and then the bullying stopped. I have to say my College stopped this more than any other educational place in my life. In September 2009, I applied fro a job at Subway and was successful. I loved my job, met some good people, but there was one who thought it was funny to make fun of how I react with my anxiety. Myself however didn't think it was funny and neither did another member of staff. Both of us reported this to our manager who reported it to HR, and guess what nothing was done, the girl was still able to pick on me non stop, it got so bad that I called in sick because I didn't want to work with her. She then made a comment about me being off due to my anxiety whilst my mum was still on the phone to her. this was noted by myself and another colleague. Again HR did nothing, this girl has had so many times that she could have been warned or sacked. Because of this girl another member was sacked because of her attitude towards her, but it was her causing the attitude. It wasn't until last month I wrote to the Managing Director of Subway to voice my concerns and complaint. as the HR manager also bullied me because of my ADHD and a status I made on Facebook. She said that by looking at a PICTURE yes a picture, I was drunk.... only thing is one drink and my ADHD is set off, she wouldn't hear it though, she then went onto a status I made which she took to me meaning I was drunk, as I had said I was pissed, however I meant I was pissed with someone..... This is someone who doesn't know what ADHD is and or how it affects people. People like this should be warned of any effects things can have on conditions. But she was adamant I was drunk and took the day off because of this. When in fact I had a migraine which I have suffered from since I was young and was NOTED in my medical (as was my ADHD and Anxiety). I hope that with my letter this company can stamp out bullying in the workplace. Just tonight I was cyber bullied by someone I thought I could trust. Just because I moaned in a status about putting details on my Facebook which I shouldn't because of my chosen career path. She made up a horrible lie, about something I was supposed to have done on a website we were members of. Now my mum has emailed the owner to see if there is any truth to this, but I can assure you there isn't as the content that was supposed to have been uploaded was a automatic banning,. and I was never banned until now when I voiced my opinions (weird). So I thought no, I am not letting her get away with this, I reported her to facebook and I kind of hope people who are on my friends list will follow suit, in fact I hope ANYONE who is being bullied via any social network contacts the owners and reports the person. Anyway, I am going to move on now as my fingers are starting to hurt from my typing, but I am glad you have taken the time to read my story on Bullying & Me.

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

Headache and Panic

First proper post . Well, after my rather LONG sleep from 6pm till midnight, I had a stonking headache. SO what happens, I get up and boof a rush of anxiety started, even after taking pain killers the anxiety was still about, I seriously don't know why it decided to attack, maybe due to the stress I have been under since Weds. Well, I took to the chat and started to blether away and forgot about being in a panic about the headache. Ahhhh and the slave, I mean older brother has brought me something to eat . Let's hope some food also helps steam this anxiety (yes its slightly back). And well, I shall leave this one as its only a wee blip, until the next blip, which I hope won't be for a while. Pamie x from my blog - Pain & Anxiety Days - http://thedailypain.weebly.com/pain--anxiety-days.html

MrsRoryFromRunrig

MrsRoryFromRunrig

 

So, here we are. And a big thank you!!

January 2012. The past year has been eventful to say the least. Met some amazing people, had some bad times, some great times, some frustrating times but lots of laughs too. And now I find myself in charge of a site. Just how did that happen? lol It's never been my intention. I love to help people, in helping people, I help myself. I've said in the past, if it came down to it, I would be willing to do something. I guess I didn't really think it would happen, but here we are! It's a shame that things didn't work out at the last site. I always tried my best to help it work, doing this was an attempt to make it work. No matter what people thought, my intentions were for the good of us all. To make a site where everyone felt able to come, to get support, to not feel alone and to have a bit of a laugh when it was needed. I took it upon myself to try to push to make it better there, it didn't work, maybe I was wrong, maybe it was meant to happen like this, idk. But it happened, it got out of my control, and now here we are. One of the things that motivates me every day, and believe me I've been struggling with motivation a lot lately, is all the people I've met in the past year or so. How supporting each other has made such a huge difference. Looking after my paralyzed Mum is a daily struggle, I'm unhappy with that, I know I am. I don't want to have to do it, it's hard enough battling my anxieties but it is what it is. Having such amazing people to keep my spirits up, it keeps me plodding along. I want to thank you all, it means more than I can put into words. I will give this site my all, we're in this together. It's for us, and we deserve it. xxx

Gilly

Gilly

 

12/28/11

I thought this would be good for me to post about my day to you all..cause I trust you guys and love you tonssss (lol). They say to keep a journal for yourself to help with your anxiety and depression. Maybe if I journal it on here it will help others to see that they are not alone and theirs life isn't as bad as it may seem. If I can get thru each day than anyone can . So as usual I woke up with anxiety..Ive been really worried about MONEY and some things I've been thru lately that I haven't made the BEST decisions on. Its' been very difficult to get out of bed and I would rather sleep all day because I don't have to think the negative thoughts I do all day. Because of my family I am trying my best to get thru this rough year of my life. I can't let my family and friends down...I know they need me and I love them alot. So I try to think of things that will make me happy today LIKE... the coffee and donut I got for breakfast, the daycare kids I care for,helping my son with his ASVAB test tonight,chatting with my friends on line and going to my psychologist. Oh and I also set up an appointment for a part time job to help elderly people at home I love to take care of people thats just me . Anyway this is all rambling stuff BUT I kinda like the idea of having my OWN blog too . Ok well the kids are getting up from nap so I have to go...I will blog tomorrow.

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